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Join us for the second part of our Summer Learning Series. We are honored to have Erin M. Akers, founder of the Diabulimia Helpline, as our guest speaker. Erin will be discussing the signs, symptoms, complications, treatment strategies, and resources available for those struggling with diabetes and disordered eating as well as her personal experience with the Helpline.

Earn 1 CE credit hour (RD/RDN eligible)
RSVP: seattle@theprojectheal.org
Price: $10 ($8 for GSDA members, $5 for students with ID)
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• GOOD TIMES •
Soooo...
Today I got reunited with my best friend after 2 months.
That was pretty amazing.
Today was one of the happiest days I've had.
I literally cannot pick out a bad thing about it.
My therapist also said earlier (there is a long back story to this conversation 😂) that I reminded her of a lioness because of my strength and beauty (her words, not mine 😜).
So that's cool.
It's been a good day.
I'm not going to deny myself happiness like this anymore.
Be kind to yourself 💖


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before I forget to post it: the usual snack. OMG I still haven't realised I'm going to Stockholm.. I wonder if and how my daily routine is gonna change and I'm quite scared.. I hope it all turns out okay


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A strawberry and coconut mug cake for breakfast, with white chocolate chips and Craisins. My ED is beating me up for it as per usual, but I know that if I don’t keep pushing through the guilt, it won’t become easier. As I always say: if it feels wrong then it’s probably right. So I have to keep going. Hope everyone is doing well today. Keep going even though it hurts and is so so hard.


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#dinner looked like hella lots of food I just noticed that now that I look at the picture. and obvs I feel it since I had dinner. also I was bloated and had lots of air in my stomach before I ate which made me feel uncomfortable in the first place. working out and yoga before eating helped but for some reason I also had a bit of a stomachache afterwards.. and midnightsnack is following now


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Join us for the continuation of the #WakeUpWeightWatchers campaign by collaborating with us along with a bunch of members of our community in creating a FREE E-book for parents and teens on living a healthy life, without the need for diets or Weight Watchers weigh-ins 🙄
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Hi guys, I hope you're all doing okay😊 It's my mom's birthday today so here's a pic of me with one of the presents I gave her (crocheted socks, I also made her a painting🙃). So I've been having a really bad few days with various meltdowns, pulling out of tubes, threats of restraint etc... These kind of environments are toxic and when you fall in the ocean there's only so long you can tread water before you start to drown and boy am I drowning. The staff here don't know how to support me when I'm crying because all I can see and feel is fat. They even just sat there as I hit my self in the head over and over again (tmi sorry but they literally just sat and watched wtf¿). I'm really struggling with my weight gain and I know I look healthy now so I'm a bit confused as to why I'm in a hospital instead of the community(I could be tuned at home). I guess I'll have to talk to the doctors at ward round tomorrow but I'm dreading it because Thursday's are always a bad day for me. On the bright side, I managed a sip of Pepsi max ginger on Sunday but now I feel really guilty and can't stop thinking about it but I need to be able to at least drink my meal replacements so I should just get over it haha (if only it were that easy)🙃🙂


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Jetzt neigt sich der Urlaub langsam dem Ende zu ... mit einem weinenden und einem lachenden Auge ... was mich betrifft ...
Aber gekämpft wird trotzdem weiterhin ... 1 Chillilakritzbonbon,
1 Joghurt mit der Ecke Butterkeks
1 Leckermäulchen Käsekuchen,
1 Kinder Überraschungsei,
1 Merci Kaffeesahne Bonbon ,
1 Rittersport Mini Marzipan,
1 Toblerone White,
1 Toblerone Dark,
1 Daimbonbon,
1 Hallorenkugel Latte Macchiato,
1 Kinder Hippo Cacao und
1 Mars Eis
Damit ist Tag 32 auch gewonnen ... #recovern #recovery #edfighter #recoverywin #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecovery #edfamily #edrecovery #recoverywin #magersuchtrecovery #fighter #eatfighter #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #nightsnack #chocolate #sweets #fight #icecream #strugglingbutfighting


