#feelinglikeaburden

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For thoes of you that are just here for the cute stuff and my cleavage you can stop reading now and just enjoy the picture above.....
#cleavagefordays #curlsonpoint #piercedgirls ...I feel like shit.....like a burden....like you dont actually care but instead are just afraid of what I might do if you tell me the truth and tell me you've been faking it this whole time. For a while there I was useful, I was needed, but you've moved on and grown up and don't need me anymore....vague I know....not like "you" actually read these or pay attention or give a shit...but I guess on the strange chance "you" do care and do read this I'll keep you nameless. Seems like all my friends are feeling just as fucked as I am....I've read at least 4 posts long as this one with how crappy they feel, usually I feel like I can make it better....give a giggle....spread my bubbly and pick up their spirits....but seems like I'm failing them....I don't know what to say to make it better....I guess this is why I fail at friends....I get to the point where I feel like they don't need or want me anymore so I slowly disappear....see if they fight to keep me....but usually they dont....not sure if they even notice I leave....if they do they dont say anything or seem to care. Ugh I just don't want to feel like a burden anymore.....I wanna feel like you fucking care and aren't just hanging around for the perks....is that so much to ask for.....okay I'll stop ranting now so that the few of you that are still reading can go back to your regularly scheduled lives! #feelinglikeaburden #sorryfortherant #congratsifyoukeptreading
P.s. Babe, no this isn't about you, I love you!


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Being overwhelmed is something I'm used to, but lately it's wearing me down too much, and I feel like I'm breaking. At one point in my life, I was able to handle whatever life threw at me; however, it's becoming more and more apparent that I need a minimum of four clones of myself just be able to give 100% to everything. One clone to be a good daughter and help my folks with everything around the house - cutting wood, cleaning the garage, cleaning out our storage room, etc. One clone to be a good employee - to handle all the hats I wear at work and focus solely on work instead of fretting about stuff at home. One clone to be a good mother - to give my daughter the attention she deserves, to play with her, take her on adventures, and give her some "Mommy and Me" memories. One clone to be a good fiancé - to spend time with the man I'm marrying without feeling exhausted, to be able to do something other than watch tv at night, to make some more memories with him. But it seems like it's getting harder and harder to be perfect for everyone in my life and maintain a calm personality. I just want to feel rested and not be stressed for once. #overwhelmed #icantdoitall #failure #notperfect #feelingbroken #losingcontrol #exhausted #feelinglow #feelinglikeaburden #inconvenience #struggling #sorryforthedepressingpost


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Turns out you're not that way with everyone....its just me.....
#feelinglikeaburden #igetthehint


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I want to know that you think about me when I'm not around, I want to know that you care about me as much as I care about you, I want to know that I'm important to you. But you can't just say it, I want to see it. #feelingneedy #bigboobedgirls #cleavagefordays #bigboobsdontcare #curlsonpoint #curlyhairedladies #browneyedgirl #piercedgirls #feelinglikeaburden #naughtynaughty #needlovin #needingcuddles


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Chris making sure to smother me in love every hour or else I’ll come up with scheme number 1,980,765,573, as to why I feel he’s going to leave me b/c I’m constantly feeling worthless b/c society made me that way 🤗 *jazz hands* #interraciallove #interracialcouple #interracialrelationships #mentalhealth #feelsville #feelinglikeaburden


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Maybe, just maybe, I'm worth the headache and trouble!? #feelinglikeaburden #needlovin #inamood #stuckinafunk #curlslookgoodtho


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Completely related to this raw and honest post by @natashalipman. Think everyone touched by #chronicillness and/or #chronicpain has felt like a burden to others - for suddenly being unable to do so many things for ourselves, not being able to work, or for needing to cancel a lot of the time because of the effects of constant and debilitating #symptoms. #ChronicIllness erodes our #selfworth, confidence and our identity. But we shouldn’t for despite our limitations that these burdens we shoulder, we still have so much to offer and there are still so much that we can do. Often it’s finding the little ways to become more independent and less of a burden on those we love. It sometimes means thinking outside the box but it can be done! #spoonie #spoonieproblems #chroniclife #neurologicaldisorder #functionalneurologicaldisorder #feelinglikeaburden #weareenough


