I CAN UNDERSTAND:
"It's okay. I can understand"
Each time I repeat those words,
The truth lashes out at me like a dagger
Sanguine flows drench my bruised soul
As a wounded heart weeps in silent agony
Unshed tears again caught between mascara laden lashes... Hell yes, I understand
But it's not okay anymore
For now I don't just understand what your words say, literally
I wish I was never burdened with this so called "talent"
Of an understanding that goes beyond mere spoken words
For I can, in the most mysterious ways, "feel"
The tone of your voice
And understand the in-betweens of all that you never spoke out loud... Much like an anatomy lesson in the lab,
I can understand what your eyes say
Even without you ever saying it yourself
My mind peeks into your thoughts, the voices in your head
And even those words you wanted to say, but never actually did
Give me the pinpricks of another reality check...
I wish I never had that power to dissect human minds as such
For, the more I see through people,
I am disappointed, sorely disappointed by the numberless masks they wear... Perhaps because I haven't ever had a mask of my own,
Perhaps because I have always been an open book
My mind has become so fluid that it can enter
Through those existential spaces in yours
Where there's lot more to understand... But knowing that I am the only odd one out
In a world of masked denizens
I have no choice, other than to reply with the same monotony
"It's okay. I can understand"!
But lying to myself that I am okay
Kills me every time I do it...
I wish I could one day, retort back , "No I can't understand and it's not okay"
But when I rethink it, I realize,
Will it make any difference to anyone, whether I understand or not?
Living in a world of falsities I have realized
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