Often, I just really love being me and being comfortable at it best, so I just wear jeans and tee. Sometimes, on the good days, I could wake up early and do a little prepare to being decent ((my mom words tho)). And a few times, on the bad days, I put extra effort to be neat and dress prettily, not because I want to impress others, but because I NEED to proving myself that I brave enough to life the day in front of me. But on the worst day, when I just want to curling up on bed, hiding inside my blanket, then, F everything. I just gonna sleep in, as long as I can. I just gonna wash my face, brush my teeth then eat bad food ((ofc M*D)). I just gonna caving in the corner of coffe shop with my my notes or mac and throwing all those thing in my head and heart to the blank page.
I’m being the most selfish version of me lately but I don’t regret it even for a bit.
My wall getting taller, bigger and also stronger.
But for now I’m content with it, cause if I fail once again, if I fall once again, then I’m done.
Maybe I should say sorry, but hey, I don’t need to explain my behavior, do I ? .