I enjoy sharing my journal blurbs equally with the thought behind them. Most of them are reminders to myself.
I knew going in some of my stuff wouldn't be 'popular'. A nude art & content page based in feminism. Who does that?! 🤔 Although I like to think the notion could be well recieved one day. 😉💃 Here's another not popular idea - I've never believed in the concept of a 'soul mate'. Others do, that's cool. But I wrote it in a journal at 18 & it's still true. I believe in fostering 'soulful connections'
Relationships don't stand on fancy words over time, they are made in small daily actions.
I was totally that kill-joy, that when a man I'd been dating for a few months said he loved me, I said 'Oh... That's nice. Thanks... " Why not echo that back in such a hollywood-esque moment? Media tells us all the time love is needed to feel complete... Because it wasn't true for me. Taking care of someone's emotional well-being in a committed relationship is a huge responsibility. Why lead someone on if you're not sure? I enjoy long term relationships, it's worth a contemplate & a moment to see if I feel the same.
I just think it's important to recognize that emotions can be induced, manipulated & created. They are chemical reactions & responses in the brain and not overly unique. Why seek movies, entertainment, music & arts? For myself, it's a safe way to feel the vast array of human emotion - with the power of choice & consent in those experiences.
I've fallen in love against logic. I've not listened to my inner voice. I've let others convince me my feelings & comfort in a relationship aren't founded. You could get lucky, it could work out. Though I often see deep hurt as a result.
Moving forward I pay attention to things that I know wouldn't be compatible - things in my past I would have glossed over and made 'ok'. To hold onto that love feeling. Nowadays, ethical, mutual & conscious attachment seem so much more appealing & attractive. And it's worth the wait. 💗
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