It’s nights like tonight I remember so vividly why I started doing yoga. For years I abused my body by exercise and overworking it. Creating self dialog that would get me through the physical pain..”no pain no gain” or “only the best stay disciplined” etc etc. I would miss out on social events and anything that had to do with self care or love. I considered myself doing those things by always working out and dieting, comparing myself to everyone else i “should look like” thinking i would get ahead and “there” eventually. I felt like i was working hard for the perfect outcome. I remember when I was a waitress in college...I would walk 6 blocks in downtown LA to work, work an entire shift (running around as servers do) then walking back to my apartment or 9 blocks to school(for a 3 hour class which was usually on my feet working on project). I remember my mother asking me how many hours I was on my feet and after doing the math i realized i was on my feet more hours of the day than sleeping and sitting combined. I was doing so much and feeling nothing... This went on for years. ~~~~i continued this cycle thinking i was getting healthier as the years went on. ~~~~~~two years ago during that moment i felt myself connect on a deeper level to a dimension (meditating during yoga) i couldn’t actually see it but this feeling gave me a sense of wellbeing, I knew i was healing from within. My inner self being was whole for once. I learned that if you just listen to your body you can feel what it needs. Sometimes that’s sleep,stillness, nutrients,movement, rejuvenation, or💕 love !!!
**************today i had a hard day ...i don’t even know why. I felt off , sad, frustrated and tired. When i got home @jacobseed had a hempie😊 (peanut butter, hemp seeds, rice cereal, maple syrup, chocolate chips...just in case you thought it was something else😋)and the chakra colors for the lights above where i have been doing my yoga 🧘🏼♀️...I’m so thankful for times that remind me of who i want to be and bring me back to center.
#lakshmi goddess -