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I have 1 million of them! But you know what excuse really bothers me? About how white people can’t eat healthy “on the go”. 🙅🏼‍♀️ heck no! It totally doesn’t have to be!
are healthy options more expensive? Absolutely! But there are so many ways you can get around that! Stop at your local convenience store and pick up an apple or hard-boiled eggs. Small snacks that hold you over can be less than $2!
Stop making excuses and fuel your body with healthy choices 🥗🥪🍎
#edfam #edcommunity #edsoldier #edwarrior #bulimiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #noexcuses #choices #foodisfuel #findtime #selfcare #mindfuleating


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Breakfast this morning was a HUGE CHALLENGE my mom surprised this morning by saying we were going to Starbucks which is a huge fear!! I was so scared but I told myself I would be ok and to enjoy this time with my mom. I ordered a cinnamon bun which was so good!!! 😋😋😛 Not only did I order something that is a huge fear food I finished the whole thing!!! ALL OF IT!!! 😱 thank you so much to my girl @recovering.jay for helping me challenge myself to this ❤️❤️ love youuuu 😘💕💕 recovery is worth it 🌸🌸🌸🌸


#healthynothungry #healthynotskinny #nutrition #nutritionmatters #nutritiousanddelicious #nourishyourbody #fuelyourbody #fuelingmybody #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #edrecovery #edfam #ednos #recoverywin #cinnamon #cinnamonbun #gains #eeeeeats


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and afterwards this delicious choco apricot #energybar😍 I am nuts about everything with chocolate orange flavor so I absolutely also love choco apricot flavored things 🤤😍


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#dinner finally after my late shift, was soo tired the whole day 😴 part one again #redcabbage , today with #shrimp 🍤 #carpaccio 👌 love the taste of the spicy garlic sauce but it‘s just too spicy for me 😕


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yep!!!! this is me in my recovered and healthy body!!!! living life!!!! 💜 this past weekend i drove with my family to new york to witness my cousin get married!✨👰🏻💍 ive always been so ashamed to post pictures of myself and my body because i never felt that it was “good” enough. and yes- i naturally have a thigh gap at a healthy weight💘 i just wanted to post these to hold myself accountable to stick to recovery and remind myself and others that putting on weight is not the worst possible thing in the world😊 i bonded with my cousins for the first time EVER this weekend and was able to enjoy food and drinks with them 🥂 something i would never have done a year ago. i’ve never felt more beautiful in my life and my hair is growing back strong , healthy, and long for the first time in years 💇🏻‍♀️😁 my nails aren’t brittle, my skin is healthy, and most of all, i am happy because my mind can focus on doing other things than food and being hungry🌸 recovery is worth it!!!!!! i love u all!!!🎀💘🌟


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Utilizing my recovery journal! I figured I’d explain the different eating disorders a bit- starting with anorexia nervosa. Anorexia is what most people think of when they think of eating disorders. It is a mental illness that is characterized by the obsessive loss of losing weight. Usually anorexic people obsessively count and restrict calories, or fast. 0.9% of American women have anorexia at some point in their lifetime. Anorexia is extremely dangerous, and has the highest mortality rate of any mental illness. #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosarecovery #youareworthit #recoverED #edfam #edrecovery #edfamilyrecovery #edcommunity #eatingdisorderssuck


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When somebody in the gym interpret you to ask to use the a weight 😂 well he did encourage me to get more reps in 😄
I did do more but I didn’t bring my tripod to record for you guys but I do hope you enjoy 😊

What I did:
Bridges- 4sets of 10 reps
Deadlift- 4sets of 10 reps
Squats- 4sets of 10 reps
Leg press- 4sets of 10 reps
Wall sits- 2 set till failure
Lunges- 2sets of 20reps
Pick a weight that is challenge for you ( when I mean challenge I mean when you on the 3 rep you already want to die 😂)but still be able to do a few reps.... 6 reps is good, 8 is amazing and 10 is bloody AMAZING ! Remember to listen to your body and don’t push yourself hard with the reps 😉

Outfit: @gymsharkwomen & @gymshark
Drink was watermelon flavour BCCA from @myproteinuk
#fitnesstime #fitnesstransformation #fitness #fitnesswoman #fitnessforlife #fitnessblog #fitnesspage #fitnessmomtivation #strongnotskinny #balanceisthekey #balance #fitnessprogress #transformation #motivation #fitfam #edworrior #homeworkouts #workouts #workingout #edsolider #edfam #recoverywarriors #gymshark #gymsharkfit #gymsharkwomen #myproteinwomen #myprotein


