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You just saw a trailer of me, not the whole film.🌟


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Fat is a beautiful thing.
It adds flavor,
It makes us feel satiated,
And it’s used by literally every cell in our bodies.
Your brain is made of nearly 60% fat, so restricting fat from your diet can have a big impact on your mental health.
Don’t fear the fat.
Put that avocado on everything. 🥑




#dontfearfat #avocado #avocadotoast #avocadoeverything #mentalhealth #brainhealth #restriction #eatfat #whatnutritionistseat #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfamily #edtreatment


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Scelgo di vivere per scelta,
E non per caso.
Scelgo di fare dei cambiamenti
Anziché avere delle scuse.
Scelgo di essere motivato,
Non manipolato.
Scelgo di essere utile,
Non usato.
Scelgo l’autostima,
Non l’autocommiserazione.
Scelgo di eccellere,
Non di competere.
Scelgo di ascoltare la voce interiore e non l’opinione casuale della gente...❣️
Buon pranzo bimbe { • 80 gr di mix di cereali ( orzo, farro, fagioli neri , lenticchie , kamut ~ 3 foto) • tonno al naturale • pomodorini • 🍐} Prima volta che assaggiavo questo mix di cereali veramente ottimo 😋
Passate una buona giornata 😘
#anoressia#disturbialimentari#anorexia#ana#anorexiarecovery#recovery#recoverywin#edfamily#liberta#mangiaresano#lunch#pranzo


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Lunch is another McDonald's 😏😏 veggi burger MOZZARELLA dippers with sauce obvs and a sugar donut 😋😋ugh so good #ana#anarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #eatittobeatit#anorexianervosa #anorexianervosarecovery #ed#edfam#edfamily#edfighter#edrecovery


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Hey my lovely #edfamily 💖. Here you can see my #lunch which was a big #fearfood because I used way more #noodles than before. Who else loves #asparagus as much as I do?.
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Although I was pretty scared, this lunch was so, so worth it! I really enjoyed it. 💖
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Should I keep the picture like this or stick with my old feed?🙈
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#recovery #ed #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #food #recoveryispossible #edrecovery #edfam #edfighter #edwarrior #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #foodporn #health #recoveryisworthit #edfam #fooddiary #fitfam #fitfood #minniemaud #realrecovery #vegetarian #dinner #healthylunch #healthymeal #pasta


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Dal gelo☔️❄️ invernale al caldo soffocante🌞 estivo della classica cittadina sul mare❤️, qui la primavera🌸😂 l'abbiamo saltata. Ma ogni giorno ADORO sempre di più la mia città😍 e la mia pasta🍝 al pesto🌱, soprattutto perché è un ristoro dopo il treno 🚆 e sei ore di scuola🏫. Stasera mi tocca occuparmi dei bambini👶 dall'asilo alle medie della scuola 🏠di mia madre 👩 (che rimarrà sempre e comunque anche la MIA❤️), che gioia...
Da adesso parte il ponte del 25 aprile, tutto da programmare... E da studiare😖 Rientro il 26 e il 27 e segue la pausa del primo maggio... Che peccato😏🎉! Buona giornata❤️❤️❤️ #anoressia #anorexia #edfighter #edfamily #anawarrior #anasoldier #beatingana #life #scuola #serenitá #family #sorrideresempre #pranzo #pastaalpesto


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mein #lunch heute waren wieder nudeln 🤔😅 diese woche qar meega ne nudel woche😚😍 was ich sagen wollte ist das ea mir heute nicht so gut geht ....
aber ich will dieses gefühl nicht haben also sirge ich dafür das es mir besser geht ich hoffe es klappt

mein #afternoonsnack war für mich so ein #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #realrecovery #prorecover #prorecovery #foodborn #fearfood #breakfast #ed #edfamily #edfighter #edwarrior #beatana #beatmia #minnuemaudmeal #minniemaudrecovery #minniemaudguidelines #minniemaudintake #minniemaud #stronger #recoverywin #recoverymeal #zoats #recoverywin #lunch #minniemaud #edwarrior #stronger #fighter


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"And I said to my body, softly, 'I want to be your friend'. It took a long breath and replied 'I have been waiting my whole life for this".