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Long term update! Hello anyone who has stuck around this long on my profile that has been inactive. I’ve changed my handle and changed my life! I am going into my junior year of college. Succeeding in every way. Stable weight, life, academics, athletics, the whole nine. I was always worried this account would trigger me, but now I’m inspired. All the people who were just like me, young and afraid, are becoming strong young adults. I’d like to post more and see how everyone is doing. I love y’all ❤️
Tags: #ana #anorexia #anorexic #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #beatanorexia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #balancednotclean #ed #edrecovery #prorecovery #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #bulimianervosa #edfighter #recovery #selfharmmm #selfharmrecovery #depression #depressionrecovery #anxiety #ednos #strongnotskinny #boobsoverbones #edfamily #recoverywin #run #exercise


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17:00 p.m.
#snack: 1 taza (de té) de palomitas PuriPop endulzadas, 1/4 manzana verde y unos trozos de piña
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No sabía si comer fruta o palomitas así que comí ambas😂 aunque no me terminé las palomitas porque quise evitar sentirme muy llena y culpable después. Ni siquiera eran muchas pero me llenan bastante


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When those negative thoughts start to appear, it is so easy to get trapped within your own mind.
The more attention you give to them, the louder they become and it’ll feel like you’re drowning.
It becomes harder to take a breath because your chest feels so tight.
It becomes harder to eat because your stomach is in knots.
It becomes harder to be in your own skin because of how alien it feels.
It’s moments like these that I long for my eating disorder, because it numbed me to every other sensation.
I might feel all these things but I remind myself that feelings are constantly changing, and that bad days don’t last forever.
Because I go through those bad days I am able to appreciate the good days so much more.
So if you’re struggling and having a hard time, I want you to remember that.
You are not alone.
And you will be happy again.
Just hold on.🌈✨💖 #anorexiarecovery#recoverywarrior#prorecovery#realrecovery#beatinganorexia#bulimiarecovery#bodydysmorphia#depression#eatingdisorderrecovery#edwarrior#believeinyourself#eatingdisorderawareness#edrecovery#recoveryisworthit#nevergiveup#mentalhealth#selfacceptance#recoveryispossible#mentallillness#edfamily#gainingweightiscool#edcommunity#recovery#edfighter#positivity#bdd#nourishtoflourish#bodydysmorphicdisorder#anarecovery#bddrecovery


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This was lunch and dinner ✨ lentils on toast and a trusty old @tidefordorganics minestrone 😍 heavenly! Seriously cheesy too 😳😋 MTW- appointment update and ramble:
I lost quite a bit, but she didn’t seem concerned 🙄 but actually she never does, unless she speaks to the rest of my CEDS team who get in a right state 🤦🏼‍♀️ anyway, I explained that I’m just so scared that if I eat 2500 I’ll gain 3 kg a week, and be weight restored in under a month, and then have to restrict to maintain a much higher weight 😔 I know that im not well, but I’m not *that bad* and I don’t look really underweight? Idk. Mum says I shouldn’t care how many cals I eat to restore my weight eg. 2000 should be fine, but I’m honestly always tired and hungry on that amount and i just want to be able to eat whatever if I recover you know? These thoughts are really disordered and messy so I’m sorry but I’m just very lost. Idk how to convince myself that reaching a BMI of 18.5 would be a good thing, which is odd because I would always advise others to get to that at least! I cried for most of he afternoon as it feels like my ED is controlling all my smallest decisions 😖
ETW
I’m not giving up, just struggling a lot... any encouragement from someone with a slowed metabolism who increased would be helpful 💖

Stay strong lovelies 💕

#edfamily #edrecovery #anarecovery #foodheals #foodisfuel #foodisnottheenemy #foodismedicine #foodisnourishment #foodshouldnotbefeared #edwontwin #eatittobeatit #restrictionisnottheanswer #intake #nourishnotpunish #fightthethoughts #feelthefearanddoitanyway #feelingstuck #struggling #iamnotmyed #youarestrongerthanyouthink #dontgiveup #deepbreaths


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No boobs? 🙋🏻‍♀️
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Still wear heels at 6ft tall 🙋🏻‍♀️
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No makeup cause ‘lazy’? 🙋🏻‍♀️
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May as well do whatever we want 🤷🏻‍♀️😏


