⭐️ SEASON 2 ⭐️ is here & we’re kicking it off with the incredible story of @ChrislynChoo journey to tracing her family’s multicultural migration story from China 🇨🇳 to Malaysia 🇲🇾 & around the world.
“There were the ways in which I have sometimes felt misunderstood. I have felt like people treated me like a stereotype. There are the ways in which I've had to work harder for an opportunity because of something I can't control, like the way I look. All of us have some kind of privilege and privilege is very relative and that's not something that you can hold against another person and be like,‘Oh no, you can't come to the table until you have done everything in your life to disavow yourself of that.’ All of us have some kind of privilege. Living abroad has taught me that I was always so confused in these conversations because the privilege I have in the US is different than a privilege I have in Malaysia.
It was always this feeling of not being sure if my whole self was welcome and not seeing role models, examples of voices of authority or people that are seen as folks that you can look up to. I would always be very conscious of how I dress and how I act. It was always like I don't want to be either offensive or seen as the oppressor, like I was always in fear of being a perpetrator in some kind of way, so I was always kind of conforming. The culmination of living that way for months was that I felt I needed to get out of the country.
Coming to China was coming to that place where I felt whole… and I embraced it. There are ways in which I've internalized these stories about Chinese people… ways that I've resented certain Chinese attitudes or ways in which we really suck at conflict resolution and we hide everything under the carpet and we never address anything. And that created this gap that caused me to want to distance this part of myself. But when you do that, you're not a whole person. So it's all about crossing those gaps within myself.“