Hola mio popolo! Anche da voi è scoppiata l'estate all'improvviso? 😎 non me la sento ancora di denudarmi (come tutti oramai 😅) perché se mi metto in tenuta estiva ci scommetto tutto l'oro del mondo che torna l'inverno 😂😂 dunque lo faccio anche per l'incolumità altrui 🤗😇 tralascerò il fatto che non ho scatole di fare il cambio stagione 😏😮🤐 Btw, ieri é stata davvero una bella giornata! Prima di danza mi sono vista con I. e abbiamo preso un gelato 🍨 (alla faccia del gelato di 1,30!!!!) e parlare con lei mi fa sempre molto bene 💙 a danza poi mi sentivo più in forze e sono contenta che i miei muscoletti stiano tornando 😍😍 feel like a boss 😎😎 okay, la smetto 😂. Penso che il sole contribuisca tanto, se non totalmente, per il mio umore, dunque la soluzione é una sola, andare a vivere ai Caraibi 🏝️🏝️ Però che maleducata che sono, non vi chiesto come state e come sta procedendo con voi! Allora, come state? 🙃🤗 Vi auguro un felice venerdì! Baci e abbracci 💙 #foodaddict #foodporn #instafood #anoressiaitalia #edfighter #strongnotskinny #healthylifestyle #healthynotskinny #hungrylikethewolf #healthychoices #healthyfood #ciboitaliano #hakunamatata #friyay #enjoyyourday #recoveryispossible #prorecovery #notproana #zucchini #igersitalia #beatana #eatbetternotless #eatittobeatit #disturbialimentari #edfamily #ednos #yummy #foodheaven #foodie #tastyfood


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Dinner


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Dinner today is 3 boiled eggs and a piece of toast with salad with unpictured bugle crisp and some ice cream that I seem to be eating every day now😂🥚🍞🥗


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Dinner today was a challenge!! Pasta with tuna and pesto! 😯 it was so tasty though❤️ apart from breakfast, I haven’t eaten anything all day because work was soo busy 😪🙈 so challenged myself to big dinner 🍴. #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #ed #edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #prorecovery #strongnotskinny #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #edwarrior #anorexiafighter #positive #mentalhealth #food #lifestyleblogger


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Usual lunch - eaten a bit early today which is frustrating but I wanted to eat with my friends in the kitchen. Feeling nervous nervous nervous about later - I'm having a snack at work then taking my dinner to the volunteering to eat when I arrive.


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Cue the emergency 🚨 #peanutbutter toast 🍞 for #lunch! 😆
Trying to prevent myself from awful Doxcycline induced stomach pain! 🙄
My GP gave me 'the look' when she was telling me about making sure I ate with them 😆 - bless her.. she said to try my best anyway. Trust me though!.. I know how bad these meds 💊 are without food, so I'm not even tempted to go there! 🙈😭
She told me to enjoy my weekend in the sun ☀️ on my way out.. I obvs said the same to her but then I paused & said something like.. 'yep! I'll have to be on it with the suncream though, as these pills make you photosensitive don't they?!' She was like.. 'oh yes! I should've told you about that!' then she started laughing, so it's all good. 😂👌
Trust me!.. Vitamin D deficiency, but meds that make you photosensitive!! 😂🤷‍♀️
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#health #fitness #nutrition #wellbeing #fit #fitfam #anorexia #anorexic #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #mentalhealth #EDawareness #EDcommunity #EDfamily #EDfighter #EDrecovery #EDsoldiers #EDwarrior #recovery #breakthestigma #beatingeatingdisorders #eatittobeatit #vegetarian #FDOE


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Can you even spend a sunny friday without ice cream 😛 This is totally my new favourite.


