💗 S E L F C A R E 💗 .
Taking care of me has always been the last thing. I have always put everyone ahead of myself. I was always/am the quietest one in our family (alone with Max, I’m quite talkative as he can assure you 😂) and the only way I got attention was to be helping in some way. But that turned into me always helping and never resting/or enjoying myself. In my high school years, we had some trauma happen with some of my adoptive siblings and I retreated into myself but that was too painful to deal with so I focused on helping everyone and totally neglected me. I became an emotional eater. I learned to bake so I could have sweets all the time. Any emotion, I would eat or drink something. But it would never satisfy me and I would degrade myself for eating. Negative self talk is the absolute worst. .
These past few years, with Max’s gentle spirit and patience along with the Lords grace, I’m turning that around ❤️ I’m saying no to things that I can’t do. I’m turning to the Bible for wisdom when I don’t have any. I workout when I feel like I need to overeat. I eat a little dark chocolate when the cravings are too much but I set healthy boundaries💗 I love helping people and alway will! I love my family and don’t feel any bitterness towards them or the circumstance that we faced 💕 .
But I had to do it for me, those first workouts were tough! Like I couldn’t make it for 10 mins without dying. But I pushed through knowing I needed a change 🙌🏻 workouts became what I started to crave when bad things or emotions came up: a brisk walk or heavy lifting or my personal favorite leg day 🏋🏻♀️ .
I’m still overcoming emotional eating, in fact it came up today as I saw a friends post and it hurt me when it shouldn’t have. Instead of giving into wanting to drink 4 packets of hot chocolate, I drank my water and took a walk 🧡 and then dug into my community of women who are walking the same walk as me! These women who I’ve never meet outside of insta or Facebook, support me like I have never known was possible. .
So my advice on self care: stop the negative-You’re fabulous, beautiful and inspiring! Take hold of what your avoiding-You can conquer mountains!
Colorado Springs, Colorado