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Off we go! I'm sorry- this caption will be long....
I know I post a lot of pics about anxiety/depression and it's not just to do it, I truly have depression and anxiety in "real life" and I don't want anyone to see my pics that I use and think I see mental illness as a joke. I know the struggle of staying in bed for days, how it's so hard to motivate myself just to take a shower , a racing mind, going out in groups or going places where big crowds are and feeling just sick, losing friends etc. I post things because it makes me feel less alone. Im on an anti depressant and two anti anxiety meds. Sometimes a pic just makes me laugh but I never try to downplay how hard it is. I developed a bad drug problem in my early 20s ( zero excuse or justification for doing drugs). I felt a euphoria I'd never had ( it was like happiness x 1000 which was so wonderful because I'd always felt numb). Pain pills led to harder things ( Heroin). I finally got clean for 10 years but when my dad died when I was 33 I started back w drugs because I had no clue on how to deal with all the feelings. I'm now 2 yrs clean- minus the anxiety meds that never gave me a high anyway, but please know I may post joke pics but NEVER consider mental health as a joke.
#depressionquotes #socialanxiety #anxiety #therapy #greatsupport #mymomisamazing #feelinglikeaburden #dontbeashamedtoaskforhelp


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Guess I’ve gone off the deep end... ✌🏻this is the reason I don’t talk about how I really feel, why I don’t talk about what’s going on in my head and I keep it all in until I feel like I’m going to explode... because I get shit on by most people around me & then I feel like I’m the crazy one & that I never should have said anything to begin with (the few that actually accept me, don’t judge me & help me, thank you 🖤 you know who you all are) so excuse me, but I’m just going to go crawl back into my hole now 🤗👋🏼 #NobodyReallyGivesAFuck #Life #Depression #Anxiety #FeelingLikeABurden #HardToFightThis #HateThisFeeling #WhyAmILikeThis #WhyDoPeopleSuck #Trying #AKF #MentalHealthAwareness


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I think this is a pretty accurate representation of how I've been feeling lately, and why you haven't heard much from me. Been dealing with some self image and self worth issues, especially surrounding my gain of 30lbs since the end of last June. Sorry I haven't been around much. I promise I'll be back soon. .
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#depression #depressionsucks #feelingdown #vsg #vsginstacrew #vsgsurgery #vsgjourney #vsginstafam #wls #wlscommunity #wlsjourney #wlssupport #iwontgiveup #iwontgivein #iwillkeeptrying #iwillkeepgoing #lowselfesteem #lowselfworth #feellikeafailure #feelinglikeaburden. #idontwanttobealmost400lbsagain #help #supportneeed


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" I feel unveiled and more work than you had bargained for." From Heart Berries by Therese Marie Mailhot

This line really struck me to my core. This is often how I feel when I'm having an anxiety attack or a depressive episode.

#heartberries #oursharedshelf #depression #anxiety #feelinglikeaburden


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#Wishing in one hand but #Accepting in the other... (*please read-this isn’t a post about legs*)
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I know it may sound crazy to some but Disney World is sooooo my happy place.... Disney World, a happy place for an adult? Yeah I know what you’re thinking. If you’ve never been then you wouldn’t understand. A little over a year ago I was sitting poolside at Caribbean Beach with a drink in hand soaking up the sun with no worries, no stress, no anxiety and #NOSICKNESS. The picture on the right is now my reality. I didn’t leave the bed at all on Monday and haven’t hardly moved at all this week. I vomited most of the night, Sunday into Monday and even last night, I couldn’t keep my dinner down. I know it may seem as if I’ve given up but trust me when I say that I have not. Living day in and day out with vomiting, nausea, pain and fatigue can take a toll on a body. I haven’t given up by no means, I’ve just accepted what is for now. We have a family vaca planned in September for a week long Disney World stay. I know I may not be able to do the things I’ve done before. However, even being an adult, Disney makes this girl so so happy and if all I can do is sit poolside (without a drink in hand..lol) then at least I’ll be with my family, stress free, anxiety free, worry free and happy for that week. A week where my family won’t have to worry about the burden of taking care of me AND that’s really all I want for them. I want my family to have a break.... a break from the hand we’ve been dealt. But I wonder if wanting this trip so bad, with all we have on our plate, makes me selfish?? XOXO 💋
#disneyworldismyhappyplace #livingaweekwithoutstress #happyplace #zeroanxiety #feelinglikeaburden #vacaneededasap #waltdisneyworld #wishing #acceptance #itiswhatitis #weneedrest #nojudgment #walkingmytruepath #iwantthissobad #familycomesfirst❤️ #cancerfighter🎀 #gastroparesiswarrior💚 #justtryingtobringawarness #weneedacure


