Okay, so the promised update!
I cut my hair.
Today I went to see Dr. VB who is a Psychiatrist. I was very nervous because psychiatrists make me nervous. Usually they just try to stick meds on you.
It turns out that she is a psychiatrist who specialises in disabled people. Instead of giving me mess, she listened to me. She gave me paperwork to get assistance for school tuition. She said to me that she would PERSONALLY call insurance and get the testing I needed approved, a full psych eval and Asperger’s testing. She said that I need to get a diagnosis of ptsd and depression which would help me get SSDI. She also will help me get a service dog! I am beyond happy and so thankful that she is going to help me. She will be seeing me every week starting Sep 17th. I am happy.
I will get answers, I will get hope, and a better life.
I am excited for my crutches to come. After a small setback of me worrying I didn’t get the right ones, or that I should have gotten a walker, I am glad I got them. They should arrive tomorrow I think. I hope they come soon. I really want them to be here.
On Friday I will be meeting with someone important from Bible College to discuss the scholarship. I’m nervous about it tbh. I’m leery of other students and don’t feel like I quite belong there. Sometimes I wish I was average in intelligence, average in abilities, and just a normal person. I would fit in and never know that people didn’t like me. I wouldn’t be smart enough to realise it and blissfully live in ignorance. Oh well, I am not like that.
I still haven’t met with the lady about the teaching job offer... *sigh* I just stopped typing this to text her again and see if we could get a date to meet up.
I am a little sad, because I feel guilty for asking for financial aid when my parents are willing to pay it. But they shouldn’t have to pay it. They shouldn’t have to pay for medical things, and school, and food, and clothing for me. I should be able to do that myself, but I can’t. So I must apply for aid.
I will be up for a long while tonight. I feel sadness beginning to creep in.
Still haven’t heard back from the braces place. I hope they come soon. I need them now.