Ever since I’ve shined the light on my disordered eating, my foundation has been shattered. Figuring out what I believe in and how to go forward is NOT EASY. Sharing it on this platform has been unexpectedly healing and I can’t thank you all enough for your support, encouragement and for those who have spoken up that feel the same.
At the same time, instagram has also been a really conflicting place for me. I find myself spending MORE time on here and subtly noticed that EVERYTHING felt stressful. The messages about dieting, the people having fun in their communities, the transformation pictures, the anti diet and body positivity communities ... all of it. I guess this is what happens when we realize we don’t actually fit in anywhere and that it’s time to begin the journey to belong to yourself. .
As much as we don’t want to admit it or believe it, these platforms serve less as entertainment these days and more as behavior regulators. I can’t speak for others, but I know I am easily influenced by what people post and how I compare myself to others. .
While I do think that Instagram CAN be used as a tool, right now for me it’s just too much for me and I need a break... like a REAL one. .
Ironically, right after hitting a milestone of 10k followers, I’m going to take a couple weeks off so that my foundation is rebuilt from within and not from the depths of a world that rarely shows weakness or challenges.
I’ll still be blogging and posting on my Thyme and JOY Facebook page so feel free to join or message me there. I promise I will be writing (and maybe blogging) my thoughts during my periods of reflection and growth while also thinking about how I can better serve everyone that follows me while keeping my cup full and my foundation strong. Until next time