I want to start with,, I’m sorry. I’m a bitch. I don’t mean to be, but I am. I hurt people and I don’t mean to. I say things that I regret so much. I hang out with the wrong people and I talk to much. I get it, if you guys don’t want to be my friend anymore. I’m problematic, I’m figuring myself out which is hurting people, I’m mentally draining to be around and talk to. I’m a toxic person and I don’t try to be. If you want me cut out of your life just say so, I won’t bother you anymore.
Maybe I’m just saying this because I’m stressed and hurt and I don’t know what to do, I can’t separate what’s right from wrong anymore, I’ve gotten back in bad habits that I worked so hard to get out of. I have no motivation or sparkle anymore. I’m sorry that when you met me I was so happy and positive and lovely to be around,, and now Ive turned into this.
I’m trying so hard to dig myself out of this hole, I really am. But I don’t want to drag anyone down into while I’m climbing out.
I feel so bad and I don’t know what to do. I might talk to my mom about it sooner or later, but my parents really aren’t very reliable.
So yeah, I’m so so sorry if I’ve been a bitch to you. I’ll leave you guys alone now.