I REALLY DONT LIKE GETTING PERSONAL AND IM REALLY AWKWARD/BAD W WORDS SO JUST IGNORE ME AND LET ME BE IN MY FEELS OK 😂
last night was.....interesting. I walked into my bathroom to try and find relief for another panic attack.. and I opened my cabinet to see this. I stopped and thought to myself, why am i here? what the fuck have these little circles and ovals really done for me? if they were doing their job, then WHY do I need to take so many? all for essentially one problem??? like wtf have they done? seriously?!.
nothing. fucking nothing.... i’ve been off all medications for around 6 months maybe longer, unfortunately I didn’t really pay attention to when I stopped, I just said FUCK this and put them away, and let me tell you something. the MINUTE I put these fucking bottles down is the minute I started progressing. that’s when I started growing, and getting better. finding my voice and becoming my self all over again. my mind was clear, and I felt more confident going out and doing things. i started really feeling like my self again.. all these pills made me quiet, blank, emotionless almost. i was so different. my outbursts seemed to be outrageous, and I could never get a damn grip until I took yet another fucking pill 😂 I know to most, this is NOTHING compared to what some people have to continue to take daily, but for me I had NEVER imagined my self being one of those people that needs to take 3+ pills a day just to feel “normal”... all i’m trying to say is i’m fucking proud of myself. and for anybody out there trying to wean themselves off these little fucks: YOU CAN DO IT. it’s really hard at first, you’ll feel like shit and your emotions will be all over the place... but I can honestly say that QUITTING all this shit is what’s made me better. i’m proud to say I don’t need these anymore, and they will continue to do what they always have; nothing. they’ll continue to collect dust in my cabinet 🖕🏻#fuckbigpharma