Felt someone needed this . #Repost @twinflame_lovers ・・・
But it was written. It was written in my reading that he would one day betray me, that I would be targeting it right but he would undermine my intuition. How often do we females see something so clearly right before our eyes, but are blinded by the sincere manner in which a man you love dearly delivers his lies to you? I don’t think the masculine out there truly understand the full psychological implications it has on a woman. A total mind and heart fuck that only tears and time will heal. But then again, men who do this aren’t really the type to contemplate such things.
But it was written. How else were we to untangle ourselves from each other? We tried soooooooo many times. We sucked at breaking up even though we kept getting massive signs we needed to. So it literally took another woman and 3 eclipses to alleviate us. My problem was I could never tell him no. Even at the cost of myself, who I was and what I wanted, I could never refuse him, not for long anyway. Wishing I hadn’t been so kind and available all the time at the cost of me. Seeing now how he only wants things that challenge him. But I always felt him too deeply in my heart, sometimes his very thoughts. It was literally a fatal attraction.
I swing from gloominess to gratefulness. One moment up, the next down. Wanting to delete this page several times, as well as all social media so I don’t have to stumble on all his indirect messages to her. That stings like a bitch. But eventually the trigger button will go numb and I won’t feel anything anymore. I’ll be fully cleared. So I’ve decided to keep this page and to share parts of my journey as I feel guided and inspired, hoping that it can help others make better sense of their own journey from the very hard lessons I learned.