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Ate in a crop top today bc a) i’m cute and b) dats normal. Speak it into belief n all thattt :) Something I don’t talk a lot about is my ptsd and how that’s affected my body image. Being put through the things that I was put through definitely made me feel as if my body was my enemy; it was the point of so much abuse and torment that I felt so much hatred towards it. By quite literally shrinking myself, I felt like I was hiding, in a way. Not only that, but it was a welcome distraction. Focusing so much on numbers and the way that I looked made me forget about the way that I felt.
A huge part of my recovery has been acknowledging that what I went through was not my fault. In order to reclaim my body from my abuser, I’m learning how to use it as an object of my love whereas it was once an outlet for his hate.
My body image on this trip has been worse than on any other in the past, because I’m still in such a tough place with physical ptsd symptoms and I have a LOT of healing to do.
But little victories like these—dressing as if I’m proud of my body instead of petrified by it— make me so happy! 🙂


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Snacks this afternoon were Greek yogurt with berries and 2 cheese sticks!!!😊😊😊 I’m literally sooo hungry but I don’t get to go home and have dinner for another hour and a half!😭


#anorexia #ana #anorexiarecovery #ed #edrecovery #edfighter #edfam #fightana #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorder #anorexianervosa #recoveryfood #recoverywin #edfamily #anawarrior #fuckana #strong #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #anarecovery


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Treating myself to a large cappuccino on my way to work. Today is a good fucking day. I got my uni results. 2 distinctions, a credit and a pass. I spent the majority of the semester trying my hardest to destroy my body and brain, and it was only my motivation that saved me in the end. Unsurprisingly, my two best grades were for the subjects which were examined at the end of the semester, when I was finally trying to fight again. I remember sitting my neurophysiology test, freezing and starving despite it being 30 degrees outside. My grade was 11%. I then failed my mid semester exam too. Barely passed the majority of my immunology tests, finally emailing the senior lecturer in hysterics because the subject was a pre requisite for my major, and I just couldn’t afford to fail. Well I finally woke the fuck up. Realised that the only way I wouldn’t fail my entire semester was if I ate. So I did. And I tried so so hard. Used university as my sole motivation. And it paid off. Of course when I stopped studying, I relapsed harder and faster than ever. But now, I’m getting back on track. And I’ve had a good breakfast. And I know my potential. And I know if I start this semester with the same drive that I ended the last one with, there’s no stopping me. So with 2 weeks until I start back, I am nourishing my body and brain. Bring it on. I want to be a success story. I’m ready.


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Night snack was a sponge cake called Weiki
Yesterday my parents finally accepted the fact that I want to be vegetarian 🌱 although they sometimes want me to eat fish 😒



#anorexiarecovery #anorexia #edrecovery #snack #beatinganorexia #beatingana #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #ed #edwin #edfam #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #fuckana #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #lunch #dinner #nightsnack #morningsnack #afternoonsnack #snack #breakfast #vegetarian


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Coffee is my love language ☕️☕️☕️ ps: happy tuesday #edfam ☀️


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I'm very honest with my clients around whether weight restoration is likely to be part of their recovery journey. I don't see any point in sugar coating the road ahead because the conversation is inevitable. I often get responses like 'but BMI is rubbish anyway' or 'weight restored doesn't mean recovered'. These comments are in many ways correct however there are certain low weights/BMIs at which a human cannot be physiologically well. A baseline level of nourishment is the foundation of the important psychological work necessary for recovery.


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Self-confidence is the best outfit. Rock it, and own it 👊


