EATING HEALTHY BEING AN OBSESSION!?
Last year, I started to develop orthorexia, which essentially meant I became OBSESSED with being "healthy", eating ONLY "healthy foods", not being flexible (if there was sugar, oil, salt I would not eat it), and I developed A LOT of anxiety around food. ---
My relationship with food was definitely at its lowest. I had this mentality for 3-5 months. It was EXHAUSTING. However, when I realised what was happening to me I tried my best to snap out of it because truthfully, I wasn't enjoying food anymore. I couldn't go out to a dinner, a party, etc. because I knew there wouldn't be a lot of "healthy options" for me. ---
Regarding today, the reason why I eat what I eat is because it makes me FEEL GOOD. It genuinely nourishes my body and at this point, my body CRAVES these foods. Yes, I still do eat foods like Oreo McFlurrys, a slice of store-bought cake, yam fries, etc. 4-6 times a week, but that's only when my body wants it. Essentially, I just follow a 80/20 rule; 80% of the time I'm eating delicious, healthy, nourishing food for my body, and 20% of the time I eat food that nourishes my soul & attends to my sweet tooth. ---
Truth is, you gotta listen to your body. ESPECIALLY when you're recovering from an eating disorder. It's crucial that you don't restrict yourself to the point that you begin to binge when you allow yourself some of that food you crave. And even if you've been eating not the most nutritious foods lately, your body WILL EVENTUALLY start to want more nutrient-dense foods. ---
So yes, I mostly eat meals with a mix of good sources of protein, fats, carbs, and lots of micronutrients! But I also eat ice cream, fries, cookies, cake, filipino treats, and I ENJOY LIFE [also yes i am aware i am using my father's mug hehe]