Since before I can remember, I have struggled with my weight. Continual Prednisone use for almost 2 decades had quite the effect on my body, so much so that any attempt to lose any weight I gained would fail. I would get stronger yes, but not see the physical effects working I was hoping for. Understandably, this had a pretty negative impact on my self-esteem and my trust in the process of working out because once I got back on the horse, and didn't see results within a few months, I would inevitably quit and fall back into the ever familiar rut of self-loathing and frustration.
I have also had to contend with various injuries that leave me in a precarious state of not being able to do everything (boot camps, TRX classes, etc. that don't leave much room for alternatives) which hasn't helped. This summer though, I made a promise to myself; that I would find something that worked, not only to finally start seeing the results I've been desperate for, but also kept me engaged enough that I wouldn't quit, and also, and most importantly, to give myself the grace to stay in it longer and to trust the process. This focus has finally paid off because I truly believe I finally found that very thing!
For the past 3 months, I've been working out at Orangetheory in Bridgwater and I have been loving it! I've been keeping a weight and measurements journal and I'm FINALLY starting to see results!! I've lost 3 inches on my tummy (which a good friend dubbed "the marriage pouch" which is seriously so accurate ) AND I'm getting stronger! I'm now able to run/jog most of my time on the treadmill and let me tell ya, my cardio hasn't been this good since I was in my early 20's! Most of all, I'm engaged and LOVE my workouts, which is honestly half the battle for me. If I'm looking at the clock and wondering the whole time when the torture will stop, I'm probably not going to go and just let my membership keep charging me every month because "I might go back."
So right now I'm focusing on my health, trying to relax and enjoy the small measures of success, like deadlifting 60lbs yesterday. And I'm finally really excited to see where this will lead :)