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Körperschemastörung.
Essstörung!
Täglich sehe ich Personen auf der Straße, dene ich es ansehe dass sie essgestört sind... früher hätte ich sowas garnicht gemerkt. Personen die behaupten im Untergewicht zu sein trotz fressen? Unmöglich, das war immer meine Ausrede. Abgesehen von Personen die Stoffwechselstörungen haben.
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Es ging mir die letzten Tage wirklich nicht gut. Es gab auch mehrere Rückfälle!
Ich möchte das alles nicht mehr.
Ich möchte keine Rückfälle mehr haben.
Ich möchte einfach wieder essen können wie und was worauf ich Lust habe, wenn ich Hunger habe.
Wozu quälen wir uns eigentlich? Wozu das Ganze hier?!
Wir wollen gesund werden, doch kriegen die krise weil uns unsere Kleidung nicht mehr passt, wir schauen uns im Spiegel an und sehen etwas anderes als wir sind?
Wir schauen schlanke weiber an und wollen aussehen wie sie???
Wann hat das alles ein Ende?
Genau dann, wenn wir anfangen uns selber zu lieben! .
Ich selber kann sehr viel Stärke zeigen, doch ich bin auch nur ein Mensch und habe meine Schwächen. Tage an dene es mir nicht gut geht, Tage an dene ich mich einfach verfünffacht fühle. Gefühlt oder Wirklichkeit? Ich denke eher gefühlt!
Es gibt einfach Tage an dene die essstörung laut ist. Doch aufgeben werde ich nicht! Ich werde stärker als die essstörung sein! Ich möchte das meinem Körper nicht antun.
Wenn wir unsere Organe, Knochen unsere Nerven und haut nicht hätten, mit was hätten wir stehen, gehen, fühlen, schmecken können?
Wir müssen einfach alle stark bleiben und an und selbst glauben! .
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#recovery #bulimiarecovery #loveyourself #quotes #essstörung #eatingdissorder
#loveyourbodyweek #anawho #prorecovery #positivity #eatittobeatit #anorexia #ed #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #fuckyouana #bulimierecovery #edfam #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #realrecovery #realcovery #healthynothungry #selflovefor #recovering


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All my food for the road today! It’s been a crazy day and ED is loud. I’m trying to stay positive and think about other things but I’m definitely struggling. Weight restoration sucks and I hate how my body gains weight so quickly. Getting dressed this morning was not fun! Also, since my mom had originally thought she would be back home today my nutritionist had to email me what to pack to eat today and it was really triggering doing all the measurements. I was super tempted to skimp on them. I asked my dad to stay in the room while I made my lunch and dinner and snacks. I’m also kind of freaking out because my dietician made me pack a sandwich for lunch and a sandwich for dinner. ED has a rule that I can’t have 2 of the same things in the same day. My dietician explained that because I am on the road, it’s just easier to meet my exchanges using the sandwiches plus it’s easier to pack than rice or potatoes. She also told me that my body doesn’t know the difference if I ate rice or bread. A starch is a starch. Anyone else struggle with this? #ed #edfam #edrecovery #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderrecovery #ana #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafight #anorexiafighter #beateatingdisorders #2fab4ana #exerciseaddiction #prorecovery #recovery #strongnotskinny


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My favorite things about vacation so far:
Watching my son experience pure happiness seeing the ocean for the first time.
Sitting around the campfire with my husband after my son went to bed and talking about life, dreams and the things we are so grateful for.
Visiting the local ice cream shop for the best cones ever.
Going to a local brewery for lunch.
Spending family time together and creating amazing memories .
Going on adventures and exploring new areas.

When we are in the midst of an eating disorder, our ED might make us think that there's no life outside of it. I'm here to tell you that there is much, much, much MORE when we let go of ED. It is hard work, messy territory and at times uncomfortable but your journey is worth every second. When you stand up to your eating disorder and push past it
F R E E D O M is on the other side. Freedom to enjoy your friends, family, good food, amazing memories and so much more.
I am always rooting for you because I know you can do it💕


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spinach smoothie bowl🥦🥑🥥 recipe on story highlights...topped with chopped walnuts and coconut flakes, peanut butter and banana slice 🍌🥜🍯


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Today's been better than other days, but not really good. I feel so angry all the time? Like really furious? I feel it in my teeth sometimes, and I need to clench them hard. Sometimes I get angry for a reason, because I'm really pissed at my team at the moment, but other times it comes out of nowhere?
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Tomorrow's my weigh in and I don't give a damn. Like I'm pretty sure I've gained weight, but if it turns out they're unhappy about my results and decide to make me stay there I don't even care anymore. Eff it. They're too freaking annoying with all of their rules. Hell, they have more food rules than I do, isn't that bad? Aren't we supposed to get rid of rules? .
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So here's today's meals. .
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Breakfast: a cup of 0% milk (it was supposed to be whole milk but shhh) + two toasts with jelly (no margarine, I just don't like it ffs) + kiwi
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Lunch: rice with veggies + meatballs with tomato sauce + two slices of bread. Didn't eat the fruit.
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Snack: skipped it. But I've been eating pickles the whole day. .
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Dinner: salad (lettuce, tomato, carrot, soy beans, cucumber, onion, balsamic vinegar) + meatballs with tomato sauce + two slices of bread (I hid some bits away, gotta throw it away now). Didn't eat the fruit. .
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So yea. I know it's bad to cheat, but I can't help it because I'm just really angry about their rules. Like I accept to gain weight, but why do I have to eat what they want? Why can't I eat a huge bowl of fruit with yoghurt instead of toasts and whole milk? Or eat a piece of cheesecake as a snack instead of having so much bread at lunch and dinner? And why do I have to eat it all at once? Like calories didn't count otherwise????? Sigh. I hope y'all are doing better than I am...
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#anarecovery
#recovery #edrecovery #ed
#recoveryisworthit#anorexianervosarecovery #eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery #edfamiliy#anafamily #edcommunity #prorecovery#edfam #edfood #ednos #anawho#anawarrior #anafamily #anorexiarecovery #food #rant #vent #meal #fooddiary


