DAY 99: Gratitude.
Food addiction is real, it is addiction just like any other in that it makes your life unmanageable, takes over your mind, and puts the devil in your head.
Our baby girl is just over two months, and I am beyond grateful to say that I have been PRESENT the entire time. I have not used food to escape in 99 days now. Wow. Honestly, miraculous, thank you God.
I am filled with so much gratitude this morning. Prayer has not only begun to allow me to heal in mind-body-soul but it is also helping to heal my relationships that have suffered because of years of me escaping and struggling in my addiction.
My husband and I have been through A LOT together. From a miscarriage, to having to say goodbye to toxic family, to moving three times in 6 months during my second pregnancy, to dealing with my addiction, to school and career struggles, and more. We are going on 4 years since we said we would never give up on each other. Our struggles have brought us both to our knees and have most recently brought us both closer to God. We pray daily with our children, and it is allowing our broken hearts to heal. Marriage is not easy, especially with an addict, but it is always worth it, especially when you are finally on the other side of addiction. 15+ years later, I am here, thank you God.
Today I am most grateful for my family. (oldest to youngest ) I almost threw my most precious gift away, my family, right before I finally fell to my knees, let go of my pride, and turned to God. We as a family unit have become so much stronger and wiser through all our trials and I know without a doubt, we are unstoppable.
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