What a day OMG!
Went to my doctor this am to get insurance paperwork filled out because I’m not “actively” in a treatment program, I’m on a waitlist and they need to substantiate that I’m “sick enough” to not be working.
1st of all, a big fuck you to the scammers of the system that make such a ridiculous amount of paperwork necessary. Secondly, I’m gonna smack my doc across the face if he make purging hand gestures one more time. And thirdly, I would so much love to go back to work right now, because that is sooo much easier than actively working on recovery from an eating disorder. BUT, what I need right now is very different than what I (the ed) wants and that’s just tough shit for the ed because I’m stronger
On a great note, I got to visit one of my favourite people and her daughter today which was awesome! Seriously amazing how much a few great laughs and an adorable baby can lift a mood!
Also, got some serious grocery shopping done! I can’t remember the last time I spent over $100 on all healthy, balanced, non-binge food. Got a bunch of supplements too, going to start taking this recovery business much more seriously!
Had my very 1st Mandarin class tonight. Let’s just say I’m really going to need to focus, this is going to be challenging. Which is perfect for me right now because it’ll require regular practise, no all or nothing last minute cramming and holy shit am I out of my comfort zone. The class is 12 people, I thought it was a lecture. SOOOOO much pronunciation and “demonstrating” for the class - FML (more on this later)
Did pretty well on my meal plan today except lunch which was ice cream, so I’m definitely out some choices. However, the glass of wine I was craving when I got home didn’t happen and even though I was starving when I got home from class and just wanted to take sleeping pills and skip snack, I did not.
Also resisted huge urges to check the scale today, I did not.
So we’ll chalk this up to solid Monday.