The next 20 days feel like some of our biggest days, and my heart and mind came over a little overwhelmed earlier on. My sweet girl will spend 4 days away from me from Friday - double the amount of time we have ever been apart. To most, almost all, a little break from their child would be exciting; freeing even, a chance to do whatever they wanted, but to me, it is nothing but an ache, a horrible feeling of emptiness and a desperation for the hours to melt away. She’ll have the best time, precious time with her Daddy - the man she loves with every ounce of her being, and her brand new baby brother too. 4 whole days of not only being ‘Daddy’s girl,’ but being a big sister too. Their first holiday as a family, infact, their first holiday. Giving them that time together is truly the most important gift I could give, and I’m so happy that they’ll get to make the most precious memories together.
5 days from now she’ll audition for The Voice Kids. She’ll have to be so brave, and summon up the courage to sing in front of people. I pray she’ll find her confidence. I pray they see in her the soul that I see.
6 days from now we’ll be on a plane, about to embark on the biggest adventure of our lives - America. Little us, in big America. Those are words I never ever thought I would say. I have to be brave, and trust in myself to deliver us across the world. I’ve never had to rely on myself in such a big way, and I’m terrified of failing us, but I’m going to put my big girl pants on - for both of us.
Less than a week after we return home, Grace starts middle school. She’ll need to draw on her bravery again, find her confidence, and begin the next stage of her little life. So far she has shown no fear, had no wobbles and taken all these things in her stride. I wish I could say the same for me!
Praying for bravery and courage tonight.