She is Cinderella's blue fire daydream ~ #iahsay
I like to focus on the progress I have made, no matter my age nor the ups and downs of breathing on this planet. When I am reminded of my previous incarnations through reminiscing with old friends or stumbling onto a captured memory from a life I once lived, I often see someone that I now grieve for. Not in a way that I think I died, but maybe a part of me has past so that an essential piece of myself may grow.
I do miss this extravagant, lustful, powerful woman who was driven from anger, competition, and vanity. Whereas now, I don’t hold space for those type of limiting vibrations anymore.
I wonder if when a caterpillar is in transformation, is there a feeling of grief?
Does it feel any form of loss for who it used to be?
I saw so many butterfly’s in Costa Rica and I'll tell ya, not all would be considered beautiful to some people. To me, every single one told an incredible and fascinating story and in that, I found immense beauty.
Sometimes, some of us do need a sort of humbling to shed the self no longer working towards our own evolution. Even if that means laying to rest a part of ourselves that we cling onto primarily to avoid the pain of transformation.
This truth that I speak comes from my many shedding experiences. I have been various kinds of water: shallow, chaotic, still, and deep. I have also found myself often becoming a turning stone in the river; guiding, nurturing, and unmovable.
I do remember the life I thought I wanted, the lifestyle I lead, the person that helped shaped who I am today, and who I have now laid to rest. She crosses my mind on occasion. It hits me, I feel it deeply, and then I move forward once more. This thing we're calling 'Borderline' has opened me to understanding my many "past selves" and "past lives", as I describe it.
I have and will continue to have much more compassion towards who I have been, my essence currently, and the beings I will continue to evolve into.
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