#RealTalk because I like to be 100% true to myself. This past week was a rough week at work, so it affected me physically and mentally. My energy level has dropped, and every second was a struggle on my run earlier this morning. .
I wasn't feeling it and my mindset was a bundle of mess. I ended up finishing a 5K instead of a 10K that I was planning on. I was so disappointed, really disappointed.
I took a walk instead and my mind floated around the random train of thoughts. I was thinking about the time I finished my first ever 5K run, and back then, I was so thrilled. I texted my mom and my best friends right away of how happy I was to accomplish something I've never thought was possible. And how did I lose that positivity all of a sudden?
It scares me to think that once I've achieved something BIG, I would feel the hunger for MORE. Faster pace, longer distance, shorter time etc. I've ignored the whole journey that slowly builds my strength over time to become who I am today. Suddenly, I've understood that THIS is why I've lost it. In the past, my goal was to reach the finish line no matter how fast or slow it would take. But today, I put too much pressure on myself and I was feeling ANGRY the whole entire time while I was running. Enough is enough.
Running is something I love. It shows that with enough practice, persistence, and will-power, I could definitely reach the finish line. After this thought, I've realized that not every run will be a great one. It's okay not to achieve my best time, finish the total distance I've planned, and not feel the greatest during my run.
At the end, every "bad-day-run" will still add up to the solid effort I've put in and out daily. No short cuts, secrets, or magic pills. Just a person who works her butt off and ready to get back up no matter how many set backs I've stumbled upon. From a person who couldn't run a minute straight on a treadmill to training for the first ever half-marathon race in December...And I'm freakin' proud of myself for that