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“I’m afraid I can’t put it more clearly. For I can’t understand it myself to begin with. And being so many different sizes in a day is confusing” if others struggle with distorted views and thoughts of their body, sometimes it can help to just recognize that sometimes your body image is worse one minute than it was the last. This doesn’t make it easier to cope with, but you can try to tell the logical part of your brain that your body did not physically change in that short period of time. There may have been an emotional trigger, a meal, or any number of things to cause the distortion but just remember that voice and those eyes you see through in that moment are based in eating disorder lies and emotions and not reality. #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealthawareness #edwarrior #edrecovery #bodyimage #bodydysmorphia #recovery


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Recently my body image has been sh*t. Not sure why, just been having a hard time looking in the mirror and accepting the fact that this body is mine. The weight gain feels obvious and noticeable. I feel not fit...and just overall blah.
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I am working so incredibly hard to accept this stubborn body AS MINE. every curve, every blemish, every roll. I'm trying to understand that I am my worst critic.
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Anyways, today I had a huge success! I went out to dinner and I was present the whole time, ate my meal, ordered what I wanted. Feeling full and stressed but happy! Doing the best I can with what I have. .
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#edrecovery #recovery #bodypositive #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #edwarrior


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Back to the grind 🙄🙄🤓🤓 I love my degree but dear lord the workload is enormous 📚📚 Send caffeine please 😂 #unilyf #nursingschool #killme #studying #edrecovery #edwarrior #recoveringaussies


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If I could yodel this, I would


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Researchers find no link between whole eggs, dairy fat, and health (as measured by mortality).
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Yet the latest federal Dietary Guidelines for Americans, which guide school lunches and healthcare recommendations, still recommend “fat-free or low-fat dairy."
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Guidelines like these encourage parents to develop food rules and to build the perception that some foods are "good" while others are "bad." This is where policy impacts us on the family level and leads to home-based restriction that is unnecessary and even harmful to raising truly healthy eaters.
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If your kids enjoy and can tolerate dairy products, offer them butter, cream, and whole milk. There is absolutely no reason to limit them (or yourself!) to low-fat options. Enjoy food 💕


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okay so i know this is my second post today, but i had to post this because this was a major #fearfood!!! today’s night snack was cereal 🥣 (special k red berries 🍓) i used to love this cereal pre ed but i stopped it 🛑 but my aunt had it and i realized i really wanted it and so i decided to listen to my heart and not ana, and so i ate it, the whole bowl!!!! xx 😊 zeal
#edfighter #nightsnack #anorexia #anawho #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #anorexiafighter #anorexia #fearfoodchallenge #edwin #ed #edwarrior #ednos #edrecovery #anarecovery #ana #prorecovery #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderecovery #eatingdisorder #cerealandmilk #specialk #norestrictions #nourishtoflourish #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel #weightgain #weightrestoration


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Lunch // a poke bowl with rice 🍚, tofu, edamame, 🥒, but not the ginger I asked for😒🤦🏻‍♀️
My best friends know that I will literally devour an entire plate of pickled ginger — seriously, I LOVE the taste😋 When I ordered it today, I was so excited but then hey forgot to add the ginger... it was still good though! I actually needed to get more food because I ate most of my lunch at snack (after my appointment). The appointment was good! I’m so not ready to move across the country and need to find a new psychologist. Even when we do really tough stuff, I trust her and I just don’t want to meet someone new and have to learn to trust them😔
Anyway, enough of my complaining! I am packed for my trip to Michigan and I only need to make it through one more day of work — which is actually my last day!!!🙌🏻


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.... And 30 mins later her muscles were shaking and she laid on the floor for 15 mins.


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Dinner: Hamburger Helper with peas and hot sauce (a childhood favorite!) #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #balancednotclean #strongnotskinny #edwarrior


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For decades I made up reasons why I couldn’t go to the lake or get in the pool with everyone else. I sat on the sidelines and HATED myself. Why? Because I was “too big”. And then when I wasn’t too big anymore it was because all of the weight I lost left me with loose skin. Cry me a river, people! I’m so over letting such trivial and meaningless “problems” dictate my life. Beauty radiates from confidence and love. It’s taken me many years ... but I’m radiating these days. I hope you are, too. ❤️


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I cooked marinated baked fish and coriander, turmeric, cumin spiced veges with cous cous for dinner last night!!
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Anorexia is being rather nasty at the moment and it’s getting tough. But I’m fighting back with all my strength. It’s tiring but I refuse to give up because relaxation and self care is an important part of living. Life is about balance. And anorexia is not on either side of the balance. ——————————
I spoke to a lady who has had an eating disorder for 34 years. And that made me realise I need to recover. Not only for myself but for my future family and when my parents are old and need help. I need to do it because I don’t want to spend the next 34 years living with a demon inside my head. Even if it’s not visible it’s there. And it’s there every day.
#mevsanorexia #jjvsanorexia


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Guess I’m not lifting tonight, string of bad luck lately is killing me. 😣🙄


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Cena: milanesa de carne al horno con queso, zanahoria y puré de papa.

