Hi - my name is Searsha. I have struggled to share my story because of embarrassment and shame, but now that I am on top looking down at everything I’ve overcome during the last two years, I hope I am able to inspire others and show there is truly a light no matter how dark it may seem.
In 2016, I felt on top of the world. The love of my life had asked me to be his wife, we got married, and found out that we were going to have a little boy. Everything I had ever dreamed of was my reality.
In 2017 I gave birth to my son two months early, my grandmother passed away just days after he was born, I developed severe postpartum depression sitting in the NICU alone for hours on end, and a handful of months later my (ex)husband left for a woman he worked with. The anxiety and depression that sat in the pit of my stomach day in and day out was unbearable. I was angry at God and would go to bed wishing I just wouldn’t wake up. I stopped caring for myself and poured any energy I could muster up into my son. He is the reason I am able to write this today.
In a period of five months, I went from living my dream to living my worst nightmare. I had two options: 1)keep going down a destructive, anxiety ridden, depressed path, replaying the what if’s like a movie in my head or 2) push the reset button, take a deep breath, and start over. After months of being in denial that my life had become what it was, I finally decided to choose the latter, and I will never look back.
In July, a friend had posted a picture of her and I - I had to double take - was that really me? I was at my highest weight, 278 pounds, but never actually saw the weight that had piled on until this photo. I was mortified. I didn’t even recognize myself.
Change starts from within. In August I started an intense ministry counseling program, a program I am still in today. There’s no way I could have overcome everything I have without this, including my weight loss.
I have lost a total of 79 pounds, and I’m not stopping there. This is my journey of weight loss, and in the process of losing one thing, I am gaining something so much more - my life.