Running in a downpour this afternoon felt like a much needed cleanse. Like a cosmic dipping to wash away that which no longer is needed. A preparation for my cocoon of deep inner devotion. My life is hardly dull, without uncanny synchronicities or constant adaptation to change being the only constant. Most of my life I’ve tried the conventional ways of living & ignored the “weird” coincidences, connections, visions, etc. My truth is that my life is multidimensional with information coming from my body, my mind, intuition, my guides/healers & from working through complexity w/ people who I love and trust. I very much live one foot in the linear world & one foot in the mystical. Right now I’m in a big shift, like really big, where balancing logic & rational thinking along with listening to what’s guiding me is a huge undertaking. I know that when I ignore the unconventional side of me, life gets clunky & I lose myself. This time healing feels like a living, breathing life force that needs some time to incubate... What is it that I choose to let into the air I breathe & what do I exhale out? I’ve honestly known this time was going to come for the next phase. I was ignoring it out of painful memories of the past. This time I want to have balance of being devoted to going deep within to heal further AND still experience joy, playfulness & laughter at the same time. That living doesn’t have to halt.
As I was descending Windy Peak during my race in early June, I very intentionally stated to the universe that I release Lyme from my body. I remember opening my arms wide to feel every molecule of mountain air & letting what was no longer mine to fall off my back disappearing into the ethers. Something honestly left me that day. And it cracked me wide open to get much deeper... a lot like one of those Russian nesting dolls that get smaller & smaller as you open them. This feels like I’m continuing to narrow in on finding my wholeness one more piece at a time. Here’s for hoping. #healing #lymedontkillmyvibe #letsmakeitweird #deep #cocoon #bvt #beevenomtherapy #nakedtruth #rain #cleanse #trailrunning #colorado #nature