One of my mentors is always asking me to know ‘the why.’ Why am I teaching or doing a pose, why saying a certain cue, why teaching a meditation. The truth is, I practice handstands because they're really hard. They take strength, balance, mind, body, breath, proprioception, alignment and even yoga philosophy to pull off; and your upside down. Ive struggled a lot with depression, anxiety, negative thought cycles and addiction, and after I relapsed just over 2 years ago, I went on a journey to find practices that would help me calm my mind, break thought patterns and bring focus. Its okay to feel down, but as an addict and someones who’s lows get physically dangerous, I can’t afford to stay down. I started with meditation, then found Asana, I already had drumming, but then started trying handstands. The complexity of the pose takes so much effort, that I can’t think about anything else or I fall. Like meditation and recovery, daily practice is how you progress and you gotta show up, no matter your emotional state. It's one of those poses you have to commit to, once your up, you need full attention. Root to rise (thanks @yoginicky ), push up, externally rotate shoulders, breathe, finger tips working, ribs in, core active, breathe, hips over shoulders, don't lose the back, reach the feet to the divine (Thanks again @yoginicky ), breathe, pike the hips, oppose the leg lever, no sound on touching down, give thanks. Its funny cause how the pose goes and looks doesn’t really matter, like most yoga, the pose is a tool to work with the mind. The pose is a prayer of surrender.
Happiness is a daily reprieve, one day at a time, its available to us, but sometimes it takes some effort. Find your practice, find your peace, swaha it all and enjoy this breath ❤️
Wall art by the wonderful @pradagallery
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