The car accident killed me as well as the lack of sympathy from family members stemming from the death of my grandfather so i’m really sorry to anyone who thought I was just happy and non-challant and distant. I struggle to be happy everyday as I often don’t get much sleept waking up at night feeling like my head is still on the steering wheel hitting up into the side of a mountain as the car lost control when i span away from a cliff around a dark bend of a street with no light. I am trying my best - Just a dead girl struggling to breathe.
Just knowing ur family boasts about the doctors they’ve reared and their accomplishments and positions and that my gradfather died in a shitty hospital.. its can be disheartening. So just bear with me if i’m not super thrilled all the time. Its a rough journey esp when people who I thought were there really weren’t. But its just the drama that had been created and directed at me out of their own guilt to justify those cruel actions. May his soul rest in power as i take down this painting that reminds me of his unfinished drawing which could have been a painting had he lived a little longer.
Please bear with me as i’m coping and struggling with PTSD, depression and anxiety after a series of traumatic events. I’m trying my best. I apologize to those who feel I have been distant I am working on recovering things. #recovery#struggling#motivation