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It’s only been 10 weeks since my surgery and I say “only” as some days it can feel like longer and I have to remind myself that I’m where I should be and all good things come to those who wait...and also the surgery was big as my consultant reminds me - he’s a lil lushie 😂. It still don’t stop me having days where I feel like I’m never going to get back to the level of fitness that I was 😣. Rome wasn’t built in a day as they say and this is going to be a long journey...looking forward to January where my physio (think is as excited as me) to really push on with my recovery and get me in that hydro pool and all the rest of it. Sorry for the ramble but it helps to get things out and if it can help someone who’s going through the same or similar then great...there’s always someone worse off but at the end of the day this is my journey and some days it’s tougher than others ☺️. I’m not used to being this static 😂. Although I did four miles on the spin bike this morning (feels really good to have a good sweat) and some Pilates. Anyway have a good Sunday peeps and remember it doesn’t matter how long it takes as long as you never give up 😘 #truestory #myrecoveryjourney #postspinalsurgery #missingmyruns #feelinglikeaburden #nevergiveup #itsoktohaveabadday #runner


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Some Dystonia symptoms that you might not be aware of ...
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#disorder #dystonia #dystonialife #dystoniasymptoms #dystoniaawareness #feelingalone #loneliness #lonely #feelinglikeaburden #notsurewhy #itjusthappens being #byyourself is sometimes what you need #sickofthepain it's never-ending ... to be continued


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Shared this a while ago but, it's just as relevant now. It's great when your head convinces you you're incapable of being liked. #mentalillness #feelinglikeaburden #depression #bleak #melancholic #clearview #anxiety #lowselfesteem #feelingannoying


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Things I am good at • Over eating/binge eating
• Crying
• Feeling like a failure/dissapointment
• Apologizing constantly for anything and everything I do
• to many other things to list
#plussize #sad #anxiety #depression #loser #tired #idk #purplehair #bralette #glasses #feelinglikeaburden #justignoreme #venting


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Well today was full of eye opening information. I am feeling defeated and empowered at the same time. #chronicillness #chronicmigraines #feelinglikeaburden #tryingtoseethepositives #iamimportant #takingcareofme


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I haven't left this god forsaken house since the first week of January, with the exception of a few doctor appointments to set my frequent dislocations (clavicles, ribs, and to correct my tilted pelvis , ankles) also flu season can be really difficult and isolating for those who are chronically ill and have compromised immune system's such as myself. Sick friends and family mean no visitors. Needless to say I have not visited with anyone either to break up the monotony... both of my diseases, endometriosis and Ehlers Danlos syndrome along with their villainess comorbid partners in crime (secondary illnesses) have decided to ramp it up full force keeping me bedbound far too much lately. Receiving this purse in the mail was just the push that I needed to get out and go see a movie with the help of my husband and my two younger kids. I am super excited! Today is not one of the worst days and I'm going to try really hard to make this happen. #feelinglikeaburden #chronicillness #endometriosis #spoonielife #spooniefamily #eds #potssyndrome #gastroparesis #adenomyosis #ovariantumor #ptsd #posttraumaticstressdisorder #chronicpain #tachicardia #highbloodpressureproblems #beautyandthebeast #mrspotspurse #mrspots #disneyworld #disneyfan #disneymerch #disney


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Feeling like I don't have much substance today. Like if the wind blew too hard, it would rip me to shreds. Thankful for the calm, encouraging, and supportive suggestions that came from @bubblyjess and @mybeardisyoursaddle today. I have begun looking at any sort of housing just so I can move my family out of here. I also need to work. These are all things that are sudden changes, and those kinds of changes overwhelm me and trigger my PTSD and therefore my anxiety. I don't want to work yet. The plan was to wait until DJ was 1. The job I had lined up is taking FAR longer than I can wait, and I don't have many hireable skills (except retail and customer service experience). #beencryingallday #feelinglikeaburden #tired #sad #sorryforthefeels


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So got my workout complete after a long day at work and hating myself for all the calories I ate today.
Also, update. I went to the doctor and am on zoloft for my depression. Doc wants me to see a nutrionist and social worker for my anorexia. She told me that if I don't and if I don't get better she will hospitalize me. I... hate my life.
#fitness #cardioworkout #anorexic #bodydysmorphia #selfhatred #anorexia #depression #clinicaldepression #happypills #antidepressants #zoloft #hateeating #feelinglikeaburden #feelinghopeless #eatingdisorder


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Depression is so hard to deal with. Crying for no reason, feeling like giving up, and being tired of living the way you are gets tough. I really wish I had someone...anyone who could understand what I'm going through. I need a support system and yet I feel alone and like a burden to my family and friends. Anorexia and depression makes life hard to cope with and I often wonder if ending it all would just be easier. I'm tired.. tired of feeling so helpless, so lost, and so alone that I don't feel like I want to fight it anymore. Like I should give up and let my suffering end with death.
#depression #eatingdisorder #anorexia #anorexic #crying #helpless #lonely #alone #feelinglikeaburden #wanttoenditall #miserable #clinicaldepression #giveup #donewithlife


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