Dear littlest, you came into my life, teaching me things about myself that I never knew existed. Right from the start, your urgency to enter the world, not giving me enough time for pain relief, there I was experiencing a birth unlike my other two, you showed me how much power a woman has and can endure on her own. Then you changed our family dynamic, busier for sure but more fruitful and whole. My anxiety to be organized, give and be enough to you, your siblings and your father had me in moments of overwhelm like never before, and then I learned some more about myself and what I needed to let go of, perfectionism, fear of judgements, fear of not being a good mum or wife.... All the Intuitive courses and healing courses I had learnt you led me to put them into practice. I had to self heal so much by using my intuition and I’m learning I’m enough anyway. Your actions show me when I’m doing too much you let me know not by being naughty but by you wanting to get my attention to stop. I’m forgiving myself more for not cooking better, for not reading to you enough, for not....
So little one I want to thank you. For all the times you test me, more than your brother and sister that’s for sure, I see why you are, your testing me because your mirroring me, the busy, overwhelmed snappy me. Your inviting me to stop and just see life like you do. Playful, light and free... If I never had you I don’t think I’d learn these things about myself. About my old patterns that were running my life, that’s not what matters, now matters. I’m so grateful for how unique and strong willed you are and how you have gifted my life and the mamma and woman I am
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