Vulnerability makes you stronger.
That's what I've learned this summer while preparing for this very night - opening night of "Anything Goes." While thrilled to tears when cast as sweet, young ingenue Hope Harcourt, I immediately found myself engulfed in negative self-talk. "Larissa, you are too vocally unqualified, too old, too curvy, too etc. etc. etc." My singing style does not match the style of this character whatsoever. Learning to sing a new way and be confident about it has thrown me for a complete loop. Every time I walk off stage and someone compliments me, I want to explode with gratitude tears. This voice isn't mine as I previously knew it, and it is frightening for me. But I am stronger. Shout out to Mindy Frandsen Pack & Steven Broschinsky!
Learning to embrace my youthfulness has made me stronger. The audience doesn't know my age number unless I tell them, which my performance most certainly does not.
Learning that I am beautiful, curves and all, has come with the help of all of my cast members. They are supportive, uplifting, nurturing, full of hugs, complimentary, and always look to me and each other as if we are the greatest thing since chocolate (forget sliced bread- chocolate is way more accurate). Knowing that director Wendy Dahl Smedshammer chose ME over many other highly qualified ladies, gives me the courage I need.
Battling through every insecurity on a nightly basis makes me stronger little bit by little bit. Each step I take on stage requires strength beyond what I knew I had.
To quote the great Brene Brown, "The willingness to show up changes us, it makes us a little braver each time." Break legs tonight to my darling cast of "Anything Goes!" Thank you all for showing up! #anythinggoes #taylorsvillearts #taylorsville #hopeharcourt #billycrocker #dance #delovely #openingnight #vulnerability
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