Yesterday I woke up tired and stuff after a long drive to Cornwall, a late night and lots of early morning feeds.
Knowing that what would really sort me out was a good yoga session, I found a local class and 15 minutes later was dressed and ready to go, still knackered. Wishing I’d had more than 2 sips of coffee.
Then there I am in this big room. Lying on my back breathing smoothly, steadily. Tuning in. Thinking ‘I’m so so glad I’m HERE.’ Smiling inside. Grateful.
As I walk away back down the road, I literally have a spring in my step. I feel good. :
I think people imagine that because I am a yoga teacher, I’m always up for doing yoga. Nope. There are times when I don’t feel like it. There are times when I feel weary and tired or just busy, and yoga is not, in that moment, the thing I feel like doing. Even though it may be the thing I need.
There is effort involved.
Discipline. Will. :
This is the same for self care. :
Although self care sounds lavender-and-rose-petal-baths-lovely, it is hard. We don’t always feel like doing the thing that we need to do in order to take care of ourselves. How easy it would be if only we did! Wouldn’t that solve a lot of problems?! Yet naturally, we do not gravitate towards balance; it is something we need to create. To work at.
It takes repeated effort. And remembrance of the long-term. :
How many times have you not felt like going to yoga or the gym even though you know how good you always feel afterwards? Let’s face it, we can be incredibly shortsighted. (And lazy). But how many times have you still sent your lovely ass to the gym/meditation/yoga, and left Feeling SO much better than when you went in?
In those moments, something else takes over. Let’s call it wisdom and will combined. Or your inner mother, mothering herself. Or your Big Self. :
Self care is something we have to learn. And so much of it is about going through the motions. Just doing that thing we know is good for us. A non-negotiable act of self respect. A healthy kind of autopilot to deepen those self-care grooves in the brain. The building of a habit. And knowing, even if we can’t feel it right now, that’s it’s so unbelievably worth it.