Today was the second time at this new-to-me church. Before this, I was pretty lost. I’ve always been a believer. Grew up Lutheran, went to church almost every Sunday. Was baptized as an infant, and it was just part of our life, what we did. As I grew older, I distanced myself from the church, from the Bible, and from prayer...but never dropping my belief in the Lord.
When I moved in with my now husband, I felt grounded from my ever-changing life. I was reintroduced to the Lord and started reading my Bible again, attending church, and I even got baptized for a second time (although ‘unnecessary’ in some eyes because I already was) it was a re-birth for me.
But something was still missing. I prayed, and read, and tried following...but still felt a disconnect. I still felt as if I couldn’t focus, didn’t comprehend, and most definitely didn’t feel what ‘others’ were feeling. I again, distanced myself from the church, but this time I still tried to do it on my own...reading on my own, prayers no on my own (sometimes with my husband), and watching sermons online.
Fast forward to a couple weeks ago when a friend asked me to attend a new church. I felt a spark and decided to go. The whole experience brought me to tears more than once...happy tears. The message was what I needed, the worship was invigorating, and I just felt that I was where I needed to be.
Today I learned something. I LOVE when I can learn and dig deep into the Bible, because I feel so much of it is hard for me to understand. Anyways, the pastor was talking about the Holy Spirit, and how it’s a deeper means of connecting with God. With the Holy Spirit upon us, we can experience the miracles, we can witness the magnificence, we can pray on a deeper level, and have a deeper connection with God.
My missing piece.
Something in me changed today. A girlfriend prayed over me and more tears flowed as the overwhelming power of the Holy Spirit entered me. I have never been so excited, filled, and at peace in my life.
I am ever so thankful I went today and I cannot wait to see where this next page of my story will take me.