~ Acceptance and gratitude as a healthy mindset. ~ (28.03.19)
Yesterday I finally received my art supplies which I ordered in the shop I found close to my favourite old-fashioned cafe where I know almost everyone, people mostly of the age 50-70 plus a few young folks.
When owners of the art shop finally received my acrylic, brushes and paper I even jumped there and shouted “OBRIGADA”. I’ve been waiting for a week or so, it seems like not a long time but for me it was urgent. I wanted to try acrylic for the first time and play with colours, allowing myself to experiment more and not to be afraid that all I do is imperfect.
I confess that I could come to the shop if I was around to check if they received my order, such a non yogic approach, where is the patience, you will ask.
I thought, it’s an emergency like an oxygen for my lungs which requires colours instead, I didn’t want anything else but painting a portrait with colours and try a new texture and material.
At this moment of my life I don’t have a “job” and that means I don’t have a «salary», I was teaching yoga at some places but now I teach languages online and it covers only my food, while I’m still waiting when transactions will be completed and I can receive my «papers I could spend on my veggie food» I use my lovely savings, which are not growing at the moment. I had a few quite good offers but fortunately or unfortunately there were some issues regarding my visa.
Nevertheless, yesterday, I was so excited and i started to draw at night, even had a few tears from happiness because I was enjoying the process so much and I felt that I deserve this moment of joy.. Maybe some of you still read my stories, for me it is like a journal therapy, except the fact that it’s public.
I like sharing the process of my drawings as well as real moments from my life, I don’t find this experience as a negative thing, on the contrary I’m happy that I can dedicate myself to things I like the most. This period is crucially important for me and even if I can’t afford much I’m genuinely happy and grateful, I enjoy small things every day, I’m grateful for this positive mindset, It gives me strength, no matter what. ☀️