Postre: empanadas de membrillo que hizo mi abuelo 💓👴🏻


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Today's eats. One thing I'm really embracing with my new change to intuitive eating is how I get to go out to eat with friends and be social, stress free. Today I tried a new restaurant for lunch with coworkers. I ordered a chicken panini with Bbq chips.
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I also ate an apple today....first one in a long long time. I forgot how delicious they are. I had an apple with peanut butter and lily's chocolate chips for breakfast.
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Finally for dinner I made up a plate of all sorts of stuff. I'm trying to listen to my body and lately my body has been craving vegetables. I was actually super excited to eat my cucumber with ranch 😜. I had carrots, cucumbers, cantaloupe, canned chicken with ranch, and some wheat thins /pita chips.
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I'm practicing not eating everything on my plate. I purposefully left bites of the food to train myself to know it's okay to not finish everything. Today I was actually successful in doing that...normally I tell myself that I will leave some bites before eating and then ignore it once I'm almost done eating. Lol. Practice is working though!
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#intuitiveeating #mindfuleating #mindfulliving #mindfullness #intuitiveliving #fattofit #antidiet #bodyacceptance #bodypositivity #foodpeace #peacewithfood #edwarrior #bodypositive #foodfreedom #foodfuel #fuelyourbody #nondiet #carbs #fats #protein #healthateverysize #healthjourney #journeytohealth #workinprogress #workingonmyself #healthgoal
#findingbalance #foodbalance #peacewithin #nonscalevictory


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malaysia has increeeedible desserts 😍


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Here’s to all my babes who need this little reminder today. If you’re struggling with behaviors, feelings, sobriety. That’s okay. It’s okay to feel the feels!! But remember that you are WORTH IT!!! You are stronger than you know!! #addict #recovery #prorecovery #aa #edrecovery #alcoholicsanonymous #itworksifyouworkit #eatingdisorderrecovery #selfharm #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #bed #orthorexia #ednos #exerciseaddict #HAES #mentalhealth #endthestigma #depression #anxiety #ptsd #bpd #bdd #worthy #worthit #strong #beautiful #2fab4ana #edwarrior #strength


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hubby's snack creation by me.

3/4 cup plain Greek yogurt
1 cup frozen berries
1 tablespoon cocoa powder
stevia or honey

mix in #ninjablender

meal plan approved and @michael.sundling approved. #liift4 win


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It’s important to keep smiling even if you feel like dying. An honest update:
Things are really hard, recovery is really hard. Not impossibly so, but it’s exhausting. Being in the house is a massive trigger for me to binge. I’m combating this by working a lot, and studying, but if I’m downstairs I find myself in the kitchen just in autopilot; eating. Partly it’s habitual, partly my body is desperate trying to nourish itself, partly it’s the only way to numb myself from all the emotional pain and trauma. In the past during the early days of recovery, I’ve just listened to my starving body, binged and gained a lot of weight very rapidly, which always ends badly. So this time around I’m trying desperately to slow the process so that I feel more in control. But I WANT to gain weight, so I’m letting myself eat all the foods that my ED had left only for b/p. That’s kind of liberating. I’m doing core strengthening exercises to reduce the guilt. No cardio bc I want to gain, but it keeps me feeling like I’m somewhat in control. I’m working and studying to distract, I’m writing out my “food and feelings” when my ED makes me feel guilty. I’m making slow, rocky progress. I feel very guilty, panicked and out of control most of the time at the moment, but I’m trying really hard and will continue to. If recovery was easy, we would all be better by now. So I’m just gonna keep on keeping on for now. And I hope everyone else is doing the same. And I’ll keep smiling, because smiling makes me feel better.