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Egg and salad wrap for lunch with everything else. I stuck within my ‘safe’ calories for lunch but I really want to start challenging going OVER them every day now.
Because an extra hundred calories here and there makes NO difference!
And food is SO good!
For the body and for the soul!
So you know the goats cheese sandwich you’ve had your eye on for ages but daren’t have it because of the calories?
Or that chocolate bar you’ve been eyeing up for months but it’s 50 calories over what you’re ‘allowed’?
Fuck that shit and buy the goats cheese sandwich!
Eat two of those chocolate bars and allow yourself to feel ALIVE satisfied because you deserve it!
If you’re living life but letting your ED control your decisions then you’re not truly living.
It’s time to take back your life and your choices.
I’m going to prove that recovery is real and absolutely possible.💪🏻💫💖 #anorexiarecovery#recoverywarrior#prorecovery#beyourownhero#realrecovery#beatinganorexia#bulimiarecovery#bodydysmorphia#depression#mentalhealth#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#edwarrior#believeinyourself#eatingdisorderawareness#edrecovery#recoveryisworthit#nevergiveup#mentalhealthawareness#selfacceptance#bodyimage#positivity#anxiety#fuckana#mentallillness#edfamily#gainingweightiscool#edcommunity#bodydysmorphicdisorder#recovery


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20/4/18
Breakfast was Just Right cereal with full-fat milk and a slice of bread with margarine 🥣🥛🍞
Lunch was scrambled egg and cheese 🍳🧀
Dinner was spaghetti and roast potatoes with carrots and peas, and roast chicken 🍝🍠🥕🍗
Supper was two Tim Tams 🍫🍪
swipe for a daily update on 3rd-5th pictures
hope you’re all feeling fabulous ❤️


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La prima è la foto del mio pranzo: riso venere con zoodles di zucchine, gamberetti e una fracca di peperoncino.
La seconda invece è la sorpresa del team a lavoro. Mi sono venuti a chiamare dicendomi di andare nella staff room: io mi appropinquo in modo esitante e sbadigliante, rincoglionita come sono figurati se mi aspetto che qualcuno faccia qualcosa per me 😅 Apro la porta e mi ritrovo tutto il team che mi canta Happy Birthday seguito da "that's ammmoorree" (l'unica parola mezza italiana che sanno dire, oltre a lasagna e pizza 😌). Mi sono quasi salite le lacrime: e questa volta non per la paura di dover mangiare (e vi assicuro che quelle torte al burro mantecate al burro di paura ne fanno un bel po' 😳) ma perché mi sono sentita importante per un momento: quelle persone si erano radunate PER ME. E quindi nulla, vi scrivo con la panzona piena della torta al sentore di cappuccino 😂 perché direi proprio che, soprattutto in occasioni come questa, vale la pena ingerire quelle "calorie non contemplate" che si trasformeranno soltanto in un bel ricordo, per te e per gli altri. Tra un anno riprenseró alla gioia che ho provato per una sorpresa inaspettata piuttosto che alle calorie che mi sarei potuta risparmiare. Ma poi già è 'na vitaccia (disse il cacciavite) ma perché provocarci da sole altra tristezza? Altro dolore? Altra solitudine?
Buon pranzo ragazze ❤️


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Buongiorno girlss💘, stamattina a scuola🏫non è andata proprio benissimo, e ora cercherò di spiegarvi: per prima cosa i miei compagni non hanno fatto altro che parlare della gita, e chiaramente io ci rimango male dato che non potrò andarci...poi, forse quello che mi fa più stare male, è il fatto che a scuola spesso è come se mi addormentassi, nel senso che non riesco a tenere le palpebre aperte e ho davvero tanto sonno, e poi è come se mi sentissi passiva: ad esempio alla fine della 3 ora la mia prof di inglese🇬🇧mi ha presa da parte per parlare, e sinceramente ricordo poco o niente di ciò che mi ha detto e di ciò che ho detto io. È una cosa parecchio strana e che mi spaventa molto perché è ormai da mesi che va avanti..
Comunque, questo è stato il mio pranzo:
•80 grammi di bulgur integrale🌾, miglio🌱e riso rosso🍚🔴
•30 grammi di pane ai cereali🍞🌾
•80 grammi (1 burger) di burger al formaggio Montasio DOP🧀con spinaci🥗e zucchine🥒
•spinaci🥗con sale e pepe nero⚫️
•2 cucchiaini🥄🥄di formaggio grana grattugiato🧀
•1 cucchiaio🥄di olio evo a crudo🍶
•100 grammi di fragole🍓
Adesso andrò a fare i compiti📚, quindi vi saluto e vi auguro un buon pomeriggio♥️
#ana #anawho #anawarrior #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #anoressia #anoressianervosa #anoressiaitalia #edfighter #edsoldier #edwarrior #ednos #edrecovery #edfamily #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #skinny #anorexic #prorecovery #food #healthyfood #fooddiary #foodblog #dca #recoveryispossible #foodisfuel #lunch


