I told my doctor this week that 𝗜 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝗮 𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗸 -- if I stopped swimming, I'd die. I wish I felt like a shark because I felt badass and in charge of my life. But the truth is, I can barely keep my head above water most days.
Some days I wish I could slow down, not list, not photograph, not push 150% -- but I feel like if I do, I will completely implode. I'm not talking about my business imploding. 𝘐'𝘮 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘔𝘌. Because if I slowed down enough, I'd have to hear my thoughts, and face them head on. I know that this is important for personal growth, but it also feels a bit like willingly walking in front of a firing squad.
I found a quote recently the stood out. "𝗣𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘂𝗹𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗿𝗲𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗰𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝗮𝘀 𝗶𝘁 𝗶𝘀, 𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗶𝘁 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗯𝗲." (Wayne W. Dyer). This is so extremely important to remember in this journey of life, and I think the main purpose of incorporating mindfulness into your life.
So until I can face that firing squad, I'll keep swimming.