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Don't feel like you owe your loved ones anything for the time they have spent helping you through your struggles, because all they really want is to see you healthy and happy again. Yes they may have worried, cried and made sacrifices while you were sick, but the only way to 'repay' them that will truly mean something is to recover. People who love you will support you through the tough times, just like you would support them through theirs. It is not selfish to lean on them for support if it helps you to get better, because in the end you'll both benefit as recovery is truly a gift to all involved! ~~
Stay strong everyone 💕💕
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#anorexiawarrior #selflove #anorexiafighter #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealth #mentalhealthquotes #inspoquote #recoveryquotes #anorexianervosarecovery #edwarrior #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderwarrior #recoveryisworthit #strongnotskinny #anxietyrecovery #recovery #mentalhealthrecovery #learningtolovemyself #anorexiarecovery #recoveryispossible #mentalhealthawareness #selfhappiness


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Morning lovelies ☀️ I Survived breakfast and it was fecking delicious. An amazing chia açai bowl with banana 🍌 strawberry 🍓 blueberries and coconut 🥥 Not gonna lie, didn’t finish it and I was also super grateful to be sitting right at the end of a huge table so I felt very out of the way while eating it. Gotta do what ya gotta do I guess 🤷‍♀️ and now to mentally prepare for my psych appointment 😕
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#edrecovery #edaustralia #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #eattolive #eattorecover #nourish #recovery #heal #edwarrior #edfighter #prorecovery #strongnotskinny #fighter #proedrecovery #recoveryispossible #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #anxiety #edwarrior #balanceiskey #balance #recoveryisworthit #not1in5


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Thanks @lexiemanion for speaking out against @netflix and their new series “Insatiable.”
As someone who has struggled (and continues to struggle, although now in recovery) with the whole spectrum of #eatingdisorders, I can also personally attest that being thinner, prettier, more athletic, or any other external change that can be made does not equal happiness. I was just as miserable, hopeless, and disconnected at my smallest as I was at my heaviest. Eating disorders are a living Hell and an incredibly serious and deadly mental health disorder. Let’s start teaching each other that we are worthy, loved, and enough regardless of our physical appearance. Be kind to others, have empathy, and stop judging and comparing yourself and others. Netflix, I hope you really think about the messages you’re wanting to send out and reconsider airing this series.
If you are struggling, there is help. @neda has resources available!

#eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisordersarehell #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #eatingdisordersarenotglamorous #eatingdisordersaredeadly #edwarrior #edrecovery #neda


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One of the best parts of my job is getting to learn new things every day. Enjoyed a full day of education with @eatingrecovery alongside new and old friends at Learning from the Leaders! #edrecovery #edwarrior #awareness #knowledgeispower #fortworthnutrition #fortworthdietitian


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#dinner today was moms cooked #rice with #vegetables and #tuna in #tomatosauce 🐟🍅 sorry for not writing that much but I really feel sad.. sad and worthless.. my mom and me had a fight today and I’m so sorry for disappointing her everyday a bit more with beeing that ill.. 💔

I‘m tryin to sleep now hoping that weekend won’t be that disgusting.. #goodnight 🌙

#recover #recovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiawarrior #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecovery #edwarrior #edrecovery #edfam #recoveryisworthit #recoverforfreedom #strongnotskinny #betterlife #eatittobeatit #fearfood #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #selflove


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This is my last week on Prozac. I have weaned myself off of 40mg a day. I don't feel like it was working for me, so I'm going a different route. I ordered CBD oil from Mowellens, because I have heard great things about the benefits of it. Today is my first day taking it, so wish me luck. I'm hoping that it will ease my anxiety, and help with my depression (all I wanna do is sleep). I still have symptoms (like major fog brain) & it freaking sucks.
#recovery #edfam #prorecovery #noscale #recoveryisworthit #neda #edrecovery #edwarrior #recoverywarrior #myrecoverybody #therapy #haes #healthateverysize #bopo #intuitiveeating #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealth #mentalhealthwarrior #selflove #bodyimage #healthateverysize  #effyourbeautystandards #allbodiesaregoodbodies #selfworth #bodyacceptance #nobodyshame #embracethesquish #iamenough