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Eccomi qui, cuccioli cari 🤗 come avete passato questa giornata? La mia é stata abbastanza un flop 😶 non ho fatto molto, sono uscita solo per fare una mini spesa (la cena più che altro) e poi dritta a casa per capelli e doccia, anche se me ne sarei stata ben volentieri nel reparto surgelati 😂😂 Le foto andrò a prenderle domani, così mi sono lasciata qualcosa da fare 😅 I pensieri non se ne vanno, però cerco di non ascoltarli e di svagarmi per quanto riesco 😥😣 ora maratona di HIMYM e poi nanne 😉 buonanotte tesori 😘 #seitan #veganfood #vegan #veggie #healthylifestyle #cenatime #healthyfood #healthychoices #anoressiaitalia #edfighter #growstronger #protein #prorecovery #hakunamatata #enjoyyourday #beatana #eatittobeatit #kickana #edfamily #instafood #fuel #foodisfuel #igersitalia #ig_food #foodporn #foodblog #anarecovery #dca #tastyfood #foodie


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Non si nota che sono drogata di frozen skyr, no 😂.
Comunque ho portato un pochino fuori il mio cane 🐶, giusto per fare i suoi bisogni, ma mi fa tanta tristezza vederlo zoppicare così tanto 😢, spero che gli antinfiammatori facciano effetto e aspetto con ansia martedì prossimo per fargli la lastra 😥.
Mia madre è al telefono con mio padre a discutere dei consigli del suo psicologo (in pratica mio padre si lamenta e inventa scuse e mia madre lo ascolta), per quanto mi riguarda tra poco vado a letto ma non credo che andrò a camminare neanche domani 😧.
Nightsnack con:

75 g frozen skyr natural.

10 g cioccolato lindt excellance cherry intense.

#anoressia#anoressianervosa#anoressiaitalia#anoressiarecovery#bulimia#bulimianervosa#bulimiaitalia#bulimiarecovery#edfighter#edrecovery#edwarrior#edfamily#healty#healtychoices#healtylife#healtyfood#strongnotskinny


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Evening guys.... I forgot to post dinner and evening snack but I had a tuna,chicken veg salad bowl with another small mango and a handful of cherry’s ...I’m not gonna lie but feel awful and that I’ve binged as I’m so bloated 😞staying at my mums for safety as I’ve been in an out of a&e this past month due to overdoses and low bloods ....nearly flipped cos said I wanted to go home to relax but was thinking of what i fancied binging on, she kept me here and i thanked her in the end,,, nights are always hard for me just gonna turn my music on and go to sleep 😴 #hopefully #edrecovery #anarecovery #foodisfuel #ana #ed #edfamily #anafamily #depression #mentahealth #bulimia #anorexia #staystrong #recovery #recovering #soldier #edwarrior #anawarrior #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #mia #ana


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Night snack tonight was a mug full CEREAL!!! with a mug of semi skimmed milk 🥛. Had to make up calories today so the usual pancakes 🥞 just wouldn’t cut it 🙅🏻‍♀️ -

Literally can’t believe I just ate cereal at this time 🤭 but I eat it every morning so what’s the difference really?! 🤷🏻‍♀️ -

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#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recovery #recoverywin #eatingdisorder #anorexianervosa #anorexianervosarecovery #recoveryisworthit #edrecovery #prorecovery #EDrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #food #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #edfamily #recoverywarrior #nightsnack


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chocolate bomb for dessert 😍 it’s like a chocolate trifle that’s suitable for veggies but don’t ask me where you can get it because I’m afraid I don’t know...but I do know that I’m loving life without anorexia when I can just have whatever for dessert and actually enjoy the taste! 😋 recovery rules 💪🏻 #dessert #recovery #recovering #recoverywin #edrecovery #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recoverywarrior #beatana #fuckana #anawho #anawarrior #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #edfamily #edfam #mentalhealthawareness #orthorexia #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #prorecovery


