Feeling all the beauty in this moment.
Even in the part when I slip into the cold cold water having not been in for a week and I feel the panic rise and the waves splashing into my eyes and all I can do is concentrate on my breath. Calming, breathing, calming, breathing, reminding myself that this will pass, that I am OK, that I am all these sensations in my body, and I am more than that. Calming my mind with my breath.
Until I can roll on to my back and swim. Not fighting but rolling with the waves as they come.
The sea gives me so much.
Today, a reminder of my resilience, my ability to breathe through anxiety when it comes. To let it pass through like a wave.
And also, today, so many sunshiny sparkles, bright and crisp as the cold. That let me pretend I’m a mermaid, until the coldness of my skin reminds me I have legs and I’d better use them right now to clamber out without losing my bikini bottoms as I go... #magic #outdoorswimming #seaswimming #overcominganxiety #courage #cold #storyofmum