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Mentally neutralizing food so there are no ‘good’ or ‘bad’ foods sounds like make-believe in the beginning stages of intuitive eating. Many people will say macros helped them overcome this mentality but they still might have trouble overcoming the food they developed macro hacks for, eating meals without protein, or not using the food scale anymore. We become so used to adding volume that using whole eggs, bakery bread, or pasta develops into food anxiety to eat now.
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I know how hard it is when points and macros are so fresh in your head you don’t even need to look at labels or your app anymore. Becoming aware of our frequent and automatic judgements is challenging. I often hear, “No wonder why I’ve felt so crappy! I’m constantly judging everything I do, say, eat, think, as well as everyone else.” Becoming mindful of our thoughts and feelings allows us to gain insight into our personal experience.
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🎛️Check in, ask yourself: what do you notice?
🎛️When you look at this plate of French toast and berries, what thoughts come up?
🎛️What food rules are you still hanging onto?
🎛️Where did you learn these?
🎛️Are they actually, scientifically true?
🎛️What else might be true?
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I now see this plate as beautiful, satisfying, a mix of carbs, protein, and fat, and most importantly the memory of the last meal adventure with one of my favorite friends before we moved.
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Over time, meals will begin to mean so much more than points, calories, and macros. You will care more about the experience, the satisfaction of the food, the laughter, connection, culture, and comfort. And remember how long you’ve been in the diet mentality, it’s going to take some time to undo!


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Breakfast from a few days ago.

Hey guys. I've had a rough couple of days. I brought up my worry about the rapidity of my weight gain up to my dietician. It had been weighing on my mind for a while and I finally brought it up. She pretty much confirmed my fears, saying that the team was a bit concerned with my weight trend and expressed that it was likely due to water retention. Then I got labs done and went to the doctor to make sure I wasn't experiencing referring syndrome and to check my heart; it seems I'm perfectly healthy. I've just been so frustrated with myself and how fast I've gained weight when there's no real explanation as to why. I don't understand how I can be eating the exact same or even less than other people who are struggling with gaining weight and here I am, weight restored or just about weight restored in a little less than two months. It makes me feel like there's something wrong with me and that I'll never be able to eat a normal amount of food and not gain. I'm terrified that I'll keep gaining. I know that it's likely just water weight and that it will eventually go away but it's difficult to believe that when no one around me is experiencing what I am. They changed my meal plan so I'm not eating as many starches so hopefully that will help stabilize my weight and stop the water retention. Thankfully my mind is in a better place now but for a moment there I really thought I would relapse. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? I'm really hoping there is someone else out there who has because I feel incredibly abnormal and ashamed of my situation.

#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ed #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #prorecovery #realrecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish


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🖤 Latest Creation 🖤
First time EVER attempting something like this.
#yarnart #wallhanging #homemadedecor


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{Today's #avocado 🥑 & #kiwi & #papaya #salad} ☀️ Hier, je me suis mise à regarder de vieilles photos de moi prises pendant les pires périodes de mon #anorexie. Crevée mais mince. Affamée et épuisée mais ayant le corps que tout ce qui m'entourait me poussait à avoir. Je n'aurais pas du les regarder... je croyais être plus solide... grosse crise d'angoisse aujourd'hui.
Mais on ne lâche rien. On continue. Car ma vie "mince" n'était pas une vie. J'ai commencé à vivre le jour où j'ai décidé de #guérir... 🖤 #fuckana #anafighter #beatana #edfam #anafamily #anawho #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #youareworthit #keepfighting #bodypositive #bopo #bopowarrior #regime #regimeuse #nourishnotpunish #amourpropre #estimedesoi #developpementpersonnel #guerir #selfcare #healingprocess #amourdesoi #developpementpersonnel #mentalhealthmatters


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“The closer you come to knowing that you alone create the world of your experience, the more vital it becomes for you to discover just who is doing the creating.”
Eric Micha'el Leventhal
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See you tomorrow at 12pm @flexyogawooster ~ 45 minutes of HPVF (hot power vinyasa flow). #seeyouonthemat


#spiritualawakening #awakening #youarethecreator #createthelifeyouwant #createexplore #yoga #yogi #yogamom #yogamama #yogiheart #yogaeverydamnday #yogainspiration #lululemon #inhaleexhale #shapeshifter #shapeshifting #edwarrior #pinchamayurasana #pincha #movement #meditation #space #findthebeauty #love #joy #om #namaste


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Dinner!! And going to try my luck with a scratch ticket tonight haha😂

Facial today was wonderful! Group was helpful. Met with my director today, to discuss a project I’m working on. It’s so weird coming back to work, being with a very senior person and having a discussion about my work, getting feedback etc.
It’s so disturbing to me how deep my core beliefs run. He was telling me I did great work, off to a great start, asking me questions, challenging assumptions and informed me I’ll be at the huge senior meeting when all of this this comes to life, like what!!!!!
All great things! Challenging and asking questions breeds discussion and growth and improvements. Instead, I immediately internalized it, took it as my work isn’t good enough (like duh April, 2 heads are better than 1, get over yourself), that I’m being patronized and pitied, that I’m working on this project so I can fail and be fired. All ridiculous.
#eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #edfamily #adultswitheds #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ana #selflove #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #fearfood #prorecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #recoveryisworthit #edwarrior #edfighter #selfharm #depression #anxiety #selfcare #bodypositivity #recoverywarriors #recoverywarrior #antidiet #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #garlic