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Food from today ✈️🍴(Also tried these yummy cookie dough bites for the first time 😋)
Struggled a little today I think because I’ve been quite tired and I’ve just been worrying about food and eating for the week ahead but I’ve managed to move past it and try to relax as much as I can. It’s also been a bit strange leaving home properly for the first time since I was diagnosed with anorexia last December and I think it’s just sinking in at the moment, but I’m so happy to be here with my family! Not got anything planned for during the day tomorrow apart from going to visit my Nanna and then going to a big family bbq in the evening ☀️ Managed to keep on top of eating today and stayed positive so I’m off to a good start 😂🙌🏼 Hope you’ve all had a great day xx #recovery #anorexia #anorexiafighter #eatingdisorder #edfamily #mealplan #wednesday #humpday #travelling #fdoe #glutenfree #vegetarian #medicine #foodisfuel #keepgoing #staystrong #staypositive #strongnotskinny #keepfighting #mentalhealth #mentalhealthwarrior


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For many people fitness is synonymous with thinness or weight loss. This is totally inaccurate and unhelpful. Fit bodies come in all shapes and sizes. Thinness is largely genetically predetermined with 95% of us having genes which will never allow us to healthily achieve the 'thin ideal'. The problem is not our bodies, our health and fitness messaging is wrong.


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#breakfast and #dinner 😜
I literally spent a lot of money on a huge tent (I want to go camping in a forest this summer ) and it’s freaking broken. There’s a huge hole in the fabric, so I have to return it tomorrow ugh.
I seriously just need a drink and clubbing - including stupid choices lol.


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After seven good days, I relapsed. I regret it now, but what's done is done.

A relapse doesn't erase all my progress. I'll get back on track tomorrow.

#recovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #anoressia #ednos #ednosrecovery #minniemaud #bulimia #eatingdisorderrecovery #anoressianervosa #bingeeatingdisorder #anorexiarecovery #edwarriors #edfamily #edfam


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Oggi ho mangiato questo buon gelatino nei pressi della città di @noe.food 😋Siena❤️ C’ero già stata un po’ di anni fa ed è proprio da qui che mi è nata un riflessione a riguardo... la mia mente è come se avesse subito un BLACKOUT, tutti i momenti, le uscite, i viaggi, le relazioni che avevo prima della malattia, si sono come volatilizzati, non ricordo più nulla, come se non avessi mai vissuto quei momenti. Però ricordo con esattezza i miei momenti più brutti, le cose che pensavo, i motivi delle mie crisi, le mie paure, mi sono fermata a pensare e ai miei ricordi arrivano solo piatti, piatti e piatti di quello che mangiai in quei momenti e in quei determinati giorni o periodi, come se li avessi studiati. Scrivendo questo è come se dicessi a me stessa che SI ho buttato all’aria quei momenti e non mi sono GODUTA per niente quei miei anni di vita. Non so se è successo anche a voi... ma vi dirò una cosa... mai e poi mai risuccederà una cosa simile. Quello che voglio ricordarmi di un viaggio sono i posti che sono andata a vedere, gli oggetti che ho comprato e le persone con cui sono andata, non i panini che ho mangiato o i gusti di gelato che ho preso! C’è una VITA oltre a questo! Ragazze come voi che mi scrivono ogni giorno che vogliono uscirne e che non ce la fanno... sapete perché non ce la fate? Perché lo CONTINUATE A DIRE! E più lo dite e più vi CONVINCETE CHE SIA COSÌ! Ma NON è così! Non sapete come fare? BENE allora iniziate col FARE QUALCOSA! Non lo dico per cattiveria... ma un giorno una persona mi disse che se io non reagivo, sarei rimasta per sempre chiusa in me stessa, in quella parte oscura che mi aveva intrappolata, mi disse che se IO e SOLAMENTE IO non avessi fatto qualcosa per uscirne, piano piano sarei scomparsa con lei... Prendete queste mie parole come un punto di inizio per cambiare VOI STESSE e per riacquisire la vostra LIBERTÀ.❤️🍦
#anoressianervosa #anoressiaitalia #eatingdisorter #dca #disturbialimentari #edfamily #notproana #healtyfood #healthylife #foodblog #fooddiary #foodgram #foodie #positivevibes #staypositive #positivity #summer #sun #travel #trip #compassione #accettazione #zen #meditazione #storia #yogaitalia #balance


