I am a jealous person
I am envious
There is a difference between the two, although they are used synonymously. When I am envious, I covet what others have
Sometimes it motivates me
Brings a spark, a desire, to pursue
Other times I get lost
Why can’t I have that?
It isn’t for me.
They have those things because they are
Sometimes I get lost and I let myself be lost
When I am jealous, I am a black hole
Eternally fearful of having things taken from me
My sense of self
But the more I struggle to hold on, the more I lose myself
Acknowledge it and move on
I am not an envious person, I experience envy
I am not a jealous person, I experience jealousy
It’s time to acknowledge it and let it go.
I’m still working on it