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🧜🏻‍♀️🧜🏻‍♀️🧜🏻‍♀️
Coffee ☕️
I woke up late again but I really needed the sleep tbh. Yesterday I spent the afternoon outside with Mum in the gorgeous weather ☀️ it really makes a big difference to my mood! It’s still sunny and warm but idk if I’m gonna be able to make the most of it today cos my body feels like lead 😣 we’ll see.


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Lunch: tomato cous cous salad bowl 😍
#ed #edfamily #edfighter #edrecovery #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery


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My #breakfast was porridge, topped with banana and cinnamon, and some fresh pineapple ❤️
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#anorexia #anawho #beatingana #edfighter #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #edfamily


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Прошу простить за то, что я сейчас редко тут бываю. У меня другие приоритеты. Сейчас я очень переживаю за маму. Анализы стали хуже, в понедельник будет переливание крови и я очень надеюсь что это даст улучшения.🙏 Болезнь, как всегда, приходит неожиданно. И слишком быстро. Берегите себя, жизнь очень хрупкая штука. #пп#ed #edfam #семья #граффити #непп #edfighter #дети #остеомиелофиброз #recipe#длинныеволосы #рецепт#edfamily #худоба #стритарт #пост#
#дневникпитания#девушка #попугай#рпп #анорексия #болезнь #худею #фудпорн#волосы


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Colloquio finito. Come sto? Male.
Oggi l'ho sentita un po' distante, e mi ha detto che settimana prossima è in ferie, perciò la rivedrò tra 15 giorni. Come se non bastasse, ha finito la seduta 20 minuti prima del dovuto.. Mi sono sentita quasi di troppo, come se lei non mi volesse lì, o avesse altri pensieri per la testa, faccende da sbrigare.
Va beh, almeno sembra esserci una soluzione per la mia amica: la mia psicologa ovviamente non può seguirla perché ha già in cura me, e lei è l'unica della ASL che sia specializzata in dca.. Però, ci sono delle tirocinanti a cui potrebbe chiedere una mano, che sarebbero psicologhe specializzate in dca che stanno aspettando che la mia vada in pensione per poter essere assunte e che nel frattempo fanno un po' di volontariato.
Bene. Ancora mi fa un po' rabbia l'idea che lei possa essere seguita nel mio stesso ambulatorio, ma alla fine le voglio un gran bene e desidero il meglio per lei.
Oggi però non so se riuscirò ad uscire con lei per dirglielo, sto abbastanza male, non riesco a calmarmi e a smettere di piangere. Spero di riuscire a farmi forza, se non per me almeno per lei.
Buona giornata pulcine🐣
#disturbialimentari #dca #ed #edfighter #edfamily #recovery #recoverywin #ana #anoressia #anoressiaitalia #anorexia #depressione #psicologa #banana #fruit #frutta #fruits #healthysnack #healthyfood #prato #margherite #diet #dieta #diarioalimentare #fitness #foodblogger #alimentazione


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Baked some bananamuffins today 😋😋 I always get a sweet craving after having drawn blood so yeahh. My bf is basically sitting waiting for them in front of the oven drooling 😂 can't thank him enough tho, he always supports me and encourages me everyday. -
#ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #anorexiawin #eatittobeatit #ednos #ed #edwarrior #edfamily #eatingdisorder #fuckana #food #fooddiary #pescatarian #recovery #recoverycommunity #foodhaul #fearfood #anorexiawin #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryispossible #mindfulness #mentallyill


