I'm in a suicidal funk today. But also like, SO ready to get my life together. I've been researching about universities and SATs — or at least, trying to, because our stupid WiFi isn't working.
I think the reason I'm feeling so dejected today is because of this sign I saw.
I see a stop sign on my way to college every day, that someone had added the words 'don't' and 'believing' to, so it said 'DON'T STOP BELIEVING'.
I would look at it every day and renew my will to live. Today, I didn't have that great a day, so I was looking forward to seeing the sign in my way home.
Except guess what? SOMEONE ELSE (or maybe even the same person) slashed at the n't in 'don't', so TODAY it said 'DO STOP BELIEVING'. So then I decided to just give up and I've been sad ever since.
I know I shouldn't care what a stupid street sign that no one even uses anymore says, but I was horrified to see what happened to it. It felt like a sign. I mean like, fateful.
I was literally thinking, today was a bad day but it's ok, I'll just pass by that sign and be filled with hope again. Except when I did, I was crushed even more. It felt like the universe was conspiring against me trying to find a silver lining in every cloud. Like it was saying, PUH-LEASE, who are you kidding?!
I think I should become a pessimist. After all, they live longer than optimists.