I took this 3 years ago. Mel was completing his 8th cycle of chemo. His doctor was optimistic that he would remain in remission. Yet he didn't. When we took this picture we thought our journey with cancer was over. Yet God knew it wasn't. God knew that just one year later we would be standing in front of the same tree with Mel fighting for his life. God knew Mel would die. God knew the pain that we were going to endure. He knew struggle and heartbreak that death would cause. He knew the tears I would cry and the questions I would have. It is easy to wonder why, if God knew the pain we would endure, He didn't heal Mel on earth. But we have to remember death is not a punishment. God choosing not to heal Mel on earth didn't diminish His power and ability. The pain we endure on earth is temporary. And heaven is where we all desire to go. And so while God allowed the pain, He also knew that even in the dense fog when I couldn't see a way out, He would make sure we would make it. He knew that even though to me it seemed like my dreams were shattered, He would slowly fill me with other dreams. He knew that even though the story didn't end the way I hoped, there were still great things in store for me. He knew He would give me peace in the midst of turmoil, comfort in the midst of sorrow and hope in the midst of mourning.
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