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Happy friday, beautifuls! 💗
I don't know what's wrong with me, i'm so sleepy all the time it's starting to bother me a bit. Today it was so hard to get up and i still feel like i want to sleep even though it's the afternoon and I've been outside in the lovely sunshine twice this day.. 🤔 Maybe my iron levels are low or something.. Well, i'll find that out next week i guess.
Tried this Evoke protein crunch red berries bar as #snack today and really liked it! It tasted a bit like some berry candy. Also had coffee with oat milk.
Now i'm going to pick the kids from the daycare and pre-school. 😍 It's my favourite moment of the day!
Have a nice weekend. ☀️ #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexia #eatingdisorder #recovery #edfam #edfamily #edfighter #vegan #eatittobeatit #staystrong #bebrave


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Buongiorno tesori!!❤️
Come state?Io meglio di ieri grazie al cielo, e oggi si esce con mamma!Dobbiamo prendere due cosette, magari vi farò sapere nelle stories😍
Voi che farete oggi?
#ana#anafighter#anarecovery#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#edfamily#edfighter#me#fooddiary#dinner#anorexianervosa#anorexic#skinny#sadness#happy#me#change#body#recovery#photography#alwayskeepfighting#smile#me


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Hey dears 🌟 Today’s lunch (at work, so food presentation sucks, sorry 😅) was a roasted chicken with gravy & sweet potato with tomatoes and peppers. And I also had these go ahead yogurt breaks as a dessert to finish with something sweet 😋 I’m feeling pretty good so far, I enjoyed my brekkie & also had a morning snack - an apple, yogurt with mango and muesli (sorry that I didn’t post it but I’m working on Fridays, so it’s hard to post all my meals 😕). I don’t feel any urges to restrict as yet and I hope that this positive & optimistic mood will stick with me 😁 I don’t even mind the fact that I have to spend such a sunny afternoon at work, which is weird, but at least the weekend is coming! 😁 Enjoy your Friday sweethearts and keep smiling, life is too short to be wasted by being sad! 😋🌟💕


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Breakfast this morning! A bit more than usual
TGIF.
I need the weekend so bad. 😭😇


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#breakfast was a raspberry yoghurt with oats and frozen berries 🤤😋. the oats made it super crunchy and the frozen berries tasted like flavored ice. will definitely eat it again. •••
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hello!
i get to meet my new nurse practitioner in two weeks, and i’m so nervous. i know she’ll weigh me whenever i go in, but i don’t know if i’m ready for that. feeling a little bit better today.
stay strong and keep fighting! •••
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#edrecovery #beatingana #foodisfuel #foodisgood #eatingdisorderfree #edfree #eatingdisorder #anorexia #fuckana #anawho #eatittobeatit #recovery #worthit #bodylove #edfamily #edfighter


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Good morning everyone! This is going to be short and sweet but I have a game that is an hour and a half away tonight 😅! So if I’m not active I apologize! I will try my best but we will be leaving right after school and not getting home till 9:30-10:00! I love you all and let’s end this week on a good note ❤️❤️😘☺️


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Dumplings 4 dinz🥟Celebration of our efforts house hunting🏠while working, studying and dealing with mental illness😞that tells me I don’t deserve this food🙃
I do! One meal won’t gain weight right?
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#realrecovery #recovery #recovering #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edfam #recoveryisworthit #recoverytowin #eatittobeatit #ana #anarecovery #edrecovery #anorexianervosa #prorecovery #recoveryispossible #fuckana #anorexia #anarecovery #anafighter #anorexiarecovery #food #bulimia #outpatient #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodlover #health #fooddiary #foodisfuel


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Standard morning porridge. Ughhh feeling down but keeping the grind on! Think I’m gonna be super active on Insta today to share some positivity etc etc, and write some letters/packages to some awesome people 😍
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #foodisfuel #anorexia #anorexic #anorexiarecovery #EDrecovery #depression #anxiety #edwarrior #edfighter #edfamily #eatittobeatit #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #recoverywarrior #strongnotskinny #autism #autistic #breakfast #porridge #mostimportantmealoftheday


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Lunch before having a nap in preparation for my night shift is a @sainsburys vegan cheese, chutney and spinach sandwich 🥪My meal plan said I was meant to be having soup but it’s waaaaaayyyy to hot for that and I am flexible! 💪🏻
(Dm me for any recipes 👩🏻🍳)
#edrecovery #edcommunity #edwarrior #edfamily #edfam #edfighter #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiafighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel #2fab4ana #pissoffana #fuckana #food #prorecovery #anawarrior #recoveryisworthit #anafamily #adultswitheds #healthy #ed #vegan #plantbased #vegancheese #nightshift