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Tea tonight is baked beans, scrambled eggs with tomato, onion and a sprinkling of feta cheese with steamed veg😍never had eggs and feta cheese together omg why haven’t I tried this before!🥚🥦🥕🌽I’m flying to Ibiza tomorrow for a week I’m so bloody excited I can’t wait!!!✈️what is everyone else’s holiday plans this summer?


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Some of today’s yummy foods on holiday ☀️ This is so challenging anxiety and eating wise, been afew tears but I’m doing it and that’s the main thing 💪🏼✨
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#anorexiarecovery #anorexia #recovery #eatingdisorder #anxiety #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #nourishtoflourish #weightgain #food #edrecovery #positivity #prorecovery #anorexianervosa #recovering #edfighter #recoveryispossible #edfam #fuel


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This was lunch 🤗
+fruit and dark chocolate :)))
Guys would u like posts that are more about things and less often orrrr like very day just what I’m eating?? Xx
JUST BC I want to keep my feed and posts relevant to wht u guys want 💗💗
#anafight #anorexia #lunch #beatingana #fightingana #anorexiarecovery #strongnotskinny #anorexiawarrior #anorexiarecovering #edrecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #annorexianervosa #anawarrior #recoverywin #recovery #edfam #edcommunity #recoverymeal #eatittobeatit #realrecovery #recoveryisworthit #prorecovery #myrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #blogger #foodblogger


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Repost @omnicounselingnutrition ; This is so true. Give your body the fuel it needs so you can free your mind. ❤️


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🙌🏼❣️😍
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Lunch: Two slices of @foodforlifebaking Ezekiel bread with @kitehillfoods vegan Chive cream cheese and 2 slices @greenridgefarm Sante Fe Chicken Breast, @oikosprotein Triple Zero Banana Créme 🍌 Greek yogurt, @getcrackin No salt pistachios, @target Simply Balanced Organic Rolled Tortilla Chips 7 seeds & grains, and @driscollsberry raspberries!
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I have not had raspberries in a while now because stores do not really carry them, or if they do, they are really expensive for just a small amount! But, I got these a few days ago because it was 2 for $5, which is still kind of a lot for just a few berries, but it is better than the original price! 😌 I have noticed that I lost a lot of followers! And, like I mentioned last week, I do not care about the amount of followers I have. All I care about is to share my journey and to help others, while promoting recovery and taking a stand for mental illnesses. 💪🏼❤️ But, I have dropped an immense amount of supporters, which is making me feel very paranoid, and it even stresses me out. The reason being is, being a perfectionist, I am immediately believe to think that something I am doing on here is not found right. So, if you have any suggestions of how I can make this account better, please either comment on this post or dm me, please! 💓 Stay strong, stay safe!


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I was obsessed with counting calories. I couldn’t even tell you how many years I aimed to eat between 1200 and 1400 calories.
These days I no longer look at nutrition panels, I no longer weigh my food, I no longer record points or calculate macronutrients, and guess what?
I feel fabulous for it! I listen to my body, I honor my hunger instead of denying it and I eat what my body feels like eating. Nothing is more satisfying than being in touch with your body and ditching those crappy, misguided diet rules. 👌💕#dietfree #antidiet #recovery #edfam #bopo #bodypositive #education #relearn #momonamission #makechanges #changemakers #ditchthediet #ditchthescale #youareworthy #stopcountingcalories #eatwell #healthylife #healyourself #lifegoals #truth #dietsfail #truth #foodisfuel #trustyourself #ificandoitsocanyou #livewell #movemore #loveyourself #respectyourself #youmatter


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🙌🏼❣️😍
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Morning snack: @larabar Lemon bar and @emeraldnuts Natural almonds! - - {•} - -
I ate this while I was at the park earlier! I taught the kids some self defense, and I spoke to them about kidnappers luring kids. I just broke down to them, in a child friendly manner, that they should never listen to strangers, go with a stranger, unless given permission by a parent, etc. Just the basic conversation every parent has with their child. The reason I did this is because the epidemic on kidnappings have been growing. No one knows how to protect themselves or subsequently rule out their kidnapping. In my opinion, communities should offer free classes to teach kids and even adults about these things.