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Evening everyone 🌃 hope you all have had a good day today! I've managed to fight exercise urges after dinner by bathing Bella boo 🐶 let's just say she was not impressed 😂 but it has made her so fluffy!!!!! 😍 Supper is fibre flakes drowned in milk 🥛 and a cuppa 🍵 time for some evening positivity ✨ perfectionism is something I struggle with and I know a lot of you do to! That no matter what you do it is never good enough! But honestly what is perfection? there is NO SUCH THING!!!! everyone's idea of perfection is different! And our own idea of perfection is always what we don't think we have but IN FACT we do!!!!! We see ourselves as imperfect but if you stop and look at that work it actually says I'M PERFECT! so embrace yourself for all your quirks because there will never be someone else like you! And to me that makes you perfect! ✨ I hope you all have a fab evening and sleep well xxx #goingtoeatwhatiwantto#recoveryispossible#recovery#prorecovery#recoveryistheonlyoption#countblessingsnotcalories#curvesnotcalories#curvesnotbones#healthynothungry#determined#anorexic#eatingdisorderrecovery#edfighter#edsoldier#fighter#nevergiveup#nomoreanorexia#nourishnotpunish#strongnotskinny#charversesana#edcommunity#eatclean#cleaneating#edfamily#realrecovery#f4f#recoverywin#eatittobeatit#fuckana#gainingweightiscool


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#ootd
Hey everyone!
I’m struggling with fear of weight gain still (I don’t weigh myself). I have many positive affirmation I’m able to tell myself, but when it comes down to the nitty gritty I’m still reluctant to move forward. Does anyone have suggestions on how to overcome this? #edfamily #edrecovery #anrexiarecovery #prorecovery #anawho #neda


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Hola cioccolatine🍫pronte per nannare? 😴 Io leggerò un po’ e poi andrò a dormire 🛏️ma adesso mi coccolo con l’amato #nightsnack fragoloso😍 e il ciocco di oggi è ⚠️#degustazionetime ⚠️fondente con taaaanti pezzi di lampone dolce 🍭 che smorza il sapore amorondel cioccolato 🍫. Insieme è una bomba di sapore super! Poi ci sono i pezzetti di mandorle che stanno sempre bene! Poi il cioccolato 🍫 scuro è bellissimo con questi pezzetti di frutta rosa😍 il tutto accompagnato dal sapore fresco delle fragole 🍓 di campagna appena raccolte ed è subito un buongiorno ☀️.... una buonanotte, certo era scontato😂😅❤️ Notte 💤
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N I G H T S N A C K 🍴
21 gr di cioccolato 🍫 fondente con lamponi🍇e granella di mandorle🥜
#ana #anoressianervosa #anoressia #anorexia #anoressiaitalia #anorexianervosa #anoressianervosaitalia #anoressiarecovery #anorexiarecovery #food #foodrecovery #fearfood #foodporn #foodorgasm #dca #disturbialimentari #edwarrior #edfamily #edfighter #recoveryforlife


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Dinner tonight was a huge salad with breaded chicken 🥗


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Don't ever be ashamed of struggling with mental illnesses. We live in a society that's constantly shaming us for having a mental health disorder and we can't keep falling for it.
I've spent years hiding my disorder with an "all is perfect mask" just because I'm embarrassed to struggle with food, it took me years to open up and ask for help because I didn't even believe "I was sick enough", I didn't think I deserved help, I didn't think I needed help.
Today I'm sometimes embarrassed, but most of the time I'm proud of myself for fighting my ed every single day, even when I really want to give up, it really is a badass thing to do fighting your own mind.
I'm proud of you all. Please don't be embarrassed of your struggle, it is part of your story and you are stronger and wiser because of it. You didn't choose this. .
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#unfuckyourself #eatingdisorderrecovery
#eatingdisorder #edrecovery #prorecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #bingeeating #bingeatingrecovery #orthorexia #orthorexiarecovery #healthybodyimage #healthateverysize #edwarrrior #edfighter #edfamily #embraceyoursquish #bodypositivity #edcommunity #recoverywarriors #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #antidiet #recovery #recoveryquotes #beatingeatingdisorders #recoverycommunity #recovered #endthestigma #recovering


