THURSDAY Q&A | ...It wasn’t until the Fall of 2012 that I can say that actually started loving myself.
I went through a divorce, which called into question everything I thought I knew about myself, life, and love.
I felt like I’d somehow failed at life. I felt angry, betrayed, rejected, confused about my identity, uncertain of my next step, and unlovable.
I remember sitting in silence one day to reflect. Although I had the support of family and friends—I’d never felt so alone before.
It became obvious to me that everything I’d previously equated with love was external and conditional.
Following the advice of my aunt, I asked myself, “How does it get any better than this?” All of a sudden a voice from within said, “You’re not alone. I’m here. I’ve always been with you, and I’ll never leave you.” A feeling of warmth and indescribable comfort came over me. It was nurturing, compassionate, inspiring, reassuring, and somehow familiar.
I chose to keep my heart open to the possibilities of Love in such a seemingly dark time, and finally tapped into a the wisdom of my Higher Self; the part of me that can see beyond the limitations of this physical world; the eternal part of me that operates from a place of unconditional love.
It was then that I realized that no one’s coming to save me—only I have that power. And, no matter what happens in life—I get to choose how I show up.
From that moment on, I chose to believe that I AM an individual expression of the Creator’s power—whole, perfect, and complete. I also decided to see what life would be like if I became my ideal partner.
I embarked on a holistic self-care journey that consisted of small acts of service to honor my being (eating well, meditation, nature walks, spiritual baths, journaling, drumming, dance, etc). I chose to believe that true love is unconditional and cannot be earned. I chose to accept every part of me, and validate myself independently of what anyone else thinks.
I’ve since learned that love is an infinite, abundant, and cultivated from within.
It is my mission to connect with other women, and use my story to help them to rediscover this truth for themselves.
In Peace & Beauty,