(Repost with removal of self harm photos)
I require more excuses to get through life.
Too many times have thing changed and I can't keep up with it.
I want to look at you and give you that genuine smile I lost all those all those years ago.
But I can't.. I'm just speechless from all your bullshit.
I really want to begin to understand you but I don't think you understand yourself.
You say one thing but mean another.
Always discreetly hiding the truth behind more lies.
When did it go so wrong?
Maybe it was never right from the start but now it's just became a giant shit show.
This is the closing act...
I'm not going to take it anymore.
Seriously it needs to happen. I don’t care if it’s the face, throat, or vagina cause I don’t need feelings. I don’t want feelings. Truth is I can’t take the rejection. Just the thought has me in tears. #goawayfeelings#fuckfeelings