September 2013. That is when these pictures were taken. I was 20 years old, a senior in college, and 323 lbs.
The first time I noticed I was bigger then the other girls my age was in the 2nd grade. The other kids would make comments noticing the same thing I was about my size. I wasn't this ginormous kid but when you grow up in a town where you play sports immediately upon exiting the womb being just a little bigger still meant you were different.
My bestfriend from kindergarten until that point was actually a guy but I am sure most don't know that. I think some people would be really shocked to find out who it was to be honest. ♀️We would bring each others video game consoles over to the others house. He was the first person I invited to my birthday party and he was the last to leave. (I actually remember exactly what he gave me for my 5th birthday ) Id like to think we would have stayed friends past the second grade even if I wasn't different then the other girls but who knows.
What I do know is that was the year I became self-conscious of my body. The fricken second grade and it only got worse from there.🤭It escalated to guys making jokes and saying comments under their breath while the girls they were friends with just ignored it or snickered along with them. That's highschool though. The only thing that matters is the opinions of everyone else, so I don't hold a grudge.A kid in my 7th grade history class made a joke about me being pregnant once. I remember exactly what I was wearing, what class it was, who said it, and the exact words used like it was burned into my brain. The worst part? I am sure the kid that said it or anyone else in that 7th Grade US History Class will remember it even happening.
So why don't I hold a grudge? Because if I did not have the exact highschool experience that I did I would not be where I am today. I would not have lost 103 lbs and counting. I wouldn't have had the drive, motivation, inspiration, or desire to make a change.Don't get it twisted, losing this weight was ALL ME. But I would be lying if I said I wasn't losing weight to show off at my 10 year reunion (that’s 2 years away btw!)