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Just had a pint of butternut squash soup and an entire 1.25 pound bag of broiled celery, and honestly the food baby is so real right now. 😂😋😍 I’m so ready for Fall now. 💁🏻‍♀️🍁🍂~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ #dinner #dinnertime #foodpics #foodporn #foodisfuel #foodstagram #instafood #sharefood #instafoodie #balancednotclean #nourishnotpunish #intuitiveeating #anawho #beatana #anorexianervosarecovery #wednesday #healthyfood #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #edfam #edfamily #foodislife #goodnight #eatittobeatit #glutenfree #celiac #yummy #foodblogger #recoveryisworthit #recoverywarrior


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Sleeping and eating. Two very basic human needs that I fail to do well. Even the cavemen knew that these where things we needed to survive yet I feel wracked with guilt when I do them.
I struggle with sleep a lot. It's either really good or just fucking terrible. And then when I do sleep, I find myself feeling guilt over time I wasted ya know, sleeping. Having a nine hour sleep last night left me feeling fucking refreshed and human however I couldn't shake the thoughts of but you wasted so much time. No brain. That was not wasted time.
Because I am fuelling my body with rest and nourishment from food, I was actually able to be way more productive today. Because I gave my body the basic needs to survive, it didn't feel like everything was all a bit too much of an effort. It felt like I could cope. It felt like I could do things. It felt like I wanted to do things. Today was easier because I'd been looking after my body.
The lesson you need to learn here faye? Fucking look after yourself so you don't roll around through life tired and miserable, keep giving yourself the basic human needs. Why? Because you are human and you need them. It's not an optional thing. You can't choose to not eat or not sleep. You're magic but not magic enough to not be human. Even fairy hobbit human lady's need to eat and sleep. #realrecovery #recovery #recovering #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edfam #edcommunity #recoveryisworthit #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #ana #anarecovery #edrecovery #anorexianervosa #positivity #recoveryispossible #talktome #depression #dmmeguys #ukgirl #mentalhealthawareness #fighting #mentalhealth #anawho #ukblogger #anafighter #plymouth #anorexia #anorexiarecovery


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Buonasera tate!❤️
Oggi ho cenato un po’ tardi perché sono tornata dal mare verso le 8:30,e quindi posto solo ora.
Devo ammettere che non avevo tanta fame,infatti ho mangiato solo due fette di melone,non tutte e tre,infatti sono un po’ delusa,però so che non devo mangiare forzatamente,altrimenti i sensi di colpa mi annebbierebbero completamente il cervello,ed è l’ultima cosa che voglio.
Mi rifarò domani!😌
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CENA:
• due fette di melone 🍈 • prosciutto crudo 🥓

#ana #anoressianervosa #anorexia #anorexianervosa #cibo #food #foodporn #fearfood #dca #foodorgasm #disturbialimentari #alimentazione #edfamily #edfighter #fighter #anorexiawarrior #anorexiafighter #anorexiasoldier #anorexiafighting #anorexiawar #ed #edwar #edsoldier #edfighter #edrecovery #selfrecovery #foodblogging


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Old pic but I thought I’d update you guys! I’m currently out of town so posting regularly has been really hard, but I’m going home on Thursday so things should be back to normal soon! I have been doing okay eating wise, but nothing has majorly gotten better 🙃 I’m still trying my best though! Stay strong everyone!! 💪💪😘 #prorecovery #edfam #edfood #edarmy #edrecovery #anawho #anawarrior #anarecovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #recoveryarmy#recoverywarrior #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eattolive #eattogrow #eattogain #edfamily #anafamily #goodbyeed #edcommunity #beated


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I don’t know why this brownie is such a challenge, especially because I literally eat cookies and ice cream daily, but it is. I’ve been eying them for a while at the coffeeshop, and then my therapist suggested it yesterday, so I bought it. I intended to eat it yesterday, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it (irrational, I know). -
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There’s no moment like the present. As the shirts at the ice cream shop I worked at growing up say, “Life is short, eat dessert first.”
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#ed #recovery #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edfam #edfamily #adultswitheds #adultswitheatingdisorders #fearfood #brownie


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#Perfectionism and #Recovery .
My first college paper is due and I had one night to complete it. Sitting in front of the computer invokes a lot of bad memories. Before recovery, writing papers involved taking lots of trips to the fridge and bathroom.
I felt like my illness carried me through all the stress. In reality, the illness dragged it all out. It was just a way to block out the “you’re not smart enough” voice for small amounts of time.

