Yesterday I did an interview for a feature article in the newspaper about my experiences living & dancing with OCD/intrusive thoughts, with a journalist who read my blog. If you had told me a few years ago that one day I would be comfortable ‘exposing’ myself and my once incredibly ‘secretive’ intrusive thoughts, I would have called it ridiculous. I didn’t think it was ever possible to find such stable confidence in my sense of self. But I think I am slowly proving to myself that the small steps that you take to break down barriers, and own your story, eventually pay off, and one day you realise you are living with the authenticity you’ve always dreamed of, and this is such an incredibly empowering feeling.
The nature of intrusive thoughts create so much shame and guilt - we all know this.
They’re not the kinds of thoughts we talk about, they’re graphic, violent, disturbing or sometimes just ridiculous and completely irrational ..
They should be kept a secret. This is what society makes us believe. But this isn’t true, and writing and storytelling, has been incredibly powerful in my recovery. Writing about my OCD was the most influential thing in gaining my life back, and I am forever grateful for the gift of words. The ability to share and express, is something OCD can never take from is us - and I think this is such an important thing to remember when you feel hopeless.
Stay posted! ❤️