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Altra giornata di sole stupendo, finestre aperte e uccellini canterini! Farò il turno da papà stasera, quindi ho tutta la giornata per me. Ho avuto un attimo di crisi oggi, mi vedevo davvero grossa, la faccia a palla che si vede nelle foto! Non mi piaccio e ne soffro molto. Sono brutte sensazioni che non mi lasciano vivere con la spensieratezza e la sicurezza che vorrei, invece mi tengono inchiodata al terreno. Vorrei sentirmi bella, sentirmi abbastanza, ma più vado avanti più diventa difficile accettare la mia lontananza dalla perfezione a cui ho sempre aspirato. Nessuno e perfetto lo so, ma non riesco a smettere di pormi obbiettivi irraggiungibili sentendomi sempre una perdente. Non ho fiducia in me stessa, nemmeno un po’, e neanche riesco ad accettare i complimenti, perché inizio automaticamente a rivoltarli nella mia mente rendendoli nulli, o addirittura negativi. Lo so sono un vero disastro e mi dispiace di dover pubblicare anche le sensazioni negative, ma fa parte della mia realtà, e quindi non posso tenerla nascosta. #anoressia #bulimia #binging #depressione #ansia #disturbimentali #anoressiaitalia #bulimiaitalia #edfamily #edrecovery #autolesionismo #disturboossesivocompulsivo #doc #ocd


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🌸🌸WEIGHT REDISTRIBUTION!!!
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This is an unavoidable process in recovery. From start to finish, it can be terrifying, so the best we can do is try to understand and embrace it!!
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🌸PHASE ONE: HEALING. This is the phase that took me from the first picture to the second one. When I first started recovery my body obviously had a lot of healing to do. I can't believe how terribly I was treating it, giving the poor thing only ~300 calories per day apart from my daily purges. When I started recovery, I vowed to increase my calories from a starvation amount to a healthy amount. I did this over the course of about two months,so it wasn't an immediate change, but the influx of nutrients totally shocked my starved body! So I got bloated, as most of us do, as my body used the nutrients to protect the vital organs in my abdomen and started re-learning how to process adequate nutrients. I respected that my body was doing these things to save me, but I didn't exactly love feeling like I had a watermelon under my shirt! Bloating can be one of the hardest things to cope with in recovery, but it's NECESSARY!!! Wear some loose clothes and remember why your body is doing this. .
🌸PHASE TWO: ADAPTATION. This is the phase that took me from the second picture to the third picture. This is when my body learned that the nutrition I was giving it was there to stay- I wasn't going to start starving it again. My body remembered how to digest lots of food each day, and it accepted that my vital organs were no longer in imminent danger. Simply put, once I had reached a healthy intake, my body began to adapt to it! I've been adequately nourishing my body and maintaining this weight for about a month now. After months of meticulously planning my meals and counting my calories to ensure that I kept increasing, I finally realized that I didn't need the crutch anymore and began to eat intuitively- following my cravings and hunger- and not counting calories. I don't track my weight either, but I would guess it took my about 15 happy pounds to go from the weight I was maintaining through anorexia to the weight I am maintaining through health. Now, I LOVE my body and all it represents!🌸💕


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Body image is absolute Shit rn but my weight has dropped once again! 😬 So, I need to try harder. Gonna have some of these this weekend, and really challenge the fear foods I hope. I'll get there. 😴
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#anorexiarecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #fearfood #edfamily


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Not so appealing looking pic of my dinner I’m having with me to work.
We’ll see how the shift goes, I’m totally not feeling my best at the moment 🙄 My stomach and lower back are hurting and this bloating is just making me look so huge. Luckily I’m having the rest of this weekend free so I can relax a couple of days if I just survive these few hours at work today. Trying to keep that in mind