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Breakfast: /
Lunch: tomato sauce with falafel
Dinner: half a hamburger(!!) with a few fries
Snack: rice pudding & 2 marshmallows
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Today was the first day in long I had a snack again. I just craved rice pudding so bad so I got some sugar free and it was yummy! I also went to a little festival today/night and I challenged myself with a hamburger but I shared it with my friend. I ate a few of her fries too so I'm a lil bit proud I guess.
#recoverywin 💪💕
Xoxo

#anorexia #anorexianervosa #ed #edfighter #edsucks #edrecovery #recovery #recoveryishard #anaisabitch #goawayana #eatingdisordersucks #anorexiarecovery #beatana #edfight #anawho #fuckyouana #recoveryfamily #prorecovery #lifeaftered #recovertolive #recoverywin #backtonormallife #beatingana #beatinged #edwarrior #fightana #fightanorexia #anorexiafighter #eatingdisorderfight #strongnotskinny
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Total: 583 kcal


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Brekkie this morning was chocolate protein oatmeal with peanut butter and banana, plus a soy latte
Chocolate protein oatmeal recipe:
-1/2 cup oats
-1 tsp -1tbsp chia seeds
-1 tbsp cocoa powder -1 egg white -1 cup liquid of choice -1/2 scoop protein powder
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1. Combine everything except egg white and protein powder in pan, heat and simmer until almost cooked.

2. Add in egg white and mix to combine, cook for 1-2 more minutes to cook egg white.

3. Remove from pan, allow to cool for one minute and stir through protein powder, top as you desire 💖



#AN #recovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #strong #strongnotskinny #edawareness #prorecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #fooddiary #foodismedicine #foodisfuel #fckana #fightingana #beatana #balance #findingbalance #girlgains #anorexia #healthyeating #recoveryisworthit #peanutbutter #banana #chocolate #protein #oatmeal


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Today’s afternoon snack was a nocilla McFlurry 😳
At first I was going to take a lower calorie snack because of ana’s voices but I decided to shut her up and take what I really wanted 🤤💪
Tomorrow I have an appointment and I’m really nervous 😬


#anorexiarecovery #anorexia #edrecovery #snack #beatinganorexia #beatingana #recoverywin #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #ed #edwin #edfam #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #fuckana #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #lunch #dinner #nightsnack #morningsnack #afternoonsnack #snack #breakfast #vegetarian


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Bedtime snacks were lush and necessary because even after my dinner, I was still in a pretty bit calorie deficit for the day.

So... a strawberry Skyr yogurt with a banana, grapes, raspberries and seeds. A cheese string, a satsuma and a portion of fruit and nut mix.

Always move forward; because you can.

#recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoverywarrior #recoveryispossible #recovering #recover #edwarrior #anarecovery #bullimia #bullimiarecovery #prorecovery #bullimic #bullimicanorexia #bullimicana #bullimicanorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderhelp #proudofmyself #realcovery #ednos #edrecovery #ednosrecovery #anorexiarecovery


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Sorry for the lack of posts today... it's not really been a good day. I spent most of the morning and part of this afternoon bingeing and purging. A huge culmination of a week's worth of triggers that caused it.

I am a knob. Let's move onwards and upwards.

Dinner tonight was a beef steak burger ina seeded bun with blue cheese and spinach. I chucked some balsamic glaze in the burger too but it just wasn't cutting it as a sauce so I ended up adding ketchup and mayo haha.

I covered the chips in ketchup and mayo and as you can see from the picture I had cauliflower and peas on the side too.

Always move forward; because you can.

#recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoverywarrior #recoveryispossible #recovering #recover #edwarrior #anarecovery #bullimia #bullimiarecovery #prorecovery #bullimic #bullimicanorexia #bullimicana #bullimicanorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderhelp #proudofmyself #realcovery #ednos #edrecovery #ednosrecovery #anorexiarecovery


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I’m finally at a place where I genuinely do not want to know what I weigh.

