In middle school I was a fat kid. I developed later than basically every other girl, and then we were too broke for bras for a good bit.
I fucking HATED gym class. I’d do anything to avoid it. I hated being looked at by all the judgy, pretty, popular girls in nice new clothes.
I hated feeling my newly forming breasts bounce around along with my belly when I tried to run. I.HATED.GYM CLASS. It was basically torture.
So imagine my surprise at how much I LOVE being able to move, lift, shift, run, squat, etc. now.
I LOVE feeling like I have control over my body, my rehabilitation, and my health. (Even if it’s an illusion,ultimately.)
Exercising is how I can take proactive action in being my best self and in my health and recovery and that means a lot after feeling so completely out of control for so long.
And I LOVE how good it makes me feel emotionally. The mood swings are less, I stay more positive and more focused on my goals. I feel GOOD. Sleep better, too.
I finally get to go work out with Jacob today and hit the pool tomorrow after 10 days away from the Rec and three weeks out of the pool.
I was struggling to sleep last night, laying in bed in high pain after a long, emotionally exhausting day. But I was EXCITED to get back to Muletown Rec.
Imagine that! I suppose after nine straight months living my whole life on a couch, I’ve gained a new appreciation for just being able to move at all. And hey, I gotta do all I can before the next time I’m laid up, to get the implant 😉.
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