It has been 10 weeks since I brought this tiny human earth side. Birth is so much to process and I still have so many feels every day about it. This picture was our first night getting to be skin to skin and learning about each other from outside the womb.
Birth is a beautiful experience and no matter how you do it, I think it is incredible. My birth plan didn’t go as I had hoped, but in the end, it was all alright and my babe had arrived safe.
At 36 weeks pregnant, I had been measuring small for over a month and had to go in for a growth scan. My doctor came back with devastating news that I had Inaugural Growth Restriction and my baby’s stomach was measuring at the 1st percentile and my placenta was failing. I remember the anger and sadness I felt and walking out of the office with tears rolling down my face feeling failure. I was to be induced in a few days.
Induction was a completely miserable 3 day experience for myself. I had wanted to experience natural childbirth but all I really wanted was a growing and healthy baby. It was all worth it after Astrid reached my arms. I had a beautiful and safe baby, my heart was full.
For all you mamas out there, I want you to know you are doing a great job. No matter how your baby reaches this world, there is no judgment. You did a miraculous job getting your child here. Whether you have a home birth, hospital, water, cesarean, vaginal, medicated... please know you did such a great job. I hate feeling judgment of my birth by others, but as I stare at my beautiful girl, I look at a gorgeous, healthy and growing little being. This is the picture of true love and a full heart.