You’re living your best life... is what I’ve been told most here on IG. But I have come to a place where I’ve hit a wall, and am feeling responsible to shed some light on who I really am, not what you see here on Instagram. So let me introduce myself, all bullshit aside.
I’m Becca Luna, a small-town girl from California. I grew up with a lot of love and comfort, yet pain and loss. I was an only child until age 13, where my little brother Gavin was born into this world with a rare life-threatening disease. I had experienced pain before, but never that equated to the feelings and change that conspired inside of me. I hated the feelings of unknown, the fear and everything in between. I began to abuse drugs and alcohol in ways that have put my life at risk. Still to this day, it’s where my mind resorts to first when I feel fear. By the age of 16, I had been failing school, drinking enough alcohol to send me to the hospital, and feeling as lost as ever. It was two years ago, I lost three people very close to my friends and family, and heart; a heart attack and two suicides. It’s the real life shit that I never imagined happening. I felt anger and fear but mostly sadness. It was then, when I came to a realization of how short life truly is. It was then, that I woke up and realized I need to create my own happiness. I had to take control. Within months, I quit my job that was killing my true identity and not serving my creative ways. I busted my ass and taught myself how to make a living remotely, so I could feel the freedom that I always desired and didn’t quite believe, and yes this is a transformation that I’m so proud of. May I remind you, I’m on a journey of self-love and acceptance, yet I still have days where I feel lost and confused. With living in this digital media era, Instagram “influencers” present their best selves, it is so important to remember there’s a person behind the perfect pictures. There’s imperfection and pain. Life is not easy, but it’s important to remember we all have a choice. A choice to leave the self-destructive patterns behind, to find self-love and recognize that we’re all worthy of genuine, pure happiness. Xoxo BL ❤️