If you're not following @thetrapwitch, you should be. Every day she writes something that touches me so deep in my soul that I stop breathing for a second. I've been following people on social media since 1999, yes, that long ago--way before social media was even a thing because nerds like me were already doing it, believe that. Anyway, I've been doing this "thing" that long and never have I found an influencer that speaks to my soul the way that she does. What she writes touches me so hard that I want to just keep reading and watching everything that she says and does. It's to the point where it's almost hard for me to believe that she continually produces the content that she does. It's actually miraculous.
This morning she made a post and in it she said, "To be honest with you, even when you come to practices like ... (insert your personal practice here, mine is yoga) ... there will be days when you sit on the mat and cry until you realize the prayers are your changed actions." Yesterday was one of those days for me. See, in the last three months I've come so far. I've made progress in ways that I didn't even think were possible. I finally acknowledged my purpose, took a huge leap, and trusted God to catch me. And since I took that jump, it's been pure magic. Day after day, new blessings unfold for me. I have never felt happier in my entire life than I have in these last three months. And yet, yesterday, I took such a hard blow that it knocked the wind out of me. Fact is, I've been going through the divorce from hell for three years+ now. And each time that I start to think that this fucking nightmare is close to being over, I get the carpet pulled out from under me yet again and learn that I have to continue suffering through this. .
I would love to believe that I've come to the point of peace that cannot be disturbed by outside circumstances, truly, I thought I was close to that place. Then yesterday hit, and I walked out of a meeting that took me right backward to the hell on earth that I thought I had escaped three years ago. It was like no time had passed, I was right back there, trapped and unable to breathe, afraid to the (continued in comments👇🏻)