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🙌🏼❣️😍
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Breakfast: A slice of @foodforlifebaking Ezekiel bread with @traderjoes unsweetened sunflower seed spread 🌻, @superpretzel soft pretzel, watermelon, and two shredded wheat biscuits with @lovemysilk unsweetened vanilla almond milk 🥛!
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Good morning all! Well, not anymore. It is very well past the afternoon, but I am acting as if I wrote this in the morning. My phone will not let me take any pictures, so I had to just screenshot from my story! 📸 I did not get much sleep last night, and I woke up really early! I just spent some time on my phone this morning, and then, I went ahead and made some breakfast while watching the Bachelorette! 😂🌹 I never watched it before, but I spontaneously watched an episode one time, and now I have been watching the rest of the episodes of this season. Anyways, I hope you all have a lovely day! 💓


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Today my little lady turned 2.
I’m still determined for her to have a life without insecurities, without feeling self conscious and without waking up every day and hating what she sees. I’m determined she will not feel how I feel because it’s shit. But for now, I’m still unintentionally ruining this holiday and Ana is still ruining my life. One day, I promise I will do this and I will do this for you 💖
Ps. Check out my carrot cake with cream cheese icing and walnuts!! #carrotcake #hummingbirdrecipe #anorexia #anorexic #eatingdisorder #edsoldier #fuckana #edwarrior #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #anafighter #anasoldier #edfam #eatittobeatit #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery


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*tries to think of an authentic caption to show how authentic I really am and then realizes that’s not authentic at all so have a picture of me that I enjoy* 🙃🌼


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Good evening beautifulssss😙😙 !!!! Still feels weird getting used to this new posting system 😂😂but hey hey ! Heres my day if eats!
Breakfast: @warburtonsuk
giant crumpet with @manilife_
Deep roast PB 😍😍😍 with blackcurrant conserve.
Coffee tuesday with my grandparents ❤️: I challenged my self to a Granola bar ! That was made in the coffee house so no nutritional info! D: and my usual skinny iced cappuccino with caramel syrup!
Lunch: after an awesome 11km run 💪🏻 a cheese and broccolli omlette with salad and balsamic glaze 😋
Dinner : @kirstys_official beef
cottage pie !! One I didnt make D: so no control over ingredients! And A mass of vegetables !
Night snack : some funky wafer and a giant cup of tea with milk and honey 😊 dunkers 👌👌
So TMI maybe??? But one of biggest triggers of all time. ALL TIME. Got me this morn. I was nit prepared for it at all. But my period started again 🤗 health. But I was brave I didnt restrict. I didnt purge. I spoke to people and came up with a rational solution. I got the conctraceptive injection to stop them temporarily while I get my head around things. Also my meds have been increased while they still try and balance me out because the dr agrees Im pretty hypo manic right now. 😂😂 its been a stressful but a good day for me. Gotta stay strong 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 #fulldayofeating #food #toasttuesday #fdoe #heresmyfood
#peanutbutter
#running #delicious #healthy #fitness #runner #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anxiety #balancednotclean #healthyishappy #balancedeating #strongnotskinny #nourishnotpunish #mentalhealth #recoverywin #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #edfighter #edfam #eatingdisorder #caloriesdontmatter #beatana #realrecovery #fuckanorexia #boobsnotbones


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Lunch at work was my usual turkey/cheese/lettuce wrap, carrots and ranch, and grapes!!! It’s super hot but we are not busy at all which is good so I’m just kind of sitting here doing nothing (except getting paid lol)!😊👍🏻


#anorexia #ana #anorexiarecovery #ed #edrecovery #edfighter #edfam #fightana #recoveryisworthit #eatingdisorder #anorexianervosa #recoveryfood #recoverywin #edfamily #anawarrior #fuckana #strong #recoveryispossible #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #anarecovery