That’s right. Someone in the fitness industry who LITERALLY can’t even give you a 10 pound guesstimate of where I’m at!💥mindblown💥

But this did not come overnight, and did not come without hard. ass. work.💯

When I was struggling with bulimia, I bought the BOUJIEST of scales that would address me by name and shit only because I NEEDED to know EXACTLY what I weighed at all costs (no, I will not tell you what kind of scale that was)

But then I realized that the happiness and validation I was looking for wasn’t going to come from any more pounds lost. The scale would never decide that I deserved to be happy, even 10 lbs under my goal weight.💡

🔑Your mindset around nutrition, fitness, and your body are the cornerstones to your happiness and validation. The work starts inside, and the outside will regulate accordingly.🔑


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logging off for the night 🌃
being alone with my helper the whole day wasn’t entirely a bad thing, in fact talking to her felt much more comforting and we even went out to the mall together for a walk ☺️ surprisingly today was a good day :-)


🌺afternoon snack: slice of coffee cake, 白糖糕 (some kueh thing), and a cuppa soymilk
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🌸dinner: brown rice with pork and potatoes, long beans, wintermelon soup with carrots and chicken, a juice box and a kiwi

🌼supper: a sweet potato, an apple and a cuppa soymilk
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COMPLIMENTS. They go a long way. Think about the last time a stranger gave you a complement, how did it make you feel? Probably real gooood. I think we forget how much a simple complement can make someone’s day. I feel like we need to give each other compliments more often. As humans it’s so easy for us to get stuck on the negative things we don’t like about ourselves. I do it, you do it, we all do it. But when a stranger complements us it means more to us than us complimenting ourselves. When is the last time you look in the mirror and said, “Damn I look good” Or handled a situation and said “wow I am proud of myself, my work, the person who I have become” We rarely do, if ever. So, I am taking a stance to compliment others and myself more often!



Today, no matter what time zone you are in compliment at least 2 people! And 1 of them MUST be a stranger! Today, let’s make people go to bed with a smile on their face!☺️ #Thursday #FDOE #throwbackthursday #flexibledieting #iifym #gymshark #gymsharkwomen #fitness #girlswholift #girlswithmuscle #strongnotskinny #youvsyou #healthyliving #wellness #bodybuilding #loveyourself #macros #cleaneating #bulkingseason #gaintrain #healthfirst #mentalhealthadvocate #bostonmodel #npcbikini #onlinepersonaltrainer #instadaily #fitnessmotivation #edwarrior #recoverED


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I had the pleasure to share this recipe on my daily #facebook live cooking show and let me tell you that pictures alone don’t make justice at all!!! My new vegan kiwi bread turned out so good that is just hard to stop eating on the first slice 😋 happy to say that I saved enough #macros for the day to eat at least 2 slices for my pre-workout meal!!! Delicious! #recipes #macrofriendly #veganrecipes #glutenfree #dairyfree


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Breakfast from today💖 I had a small breakfast increase, added a glass of orange juice💫🙃 This was super hard to do but really challenges my rigidity and I'm thankful for this challenge. I had a chicken wrap AGAIN today for lunch! I want to say I'm proud of myself but I'm feeling pretty guilty still:/ #anorexiasurvivor #edsurvivor #anorexianervosasurvivor #anorexiawarrior #edwarrior #anorexianervosawarrior #anorexiafighter #edfighter #anorexianervosafighter #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anafighter #anawarrior #anasurvivor #anasoldier #eatittobeatit #nou #strongnotskinny #not1in5 #foodismedicine


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Does this picture make me look important? 😂💁🏼‍♀️ But seriously, so excited to be sharing my recovery story on @pbs with my fave therapist and friend @jennifer_rollin 🙌🏼 She’s doing some incredible things in the eating disorder world and I’m so proud to be a part of it all. I don’t talk about my anorexia much anymore but days like today really remind me of how far I’ve come and how much the world needs a reminder that worth is so much more than weight. 🙋🏼‍♀️ Here’s to all the incredible people like Jennifer who work so hard to make that happen 💗


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My last serving of Zucchini Noodles and Turkey Meatballs was just as wonderful as all the other ones 😋 Of course I added some cheese and a piece of butter toast! Tonight I plan on relaxing with a drink and some Netflix 😌 Keep ya posted 😉 #ed #edrecovery #edwarrior #ednos #ednosrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #dinner #homemade


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Today I decided to enjoy my afternoon snack outside by the pool 😎! I’m not really a big swimmer, but it was beautiful outside nonetheless so I had to take advantage of it. I brought my book outside 📖 as well as a bag of @highlandfarmfoods sweet chili quinoa pops 🌶️ (the bag was full when I started eating, I got halfway through before I took the picture 😂). I’m off to my support group tonight and I have A LOT to talk about 😬! Not as much about recovery, but more family stuff that’s been bothering me. I love going to the support group and I love being able to see my therapists and dietician, it makes me soooooooo flipping happy to see them ☺️!!! Anyway, have a great rest of your night everyone and it’s almost the weekend, whoop whoop 🙌!


