#Truthtime my #Fitfam ! (Warning Long post ahead) My #firstyearteaching ended in a crazy, happy, #stressful and abrupt end. The change in my #routine was a huge blow to my #momentum and my #consistency with my #workouts. I went from extremely regimented, never missing a day, getting stronger and fitter to missing day after day until suddenly all this time had gone by and all the excuses had piled but really meant nothing. I was not prepared for how difficult the end of the year would be- not just how busy it was but with how suddenly - not busy and totally aimless - I found myself. Combine that with losing my amazing trainer around the same time, with some traveling, with fighting other stuff that made it hard to get out of bed each day, It was pretty easy to convince myself “I’ll get back on it tomorrow...” the thing that I most needed to shake out of my current state was the thing I wasn’t doing. Finally with starting my part time summer job, feeling a sense of “purpose” and meaning to my day, and really pushing myself to get my a$$ in the gym I can say I am more proud of getting there today than I can express. I also practiced the #piano again for the first time in a grip and I’ve been working on my #creativewriting again. Seriously healed my spirit today and seeing friends and talking my “people” at the gym really gave me so much comfort and happiness and motivation. I think that I have to know that these transition times are difficult for me and do little things to help myself prepare- starting with giving myself some grace and just DOING the things that help break my low cycles like - work out, practice music, and write. I’m trying not to be hard on myself and my progress and the work I have to do to get back to where I was and instead use that to motivate myself further. It’s true what I learned with #cbt and #dbt about #oppositeaction to combat #depression. When the last thing you want to do is get out of bed and go work out, it’s probably the thing that will help most. When you can’t think about hanging out with friends and being around people, make a plan and go be with your friends. Just keep going and pushing. It’ll be ok. It will.