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Today has been a dark day! I am afraid that I am back to living in baggy tops to hide my “big tummy”. Body Dysmorphia, BPD and ED have been screaming at me. I’ve been doing opposite actions and eating a gain diet still... it’s such a shame that my confidence takes such a knock though. It’s also quite laughable that some minutes I’ll feel prettier and sexier then ever with my new curves and others I’ll catch a bit of a roll or a over hang and I’ll feel like all my worth as a person diminishes within that moment. I try to keep his insta real and honest, so the ups and down you see are what I go through 30 times a day. Usually I am positive but sometimes it gets me! :( #anarecovery #recoverypositive #healthyfood #vlogger #vlog #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #food #healthybody #healthymind #healthylifestyle #youtuber #weightgain #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #ednos #edfam #edfighter #edwarrior #edrecovery #foodblogger #strongnotskinny #selfhelp


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loving wearing my pjs in the garden with my felafel and hummus baguette and matching sweetcorn. My mum’s always been a bit of a snob who doesn’t believe in wearing pjs in the garden where the neighbours might see but do I care nope. Anyway dessert was yoghurt and nightsnack was quite a few fruit pastille sweets from m and s because they’re veggie 😍 #baguette #recovery #recovering #recoverywin #edrecovery #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recoverywarrior #beatana #fuckana #anawho #anawarrior #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #edfamily #edfam #mentalhealthawareness #orthorexia #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #prorecovery


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Night snack was something I’ve not tried before but it was so nice ☺️
-optimum nutrition strawberries and cream protein bar 🍓🥛

A few little reminders for you:
-eating does not make you fat
-following your meal plan does not make you fat
-eating extras does not make you fat
-eating more than someone else does not make you fat
-eating fats does not make you fat
-not exercising does not make you fat
-recovering does not make you fat
-LETTING GO OF ANOREXIA DOES NOT MAKE YOU FAT

Read back over those reminders and replace the word fat with worthless. People with eating disorders tend to equate feelings of worthlessness with feeling “fat”. I wrote those reminders with the word fat in it because for me that seems like a big fear- becoming fat. But what we really fear is in fact becoming worthless and unimportant. Trying to change that mindset is hard. It’s hard to convert the word you’ve repeated for so long into a more accurate word. But you can do it. With time you can do it. Feeling “fat” means feeling worthless. It doesn’t mean that you are fat.

Stay strong 💛💛
#anorexia #bodydysmorphia #anxietydisorder #anorexiarecovery #edfam #edcommunity #strongnotskinny #nourishtoflourish #eatittobeatit #blogger #foodblogger #lifestyleblogger #youtuber #foodambassador #foodporn #anasucks #ed #edwarrior #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoveryforboobs #prorecovery #positivebean #bethechange #staystrong


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The BBQ on Sunday was weird. I can't pin down if I regretted going. No one really said hi at first, I don't think they realized it was me. I hadn't seen them since Christmas.
One of my cousins, who I never got along with, looked at me weird and said, 'when did you get skinny'. I said I wasn't skinny and almost started crying. I was getting food, and I already felt guilty for eating again. Then everyone was looking at me and I felt like all they should be able to see is everything about me I hate on my body.
He looked at me taken aback for a second and was like, 'you're not sick or anything, right?' I just wanted to leave at that point. Drop the sandwich and run.

I don't know who all knows about treatment or the ED. I know who I told, but I know more people were told. He finished with, 'well you look good.' A lot of people said, you look good... look at you... etc. I thought one day I'd revel in that experience. But it wasn't pleasant. You'll never look good enough, you'll never feel pretty enough to take their compliments seriously. It will always be uncomfortable.
I was relieved to leave. But I noticed the reality of what it's like to grow up fat, or exist as a fat person vs. the reality of existing at a societally acceptable weight. My family was nicer to me. Everyone was nicer to me. They wanted to catch up and interact.

Even people I never really interacted with. I've encountered it every step of the way, after my high weight to now, and growing up a fat kid. The world's nicer to you when you're losing weight or skinny.