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Evening snack was three weetabix @weetabixofficial, 300ml oat milk🥛 @oatly and some raspberries and blueberries💙
There’s a bit of negativity ahead, so feel free to skip it🙂I’ve been watching project runway👠 but I’m really struggling at the moment. I just don’t want to eat. Weight gain is so much harder than I thought it would be and my ED is so loud right now😣
I hope you get a good nights sleep and wake up feeling refreshed and ready for Friday💗

#recovery#recoveryisworthit#recoveryispossible#eatittobeatit#edrecovery#nourishnotpunish#healthynothungry#edcommunity#recovery#edwontwin#eatingdisorder#edwarrior#foodisfuel#eatingdisorderrecovery


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Recovery is trying new things and being okay liking them and not liking them and understanding that you are not tied to any particular food. I’m eating tomato soup with my grilled cheese for the third time in my life tonight and I’m liking it. 👌🏾


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It’s been a Mexican food kind of week.. and needed some honestly awesome food, so Moe’s on a Thursday night to push me through to the end of the week 🌶️

Moe’s salad bowl filled with steak, black beans, grilled veggies and onions, pico de gallo, and romaine lettuce. Put more simply, a bowl of deliciousness 😋

#welcometomoes #moesouthwestgirl #honestlyawesomefood #mexicanfood #saladbowl #bowlz #foodie #foodphotography #foodporn #edwarrior #edrecovery #blogger #bloggerlife #savingshell


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Como prometido, vou compartilhar com vocês 7 dicas que me ajudaram MUITO no processo de transição pro vegetarianismo. Espero que gostem! 💗Vamos lá:
1️⃣ Tenha uma causa - é importante deixar bem claro pra você e para as pessoas ao seu redor o motivo pelo qual você se tornou vegetariana. Foi pelos animais? Pela sua saúde? Pq não gosta de carne? Seja qual for o seu motivo, tenha ele claro.
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2️⃣ Comece com o que você tem - é muito mais fácil começar de forma gradual do que virar vegana do dia pra noite. Comece virando ovolacto, depois vegetariana estrita, depois vegana, e assim vai. Dessa forma as chances de RECAÍDAS diminuem bastante. E também não precisa comprar só produtos veganos caríssimos. Vira e mexe eu posto pratos veganos e acessíveis aqui no meu instagram.
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3️⃣ Nada de substituir carne por QUEIJO - quando eu parei de comer carnes em geral, eu passei a substituir absolutamente tudo por queijo. Todas as minhas refeições tinham queijo. Além de ter gordura pra caramba, ele diminui a absorção de ferro, então, na dúvida, opte por outras fontes de proteína (grão de bico, feijão, lentilha, espinafre, couve, etc).
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4️⃣ Não precisa evitar restaurantes - não é só porque você virou vegetariana que vai parar de ir à restaurantes. Prefira self services que sempre tem mais opções.
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5️⃣ Busque apoio e informação - ter o apoio de familiares e amigos é muito importante. Peça ajuda, se informe sobre o assunto e diga pra eles que você não come mais animais.
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6️⃣ Procure assistir a documentários - quando eu decidi parar de comer animais, eu comecei a ver vários documentários sobre o assunto. Isso só me deu mais vontade de seguir no processo. Os três que mais indico são: #Terráqueos (bem forte), #WhatTheHealth e #Cowspiracy Sério, assistam! Foram grandes divisores de água.
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7️⃣ Consulte um especialista - um médico e um nutricionista vão poder te orientar muito melhor do que eu, então, não deixe de procurar ajuda profissional pra suprir suas necessidades individuais.


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More bubbly water please! 💦Are you sipping on the trend?
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When I feel dehydrated but don’t want to gulp down standard filtered water, I reach for one of these!
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I typically grab @spindriftfresh, @aldiusa vive, or @lacroixwater!
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What bubbly water is your fav? Team @Lacroixwater or team @spindriftfresh? 💧


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This photo is from last year when the weather wasn’t 118 degrees outside 😅 I love hiking and think it’s a great way to spend time outdoors 🌵
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Where is your favorite place to get a little fresh air?!


