Today, I’m thankful for a God that chases after me, no matter how far away I run from him. I’ve been feeling extremely convicted that my actions don’t line up with my words. I’ve fallen back into old habits and strayed so far from the Lord but I can feel him pulling at my heart strings and begging me to come home.
When my heart feels faint, lead me to the rock that is higher than I. When I feel like I can no longer move forward, Lord, help me to rest in knowing that you’ve got this. You’ve felt this pain and this confusion, just as I have, and you’ve seen it through. You’ve conquered the grave and death itself, so why should I fear?
On another note, I’m so so thankful that today, Thanksgiving, wasn’t ridden with anxiety and hatred in my heart. That I was able to be present and enjoy the company of my family without worrying about when things would take a turn for the worst. So much of my life this far has revolves around intense anxiety around my family and feeling unwanted and uncomfortable around them, but today I am praising Jesus for alleviating me from that pain and anxiety. Thank you Jesus for letting me be present and enjoy the loved ones you’ve surrounded me with. Happy Thanksgiving y’all.