It was a clever avoidance tactic: whats easier....Ruminating over my body or worrying about a grade I couldn’t possibly know the outcome of?
The fact that I couldn’t GUARANTEE an A made me want to go back and reread, rewrite or re-study. And on and on the cycle went of binging and purging to get through school work.

It’s a very vicious cycle for anyone who can relate. And as difficult as this seems, the fear of falling back should not stop you from moving forward with the things you want in life. Keep pushing.

Last night, I couldn’t wait to finish my paper. Three hours later, I did. Instead of being happy, I worried that I didn’t do enough and constantly urged myself to go back to add more.
I forced myself not to engage because I knew I did my best and anything from here on out is my perfectionism trying to demean my hard work. I decided that it was more important to learn how to “let go” rather than attempt to lock in the perfect grade. So I watched a movie, drank some wine and today I’ll hand in my first college paper that was written entirely without my Eating disorder📃

#eatingdisorder #edrecovery #edfighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #bulimia #anarecovery #bingeeatingdisorder #ednos #selfcare #prorecovery #edfamily #nedawareness #anxiety #mentalhealth #inspire #empower


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Sushi di mia madre, so che vi piace 🐠🐟. Buon appetito


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Throwback 👈🏻 to last week when I felt better about myself 🙃🙃 woke up early today to smash out a workout 💪🏽 definitely workout better in the early mornings... afternoon workouts have not been good lately! Energy levels are low by that point of the day and I’d much prefer to already have it out of the way! ⭐️⭐️ hope today is a good one for everyone #fitnessinstagram #edrecovery #edfamily #ed #edfighter #eattolive #eathealthy #eatforhealth #eatforfreedom #eatforhappiness #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #gymselfie #fooddiary #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #fdoe #workout #workoutfuel #recoverywin #recoveryfood #recovering #eatingdisorderawareness


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I took my #WorkBreak outside today to get some fresh air and I thought I should feature my #GNOMES, since I talk to them everyday. 😆🍄🍀 Whenever I walk in the front door, I always say “hey Gnomes, thanks guys!” because when I was little my mom told me that they protect all the beautiful flowers. 🌷I’ll really crap my pants when they answer me. 😬



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Speaking of #POOP, this DARK CHOCOLATE w/HONEY CARAMEL & SEA SALT was so delicious and beautiful until it melted in the sun and then it just looked like POOP 💩 (swipe, or don’t 😜). Still tasted good. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Chocolate and sunshine are definitely two of my most favorite things.👌
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Do you have a wreath or decorations outside your front door or is simple the way to go?
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omg i fcking hate myself for eating and being fat. tomorrow i will fast for 2-3days. thats all i say.
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#magersucht
#magersüchtig #ana #mia #anorexia #anorexic #anorexianervosa #ed #edfamily #schizophrenia #schizophrenie #schizophrenic #schizophrenie #depression #depressed #heartbreak #heartbroken #suicide


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Ich habe mir vorhin meine Fotos angeschaut, und habe dann plötzlich total Bock auf Milchreis bekommen deswegen habe ich ihn gleich zu meinem #nightsnack dazugepackt. Ich hatte sowieso schon vor diesen Froop Joghurt zu essen da er weg muss und ich die Sorte unbedingt probieren wollte. Außerdem gibt es noch ein Wassermeloneneis für mich. Das erinnert mich so an meinen Urlaub auf Mallorca da ich es dort das erste mal gegessen habe 😁. Ich freue mich so es sind nur noch 8 Tage bis ich wieder auf Mallorca bin!!😌❤️-
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #recoverywin #fuckana #staypositive #strong #recovery #recovering #recoveryanorexia #anorexiafighter #anawho #anorexia #struggelingbutfighting #struggeling #staystrong #strong #edfree2018 #edfamily #foodporn #fearfood #fullfat #milchreis #pirulo #froop #loveyourself #loveislove ☝🏼#werbungwegenmarkennennung ☝🏼