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Icecream for #afternoonsnack 😍😍😍
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Ich liebe Eis momentan so sehr! Ich könnte mich den ganzen Tag nur von Eis ernähren 🙈 Das waren eine Kugel Butterkeks und eine Kugel Ziegenkäse mit Kürbiskernöl 😋
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Ich hatte heute einen echt tollen Tag heute :)
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Habt eine gute Restwoche und einen schönen Start ins Wochenende ihr Lieben!
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#outpatient #schönklinik #ana#anawho#anasoldier#anawarrior#anarecovery#anorexia#anorexianervosa#anafighter#anorexiarecovery#ed#edsoldier#edwarrior#edrecovery#edfighter#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery #food#fooddiary#recovery#essstörung#healthy#healthyfood#balanceisthekey


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I forgot to take a picture of my snack and really sad about that because it was awesome! Today my kiddo and I went out for ice cream and I got a medium Birthday Cake Ice Cream with Rainbow Sprinkles 🌈 I had an awesome day with him walking around the city, playing ping pong, and going to the park ☺️ Here’s a cheeky selfie of me while watching him blow bubbles 🙈 #ed #edrecovery #edwarrior #ednos #ednosrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #selfie #nanny #nanniesofinstagram


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okay so. as you probably know I’ve recently started school again after having months off die to being in hospital then my school had winded holidays. my team thought that after the holidays would be a good time to start back at the same time as everyone else. I always complain about school but I really did miss it and I enjoy seeing my friends, teachers etc. BUT ❤️❤️ - when I’m at school I have to wake up really early and feel sick, so I never feel like breakfast and then on top of that I have ana telling me I don’t need breakfast. So it is often ending up with no breakfast on school days. Then comes lunch at school. I cannot do it! I hate eating with my friends for many reasons so I just don’t. And there goes breakfast and lunch, I haven’t eaten for about 24hours until afternoon snack or dinner. And I cannot make up TW 2000cal end TW in 1 meal and one snack. And I don’t know what to do about it. I’ve told my doctor and therapist a while ago. they just said I need to push past it and eat at school and before school. But I can’t. And I can’t stop going to school again. I need to go to school, I’m in year 10/11 and it’s important for when I graduate that I do well the next few years. Does anyone have an tips to help with this :(
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiafighter #edwarrior #fuckana #bulimia #mentalhealth #mealplan


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Food from Whole Foods when I went with my friends!! This was all gross except for the vegan Mac n cheese (made with yeast I think). Today has been a lazy day but I’m about to do some cooking with my mom. Tbh I can’t get over how much things have gotten better for me at the moment. I am very content and in a happy place, and I’m really hoping it stays this way.


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You tell her! Say it NOW. And every day. YOU are ENOUGH as YOU ARE NOW. 💚💚


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You’ve probably seen loads of these floating around Insta, yet they seem to only impact on us for a few seconds. Then before we know it we’re back swimming in that guilt again. Well SCREW THAT.
I hate the phrases ‘beach body’ or ’summer ready’ or ‘bikini bod’. What the hell do they even mean? Who decided what the perfect body is?
We can re-write that nonsense. Enough with this delusion that you need to look a certain way in order to feel good. What we see online, in magazines etc. is all filtered. We’re being shown what the author wants us to see and only ever get a snapshot of their life, yet we think that glimpse is enough to justify comparing our whole selves to that tiny segment of so called ‘reality’?
These photos were taken 10 seconds apart. Both are Instagram worthy. Both are bloody-beach-body worthy. Both are REAL. We all have ‘wobbly bits’ (yes even those Victoria’s Secret models) It’s taken me some time to accept, but you know what? I LOVE THEM. We have bodies, not skeletons, and no two are the same. One size does NOT fit all and we certainly aren’t comparable with one another.
What defines if we are ‘ready’ or not is whether we have the ability and the courage to look at ourselves in that mirror, and see past those ‘flaws’. There will be people out there who would kill for those flaws of yours. And if you haven’t already, one day you’ll find someone who loves everything you dislike about yourself. It’s okay not to feel okay. It’s normal to want to hide away on those crappy days. But don’t let that turn into a regular thing, because you are depriving the world of your amazingness, and only you can contribute that. You have something special that nobody else in this mad world has, and you are fricking beautiful just the way you are.
So this summer, next summer, the summer in 50 years time, I don’t care when we’re talking, I want you to hold on to this message. Even though your body may not stay consistent each year, one thing will; the knowledge that you will give that beach whatever gorgeous bod you’ve got and demonstrate that you have been part of a changing society, one that is learning to body LOVE and do away with body shame.
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