I started pole dancing in November of 2018 with the intention of learning to desire myself, to claim ownership over my sensuality, and to rid myself of the sexual shame that is deeply engrained in me from having spent the first 22 years of my life in a mostly conservative, rural town.
Even once I became sexually active, I didn’t feel sexually autonomous. I spent most of the last 16 years putting my pleasure and sensuality second (or worse). I rarely wanted to be thought of as “sexy” because I’d been taught that being sexy was threatening to my physical safety. Can’t show too much skin or “I’d be asking for it.”
“It” being sexual harassment, sexual assault, or rape. It was the classic patriarchal misogyny that I now actively work to defy and dismantle.
Pole dancing still stirs up these feelings—especially when we get into these more fluid moves—but the judgmental voice that tells me I “shouldn’t” be doing this is much quieter now. I’m learning that I get to choose when to turn up my sexiness, and the presence of straight men is 💯 NOT REQUIRED.
And let me tell you... when I do, it can feels amazing, joyful, and sexy af. (It also helps to have an amazing studio like @bodyandpole 🙏🏼 a hype qween like @baby_stud_muffin cheering you on from the sidelines 😜 and an incredible instructor like @argonpole creating dope choreography 💃🏻) #polepixie #mypolejourney #reclaimyourpower #polefamily #bodyandpole #polechoreography #polefluidity #dancefamily #polepassion #poletraining