2. Start watching your thoughts and STOP BEING SO FUCKING MEAN TO YOURSELF!
It wasn't very long ago that I realised with clarity that being in my head and becoming conscious of my thoughts was like suddenly becoming aware of the fact I'd been living with a cruel, critical, merciless bully who had been there so long and felt so natural I couldn't even remember life without her. Questioning and criticizing and comparing constantly at every single opportunity. Telling me nothing about myself was "good enough" or made me a person deserving of anything positive. My artwork, body, face, heart weren't good enough, these thoughts on repeat everyday for years. I don't know where the cruel mentality manifested from and I feel some guilt for having unwittingly created and fed it myself, without realising how much damage these crushing critical thoughts were doing. Beating my own sense of self worth to a pulp - silently, secretly, for years.
Undertaking the task of reversing damage done internally, and consciously rearranging habitual thought patterns that have the strength of years or reinforcement, is monumentally challenging. And requires a very significant engagement of patience, practice and persaverence.
One thing I found helpful is to think of the way you speak to your best friends and lovers - how open you are with love and encouragement and kindness, especially in their darkest times. Practice showering this mentality back on yourself. If the things you tell yourself every day are things you wouldn't tolerate being said to another human being ... WHY on earth should you be hearing them yourself? Don't embody your own worst enemy.
So, become conscious of your thought patterns and practice the control of altering those that harm you. You don't have to just "let" thoughts happen to you ... but do give yourself time to change them, and accept that if you've been beating yourself up for years, it will take time to heal.
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