This is going to be a long one. Buckle up. If you go to my page you’ll notice that all of my photos are gone. This will be the “first one” on my page. Last night I went through 1300+ photos and almost went through a grieving process. #comparison Man, it’s killer. They say you should only compare yourself to yourself, but I don’t believe you should even be doing that. You are where you are for a reason. You were where you were for a reason. Want to be somewhere else? Go there. But don’t compare yourself to your past, because that’s what I’ve been doing and my head is in a super dark place because of it. It sounds ridiculous but as I had to look at every photo I’ve ever ever posted last night I had to relive toxic friendships, relationships I screwed up, times I was so much closer to God than I currently am, moments I wish I could relive over & over, when I was in better shape, when I was more committed to my health..... it was brutal. It hurt. But hitting delete on every single one of those photos was so therapeutic. I can’t go back and compare myself to that girl anymore.... because she isn’t me. I’ve lived more life. I’m wiser. I’m stronger. My heart is bigger. I’ve had this song on repeat lately that one of my favorite bands came out with recently and there is a line it in that says “A million fresh starts, what I needed was closure” and it’s been stuck in my head all week. #Closure. Yup. Comparison is a nasty game & it stops here. This has been my IG to dedicate to my health & fitness journey for 6 months or so and it will continue to be, but mental health is apart of that. I’ve got so much more to share, secrets to bare, stories to tell... but we’ll save those for another day. For now, we’re just starting anew. And it’s refreshing. Also, go read Philippians 1:6. I’ve read it a million times throughout my life and it wasn’t until I read it on @msrachelhollis hotel mirror the other day that my mind processed it in a whole different way. He began the work...... He’ll complete it. ❤️ Love you IG fam.