I spent a lot of my time as a teenager feeling pretty alone. It made me angry quite often because I always felt misunderstood. I went to a private school for the first half of my high school years that was heavily geared towards pursuing athletics. It was ironic that I even attended because, if you know me, you'd know that competitive sports and bravado are two aspects of society that will always remain completely foreign to me. I was a quiet kid that just wanted to play in a band or write some random poetry. I was pretty melodramatic about it, and honestly most of it was my fault. Not having any friends was a two way street. I used to blame others for it but now I understand that I also didn't put forth enough effort to show others that, even though I was different, I could still get along with anyone.
Oh well. Let bygones be bygones I guess. What can you do? I'm grateful that I'm not shy anymore. It's such a crippling way to live.