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was craving chocolate so
🍫a Milka Tender
🍫a bar of Milka Caramel Trio
🍫a Werthers Original
🍫a American Dream Popcorn Chocolate Dessert
🍫a Milky Way bar


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More of the flowers 🌼
Gonna attempt some self-care stuff soon even though I don’t feel very worthy 😕


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♡ This was my first birthday cake since 2013. ♡ Over the years the idea of having a cake on my birthday just grew and grew and it just became too scary of an idea to even entertain. I remember when I turned 14, the day after I was discharged from my first hospital admission, I went to the supermarket with my Mum to buy one but when I got there I felt so guilty just for THINKING about even buying one, never mind actually eating one, that I had a panic attack right there in the bakery aisle of my local Sainsbury's. ♡ But this year... something felt different. Not only did I eat my birthday cake but I made it myself, researched recipes and bought the ingredients. And guilt didn't really come into it at all. I definitely worried that I would feel too guilty to eat it, but I never actually felt the guilt I was expecting.
♡ To be completely transparent, I know that I still use unhealthy coping mechanisms and that maybe the use of those meant the guilt was more manageable but the fact that I was able to do it still feels like a huge step forwards. And I'm proud of myself for that. ♡ I felt so free with food for this birthday, and that's not something I often feel on regards to food, and it's a feeling I definitely hope I can replicate again and again, until I don't even have to notice that it's there. ♡ Food freedom is something that so many of us crave but just don't feel is possible - not for us at least - but if that's you then I hope this post has been a reminder that it is possible. If I can feel it, even just for a second, then so can you.
Love,
Anna x


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#nightsnack infront of the TV was 200g of Rasberry’s 🍇 and an peach 🍑 Idk when I eat the last time infront of the tv. This is a huuuge #recoverywin 💗✨ The Rasberry’s where so gorgeous. Well, I‘m distracting myself with watching the movie „The Hungergames- Mockingjay Part 2“ . Does anyone now this Movie? 🎥🍿 My Parents aren’t in the Apartment and my Brother is on a Birthday Party so i am Home alone. I hope this comes good. Keep Fighting and Sleep Well Angels 😴💤💗 Xx
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OMG MASSIVE FEAR FOOD!!!
So lamb covered in sauce is such a fear food for me. I had a panic attack in my room while my mum cooked it but managed to overcome that voice in my head and eat the meat(I didn’t eat the fat). It was only really 500cal at the most but I had a bag of popcorn before so anyway it was a good day:)
I can’t help but count calories right now even if it’s just vague I need to conquer it!
I go on holiday next Wednesday so I’ll try and post my meals and I’ll do a body update then aswell:)
Hope you’re all well,
Ellie xxx
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Good evening guyys 💫
#nightsnack is going to be this kind of ‘Fruity’ themed combo today 😏 I’m going to celebrate a little #pintparty with this frozen yogurt icecream with raspberry sauce, then I’m also going to have a ‘Hafervoll’ apricot-poppyseed flavored flapjack bar, three ‘Nature Tom’ power balls with matcha-agave-cranberry flavor and a protein bar with the same flavor and last but not least a ‘Balisto’ white berry bar 😍

To be honest I’m feeling a bit guilty after the challenging dinner with my grandparents, on top of my bad bodyimage BUUUT, giving up is no opinion and so I definitely WON’T listen to this stupid voice and distract myself with TV while enjoying this AMAZING nightsnack 💪🏻😌 If I won’t give up and keep on going the way I did before this voice will get quieter soon, I KNOW that 🙌🏻 And until then it means proving my strength and showing this illness who’s the REAL boss in the hood, right? 💁

SOO I will make myself a relaxed evening now and of course ignore the bad thoughts 😜
I hope you’re all fine and had a nice Tuesday ☀️
Tomorrow will be pretty challenging again BUT THAT’S LIFE GUYYS 🌈 A rollercoaster of adventures and challenges and where this illness definitely DOESN’T have any space 👻

More about my plans for tomorrow will follow tomorrow 🤓
Okay guyys, wish you all a wonderful evening and sweet dreams later 😴
Bye bye honeybees 🐝🍯


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So I had a snowboarding lesson with 3 strangers, ate out, and I didn’t cry or fall down the hill and break my ankle. That’s a win for me 😂

#edfam #edfamily #edsoldier #edwarrior #edrecovery #anorexiawho #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #dontletanyonedullyoursparkle #nourishnotpunish #fitnotfat #strongnotsick #nevergiveup


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7:30pm

#NightSnack was a heated Cinnamon drizzle Fibre one bar🤤, Rich tea biscuit, Lotus biscuit, Grapes and an unpictured Malteser truffle😍
I’ll make my usual warm milk later on🥛
Have a lovely rest of the evening xx💘

