Great post from @halfthestory
I woke up this morning and scrolled through my Instagram feed while still laying in bed. Perhaps because I wasn't fully awake and grounded yet, some old mental chatter came in - a comparison narrative.
Oh, this person spent their weekend at a professional conference. Why don't you go to something like that, Sara? This person wrote a book. You should really write one too. This person is "getting out there" and doing XYZ, why aren't you doing that?
This mental story says everyone else is doing the "right" or "better" things than I am and that they're "getting ahead." It leaves me feeling anxious and ashamed.
But, what’s true?
As has been said many times, others are sharing their highlight reel. I not seeing the whole picture of someone else's life. They have ups and downs just like me.
My brain also always downplays my own "highlights" - part of that other mental programming of "not good enough" many (maybe all?) of us have
And the highlight reel is often fake. I know because I've done it - shared something that looks good on the outside, while my actual lived experience of it felt terrible.
And this leads me to my main point. The thing is that I know I am smart and driven and can, of course, get myself to do all the things in others highlight reels my mind is telling me I "should" do. I can go ahead and force myself to do these things, telling myself I need to do them. But then where will I be?
It won't be real. I will have gone out and created something based on my mind telling me I should do it. It won't be from a genuine desire. And I've been there way too many times in my past to do this again. This leads to having your life look buttoned-up on the outside and a sense of security that you're doing the "right" things, but at the end of the day, I'll be miserable.
And there's only so long someone can stay in a miserable place. So to go down this road is building a house of cards.
Right now I have the opportunity to take the genuine path. To listen to no one but myself. To honor whatever genuine desires to do or not do something are arising.
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