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I just want someone to love, someone to love me, and someone to be my forever.❤️ UPDATE: Kinda depressed. But anyway. Idk if I am getting a pass tonight, my nurse literally isn’t giving me a yes or no response so. Idk. Hospital air all night for me tonight possibly👌🏻 I’m feeling really lonely. Even though I have people around me, I am so, so, lonely...


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We live in a society that has an eating disorder. We are constantly given the message that we need to restrict or control our food in some way. And the "best" way changes all the time. To top it off, many dieticians/nutritionists have not been trained in eating disorders. If you're on the road to recovery and need some nutritional support, look for a reputable dietician who has training in eating disorders and has been trained in the Health at Every Size approach. [Image description: a quotation that reads "diet culture normalizes disordered eating" on a faded background of a picture of cherries, a croissant and pink flowers]#Repost @chr1styharrison @kristamurias ・・・
I never believed that the way I ate, with rigid rules and restrictions, was disordered, because many of the people I knew were doing the same thing. I believed I was just doing what someone does when they care about their health (and weight). But that’s the insidious nature of diet culture - it’s everywhere, it’s always in our face, so we believe it. It wasn’t until I deliberately walked away from diet culture that I looked back on those behaviors and saw how destructive they were.
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From Christy Harrison: “We have a real problem right now in our society with the normalization of disordered eating behaviors. Not only does diet culture push us to try to shrink our bodies in order to meet the beauty ideal and prove our moral worthiness, but it also demonizes certain foods and ways of eating while elevating others, causing mass confusion about nutrition.
“Ignoring, suppressing, or trying to outsmart your hunger cues is not a nourishing practice. Cutting out food groups because some self-styled guru told you that they cause inflammation or intolerance is not a nourishing practice. Counting, weighing, measuring, and anything to do with numbers or “points” are not nourishing practices.”
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The alternative? LISTENING to your body instead of depriving it, and not buying in to the message that you’re only worthy or healthy in a smaller body. Dieting is disordered. Period.


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So today browsing my Facebook feed I came across this shared by one of my friends... not many of these forms of imagery strike a chord with me but this one definitely did and it reminded me of the early stages of developing my eating disorder when I was only 13-14.... I was always larger than my piers both in height and weight in school but truthfully I didn’t think anything of it no one called me fat or commented on what I ate so it was never and issue until I began secondary school... here I was faced with a woman who was meant to be there to ‘teach’ but she and her voice alone is one that’s scarred my skin and self worth to the point I will never forget and yes she quite bluntly ruined my life!... she made me aware of my weight and size to the point during our class (PE) she would call me FAT!... come Olivia try harder! You’d be able to run if you lost some weight! Your just lazy and it was always said with that horrid smirk across her face...in front of the whole class!!!.... when I say I was larger than my piers I’m talking a uk size 12 on the body of a girl who was already 5ft7 😳😳😳 so technically I wasn’t ‘overweight’ I was right for my height and body shape but just clearly not for her. I felt ridicules, ugly, worthless and outrightly embarrassed to be me. The other children soon caught on and before you knew it I was being bullied by the full school year... that flicked the switch in my head what turned on my anorexia and sped it into full steam. I stopped eating, exercised to the point I wanted to pass out and the weight literally fell off. I became sporty and faster and guess who left me alone? Yes the stupid PE teacher in fact what I received off her was encouragement to up my fitness and become better! Little did she know she’s created a monster in my head this nearly killed me 3 times. By year 10 my anorexia was clear for all to see 5st 5 and dying with the frame of a small child I had to leave school and be placed in a medical hospital as my organs were shutting down.. during therapy it all came out about the teacher to the shock of the school and she was told to take an early retirement (yes she was OLD!!) it wasn’t just me she’d effected as...


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