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Sometimes I feel that I can can hold onto anorexia and still recover. I can’t. I have to let go of everything. Every little thing that anorexia makes me do even if it may seem harmless, it has to stop. I can’t keep counting my steps, checking calories, making sure I don’t go over my ‘limit’ You can’t keep doing rituals that your eating disorder makes you do. You have to let it go. I have to let it go. The only way I can fully recover is to let it go. Anorexia can shut up and let me be me. ——-
Hope your all doing well today. My dinner a few minutes ago was some taco boats with @sainsburys vegan mince (so realistic!) guacamole, salsa, a vegan ‘sour Creme’ , vegan cheese, carrots and broccoli 😊 ———-
Have to say this was delicious 😋 ———


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17/08/2018
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My grandma is from now on in private hospital and nurses are taking care of her. I visited her and the place is really neat and nice, she has a roomie. I'm really emotional today so fuck lmao but yeah bcs of my pride I ain't crying. Anyways I binged and I burned what I could. My depression is taking over me so Ig I will just try to fast or smt and workout a lot so i can burn shit. Hope u have a good day/night.

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17.07.18 // 08.42 pm
CALORIES today:
- grapefruit w/cream thing-177
- half ‘madnalstang’ cake-73
- bun-150
- chicken-143
- potato salad-381
All - 864 kcal (netto-667)
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My phone was dead like half the day, so I didn’t get to take so many pics... but Eyy, I got some💕


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Thank you so much to all my followers, old and new. You give me so much strength and encouragement to continue in my journey 💕 you help me through the bad days and watch me succeed on the good days. When I first created this account I wanted to remain anonymous and only 2 of my closest friends knew about it and followed me on it. But the last few days I have started sharing it with a few more close friends. To begin with I was ashamed and didn’t want anyone to see it but now I am feeling proud of how far I have come in my journey to recovery and I want others to see how well I’m doing. Most of my friends have seen me fall over these past few years and now I want them to see me flourish 💪🏻✨
Also I want to apologise for not always replying to messages. There are still days I struggle to speak to anyone and I just want to shut myself off to the world. So I’m sorry if I seem ungrateful or rude, it’s nothing personal...it’s not you it’s me 😂🙈. But anyway thank you so much everyone 💕 #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #ed #edwarrior #edsoldier #edfighter #edfam #edfamily #edrecovery #recoverywarrior #ana #anawho #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #recovery #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #edwontwin #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #prorecovery #realrecovery #healthynotskinny #strongnotskinny #nevergiveup


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Buonasera 🌅
Come state? Come avete passato il pomeriggio?
Io oggi non ho fatto niente e forse per questo mi sono lasciata trasportare troppo dai pensieri💭
Però nonostante tutto questa sera ho deciso di sfidarmi👆
Non mangio formaggio da quanto?Non ricordo, mi spaventano troppo.
Ma ieri sono andata a fare la spesa e passando davanti al reparto dei formaggi ho guardato un po’ cosa c’era come al solito. Solo che solitamente alla fine non prendo mai niente. Ieri invece ho preso questa: la Philadelphia alla greca e stasera l’ho mangiata, sapendo che se non mi sfidavo presto probabilmente l’avrebbero mangiata i miei per non buttarla.
Sono consapevole del fatto che sia più leggera rispetto a una normale o agli altri formaggi. Ma per me questo è un passo importante. Piccolo ma importante. E cosa posso dire?
Era buona, cavolo. Non si può negare.
Quindi questa sera #cena con Philadelphia alla greca, peperoni e pane di segale integrale.🥖🧀
Ora vado a fare una passeggiata con i miei🐶👪
Voi cosa fate? Buona serata💓


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My day didn’t start off great. My mood was low and tbh I was just done with the day from the moment I woke up, then to top it all off I was really triggered by a comment made by a family member...BUT in the afternoon my mum and dad treated me and took me and my little brother to go see the Incredibles 2! As some of you may know I’m a HUGE Disney lover so this of course brightened my day immediately. It was absolutely amazing and I loved every minute of it (as did my family) I even challenged myself to get a 7UP at the cinema! This is huge for me as with my ocd I really struggle with things like this on top of picking a drink with calories! We then called in to see my Nanny and Granda who I absolutely adore and got lots of cuddles off my Nanny - again another perfect way to brighten my day! Now I’ve just had a shower and I’m chilling for the evening and a day I had no hope for has certainly turned itself around. Just because there are bad moments in a day doesn’t make the entire day a bad one. In life we have to take the positive with the negative! Not every moment will be a monumental one but it’s important to live in and be present in all moments of our lives!


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