Hope your day has been better! ❤️


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Today was full of challenges. Had to say goodbye to one of the most influential professors I’ve ever had as finals week approaches, went to a coffee shop to study today and forgot to pack a snack & had to buy one there. Found myself wanting to skip dessert later tonight, so I bought this giant cookie to make sure that didn’t happen. I stayed on track perfectly. Then one of my friends texted me and asked if I wanted to go to that “Pittsburgh burger place I always talk about” tomorrow. I’ve had a lot of food outside of my comfort zone this week, and I’m going to over the weekend as well. I started racking my brain for a way to get out of going.
Sometimes I do this thing where I justify slipping up because it’s not THAT bad. I can run an extra day, because I’ve been eating so many fear foods. I can lie to get out of this dinner out because I’ve been doing everything so well. It’s almost like I’m rewarding myself by allowing slip ups. But I’m rewarding my ed, really.
Finals are over next Friday and said friends will go back to Maryland, 5 hours away. These are friends I’m going to have to wait months to see again. My eating disorder stole away so many moments I’ll never get back. From the joy of setting best times, to family vacations, to dinner outings with my friends.
Don’t get me wrong- it’s okay to slip up. That’s part of recovery. But it’s not okay to let yourself slip up as a reward.
So tomorrow, I will be downtown eating burgers with my friends regardless of this cookie I’m about to eat, regardless of what I ate yesterday or what I’m going to eat this weekend. Because I will never get those four years of my life back, but every day, every single day I have a choice. And I REFUSE to let my eating disorder get in the way of the things I truly value ever again. Starting right now.


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"Gruba świnia", "Przebrzydły smok Wawelski" ,"A oczy to Ci ktoś podbił czy się naćpałaś a może za dużo zjadłaś grubasko?" Takie teksty najczęściej słyszałam w szkole, autobusie czy też podwórku. Wtedy strasznie mnie to bolało jak i często doprowadzało do łez. Teraz takie teksty nie robią na mnie nawet najmniejszego wrażenia. Gdy doprowadziłam się do anoreksji ważyłam zaledwie 28 kilo. Wtedy praktycznie umarłam. Bolało mnie całe ciało. Nie mogłam siedzieć, stać ani leżeć. Najmniejszy ruch sprawial mi ogromny ból jakby ktoś dosłownie nacinał nożem moje obolałe,kruche ciało... Na początku byłam w Holandii. Bardzo ciężko tam pracowałam. Dźwigałam ogromne, ciężkie kartony. Do tej chwili wszyscy się dziwią jak taka kruszynka sobie tam poradziła i nigdy nie powiedziała, że nie pójdzie do pracy bo nie ma siły. "Dawałaś sobie radę chyba tylko siłą woli". Owszem dawałam radę ale ile bólu i cierpienia mnie to kosztowało wiem tylko ja. Nigdy nie zapomnę tych strasznych tygodni po powrocie do Polski przepełnionych tylko i wyłącznie bólem... Od tamtej pory obiecałam sobie jedno... NIGDY więcej nie będę przejmowała się opinią innych ludzi na swój temat. Jestem jaka jestem i nie mam zamiaru tego zmieniać. Tak przytyłam, tak mam ciążowy brzuszek przez zatrzymaną w organiźmie wodę od jedzonka którego pochłaniam naprawdę bardzo dużo... tak mam cienie pod oczami bo taka jest moja uroda. Mam je od dzieciństwa i one nigdy nie znikają czasem są bardziej wyraziste czasem mniej wszystko zależy od tego jak się danego dnia czuję. Może i nie mam urody modelki ale osobiście wcale się tym nie przejmuję. Często dodaję tutaj zdjęcia bez makijażu praktycznie zawsze,ponieważ maluje się raz na rok. Można wręcz powiedzieć,że od Święta. Już nie wstydzę się tego jak wyglądam. Nie wstydzę się swoich niedoskonałości oraz zbędnego tłuszczyku. #recovery #recoverywin #recovering #edfighter #anafighter #edwarrior #anawarrior #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #fuckana #recoveryana #edfamily #edfam #strongnotskinny #fightingback #recoverylife #newlife #recoveryday #edproblem #edproblems #recoveriisworhit #recoveryisoosible #ananomore #eatingdisorder #strong #warrior #fighter #motywacja #walka #szczescie


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